I wish you were a liquid
I could extract you from my veins
and never have to see
your pretty face again

or if you were a song
stuck so deeply in my head
I would just have to play
a different song instead

maybe a scent
stuck deep within my nose
I'd could just go outside
and smell a garden rose

even a dream
had deep within the night
I would just wake myself up
out of sheer fright

but sadly you're a scar
cast deep upon my heart
growing deeper
as we stay apart

You've taken everything from me
the best years of my life
are now yours
but you just cast them aside like an ugly christmas sweater
you're awful to me
i wish it was anyone else but you
and  i can't even begin to fathom what i see in you
i hate you so much
so why does this hurt so much?
like the sweater you pulled a string
and everything comes apart
piece by piece
strand by strand
I've unraveled

sneaking in was easy
seeing you was the hard part

I saw her standing there, in her white marshmallow dress
then you beside her in your tuxedo, looking as if you've seen a ghost

the preacher began to speak
my hands began to shake

"speak now, or forever hold your peace"
either way, this would not be peaceful

I showed myself,
wearing that black dress you knew so well

proclaiming loudly "I do!"
as your eyes found mine
they silently screamed
"I do too."

sometimes we don't agree
but you know you're forever stuck with me

we'll sit in our carboard boxes
race around the block
pretend we're super heros
forever on the clock

All of a sudden we've grown up
getting our nails done downtown
the best days of our lives,
silently flying by

we've laughed through the best times
and we survived the worst
from late nights to early mornings
from carboard boxes to pedicures

sometimes we don't agree
but you know you're forever stuck with me

You help me stand up straight and tall
even though I'm feeling small

you keep me confident and strong
even though I'm barely holding on

my backbone says i'm the only one
too bad he doesn't have one

you're too busy

                                          it doesn't matter

I'm not worth the effort

                                                                        it takes two
too make this friendship  work

                                                                              why am I the only one trying?

my purple shirt

far too big for me
but you used to fit my mother perfectly

the rip in your shoulder doesn't bother me
it tells of what has been

and even though you cant say much
I feel safe inside your fabrics touch

as a fall asleep tonight
my purple shirt I grasp tight

shooting stars
wishbones
dandelions
coin tosses
and birthday candles
I wish for you

friendship
love
happiness
kisses
forever & always
I wish you could see

I hate you
I hate the way you’ve forgotten me
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you’re pushing me away
I hate how you’ve replaced me
I hate how you treat me
I hate what she’s done to you
I hate the words that come from your mouth
I hate how you don’t hate her
I hate how you don’t understand
I hate who you’ve become
I hate how you’ll never know
how much
I really hate you...

drifting along, out to sea
when you stop, do you think of me?
I watch the water, as tears flow
did you really have to go?
and as I watch with glittering eyes
the whole world, dark and wide
crumbles.

I can feel it pulse
rush through my veins

like acid
it burns through me

this surge of power
this wave
of red heat

it gives me strength
I shouldn't have

Stranded,
or so I feel
no communication
or so it seems

you're no where to be seen
no one is
but that's fine with me

here, I can finally be myself
open my soul
scream,
cry,
dance,
sing,

No one around to see me for who I am
but that's okay,
'cause I kind of like being with  me
and honestly
you don't really have to.

We lie awake and dream our dreams, letting our thoughts flow like streams,
Like mist around the moon, on a warm night in June
They vanish.
Tick, tock the time rolls around the clock,
Slowly but surely fought, lessons, they never seem taught
Forgotten.
Although changed is expected, it is never fully accepted
A frightening contemplation, but a permanent deliberation
Such is life.
We’re positioned at this conditioned point
As time rattles on, like you’re just a pawn
In this short game.
A careless thought, no longer sought
Left alone life a leaf being blown
Away in the wind.
You can try screaming, just to find meaning
But what you desire will soon expire
As will it all.
Sewing the seam never truly gets rids of the dream
A life without strife
Would be wonderful
The thought of life without good-bye could make one’s heart fly
A million miles above, soaring like a dove
Away from the world.

My heart's on my sleeve
I'm running with the wind

I don't know where I'm going
because I haven't gotten there yet

but my hopes are high as moutains,
my dreams as big as oceans

look again at the heart on my sleeve
it's armoured,

stronger than it's ever been
so come on baby,

take your best shot

you ask me why I left
as if I had abandon you
when the truth is
you had abandon me

day in and day out
I was there,
for each and everyone of you
and I can't say I regret it

But with all the drama
silently brewing strong
I slowly got cut out
of what I thought was part of my life

I just couldn't bear it anymore
remember, this is poetry, nothing more
but when it all comes down too it
I never abandon you
I just got strong

I can't look out for everyone anymore
I'm not the person you need
you've grown up, maybe grown apart

Turns out I grew up too,
I needed a place to spread my wings
a fresh start
some new faces
somewhere where I can speak.

So let the winter winds blow
and swallow me whole
just like the thoughts of you
have consumed my soul

So let the snow fall
soft and sweet
as your words
flush my cheeks

So let the cold
chill me to the bone
your arms wrapped around me
feel like home

A cool atumn breeze
like the kiss of the night
how I wish you were here
to hold me tonight
You're arms around me
ever so tight
I can promise you,
everything would be *alright

paint a picture of your perfect self
put it high upon the pedestal
that's who you are
that's who you want to be
but this is the person
I never see.
the person you see in the mirror
is not the one that stands infront of me
the person in the mirror is kind, sincere,
the person I see cries a river from a word
the person in the mirror,
and the one standing here
should have a chat,
meet in the middle
cause i'm tired of coming out black and blue
over a simple word

My white walls grow higher each day

Stark and cold, tall and thick

They’re like a well around me

I can see the exit, the burning brightness of the other side

But the walls are much too high to climb out by now,

I can see the shadows of people,

Some look down, some just walk by

And pretend that everything’s okay,

Pretend I’m not in so deep

Not so over my head,

Some of them even attempt to reach down,

And help me out,

But they can’t quite reach, an eventually

They give up, and just pretend the walls aren’t there

But no one’s ever tried the door.

Your boyish beauty breaks
my vacant chest aches

To see you’re fragile wall shatter,
your heart stops the pitter-patter

I’m trying to sew the seam
where the crack ruptured your dream

Being around you helps me fly
And I can’t bear to say goodbye.

I guess you never knew me at all
because you obviously don't understand
how positively ignorant you are.
expecting me to tell you everything
when you tell me nothing
I'm not gonna miss you
this impact you have on my life
is faltering
and it will fade
sweet and slow
how could you expect so much more
when you're giving so little
to someone who you claims means so much
I kinda hate you.

who are you?
that's one question I can't seem to answer,
I know who you were
my best friend
you cared
you weren't so ignorant
not so sarcastic
someone I could talk to
someone I cared about
now it's different
I don't know you like I used to
and by the way you're acting
you obviously forget who I am,
but one day
that will be okay
because i'm slowly forgetting who you were
and I have no intention of finding out
who you are now
goodbye
good luck.

I want to scream
          just to let it out
this mass of feeling
                           not sad
not happy
                        just there
in my chest
                 making me *choke

one
you're the only one

two
i dont know what you want

three
this can't go on this way

four
It's over forever

five*
I lied

miles are between us

but I feel so close to you
almost like you're here
holding me close
letting me know just how close you really are

your smile is infectious
it makes me feel warm from my head to my toes
even on the coldest nights
where I can't even feel my toes

your eyes are deep
they make me feel like a single moment
could last forever
just like I dream it could

but we're miles apart
you're not here
I can't see your smile,
feel your touch
or stare into your eyes

to feel guilt
you've obviously done some that your concious feels
guilt worthy
why push the posion in
own up to your actions
pushing something away
doesn't get rid of it
it just removes it from sight.

you scream and yell
I curse and cry
It's not how it's supposed to be

You call me useless
tell me I'm worthless
I'm just young
let me be free

I should be able to have flaws
learn from my mistakes
not hating who I am
because you do

This is just the beginning
of the rest of my life
cinematic and dramatic
**I don't need you.

It's like you don't hear them at all
they know what she is
what she's doing
to you

it's like you've taken you're fragile heart
hidden it, far away
and I don't know how to get there
I don't know how to get through
to you

you know what she's doing
still you stay by her side
because in your mind,
she's everything
to you

and here I am, thinking of you
wondering what you're thinking of, or who
wishing I could mean everything
*to you

Everytime you look at me
I don't think you can really see

the sparkle in my eye
just because you walk by

the way my face begins to shine
as we walk along the shoreline

even if I had a choice
my feelings would still remain unvoiced

without your light I'm left in the dark
so shine your light on my fragile heart

Sometimes,
I'd like to break every clock
just so time would stand still
and I could stay in this moment
with you,
forever

But as I blink,
I discover time, like you, has moved on
and like a broken clock, I haven't

and while you're out there,
looking for yourself
I'll be here
without you

But you'll never know
because you seem to have forgotten
what your heart is for

The cold wind whips around my face

throwing my hair and turning my cheeks pink

the snow falls daintily, dancing within the wind

each flake a different pattern

just like every person has a story

you take my hand and we collapse into the white covered ground

later it will be shivers and sniffles

but right now, it's a cold bliss

hey there
look at me
I talk, I breathe, my heart beats
not that it matters to you
I'm there when you need me
but you seem to be far too busy
when I need you

so now,
i'll try not needing you
not that I ever truely did
now the world is crashing
because I don't talk to you

I'm glad for your time
but stop wasting mine
without you, I won't die
I'm not the one who's lost
without me

My world is a beautiful place
it rains
it snows
the wind whips
the water flows
everything is so alive

Your world is dark
too cold
too hot
too wet
too dry
everything is hollow

but,
we seem to live in the same world
so why don't you come closer
come look what at what I'm seeing

let go of your stress
let go of your negativity
let go of your anger
breathe in this world

come look through my eyes
because in my eyes
you're just as beautiful
as the world around

no matter if it rains
no matter if it snow
even while then wind whips
even as the water flows

I'll never forget the beauty I see in you
I just hope one day
You can see this beauty too

Hey you,
with the beautiful eyes
and the mischevious smile
you don't know me,
and maybe you never will
but right now, you make me smile
without doing a thing
and maybe in a few years
I'll forget about you
never look at you like I do now
but right now,
*oh man

you make my heart want to scream
but I don't know why

you make me shake
when you're standing next to me

you make me feel young again
like that ten year old you used to know

Everything is so different now
but my feelings are still the same

six years, and you still give me butterflies
I feel naive, while my age shows through

but your voice
brings me endless comfort

the waves crashed
the air whipped
I loved you

the door slammed
you drove so fast
my heart broke

the months passed
life went on
I survived

the phone rings
my eyes cry
**I missed you

Things are better when you're around
I worry less
I smile more
my heart begins to pound

Things are better when you're around
I laugh for hours
I dance in snow
my feet fly off the ground

Things are better when you're around
I rhyme my words
and kiss through tears
I'm glad it's you I've found

suppress
drown
just go away
don't come back any other day

I don't want to think you
I don't want to feel you
get out of my mind

I'm losing it
I could lose you
I'm just so tired of trying

you call me pretty and take my hand
with your bright eyes
and warm inviting smile
you pick me up
and spin me around
and kiss me so gently
my cheeks flush as my heart races
you hold me tight in your arms
my world freezes in this moment
as the real world moves on
never knowing what it feels like to be here
with you,
this can't really be healthy