Surrounded by empty bottles
Falling off my bed through the night
They wake me for a moment
Reminding me I am far from alright

Pictures I once drew
Staring at me from that place I knew

Think of me as a knight
A drunk or a punk
Makes no difference to me knowing
I am in fact less than than

I cut myself tonight
I needed to feel, but I still cant

Maybe ill take another sip
Maybe this one will last
And if not I got another waiting
My throat is parched, not yet numb

What happened? And where did I go?
Lost control of my thoughts
Thinking I still had control

Curious to take a bite
Out of this pie of glass
I hope tonight I savor what I always lacked

Think of me as a wonderer
Or a painter without a brush
Dont need a canvas, dont need a cast
I draw the lines of ecstasy
With the blood from the past

When crying became pointless
Hours past as if i was forbidden to wonder
The lights down the street marking
That thinning and empty path

Gram by gram I wonder
Could you **** my very essence of lust
One line after another and I still
Feel nothing more than a rush

Think of me as a lover
A lier or a ghost
Think of me as I wonder
For this night I wish id never ponder

Gram by gram Ill shallow
The thin lines of dust
Hoping one day I find
If I can feel the corners
of a square made of glass

Good night, rest well
I said to you every night I lived

A kiss on the forehead
I gave to you holding my heart in a pinch

Your tender sweet smell
My sons, for you I gave my very self

I walk the streets at night
Hoping to one day I find
Your ever loving faces
Telling me “daddy, we are back”

I walk a dark path
Because the truth is, without you im lost

I dance a line which vanishes
The moment I close my eyes.

My soul cries every morning
Because I dont get to wake up by you

I drown myself at night, knowing
Knowing I can never get you back

My angels I wonder
I hope with every last breath I grasp,
I ponder moment after moment
For the moment I lost you
Took away the sanity I once had.

Night after night I shelter
In the last few corners i have

My babies, my boys
Ill once more hold you closely
Im trying to make my way back.

You got taken away from me
The truth is, i had no fighting chance
There are demons around us
And someday youll rest
Knowing they took you away from me
While I begged and begged and begged.

I wish I could hold you
I wish, I wish
Hold you near me
Sing to you one last time
I wish my loving rocco and tili
For you own my heart
And my every beating beat.

If I could Id tell you
What is like to surrender.

If I was able to, Id show you
How a dead soul mourns at night.

Shivers that dress me in madness
Waiting for a cold breeze to cast a spell,
Tremors I was once surrounded with
Hold my hand into abyss.

Like tearing flesh with a rotten iron bar,
Or wiping my back open
With the tears of a thousand broken hearts.

Rip my nails, burn me lonely
So I can once again feel.
The shattered picture I held near me
Lost a place to be in.

Like a blade cutting deeply
Into every vein, every limb,
I’ll fantasize of a place
Where pain will cease to exist.

Drag me through the mud now
Mock me if you dare,
Spit on me, hopeless ending dreams.

Rip me away from madness
Carve a hole in my grin,
Create a world of nonsense
Where I can once again wish.

Oh if I could I would,
Hold onto to you once more
I understand is far from truth now,
But would you please explain to me
Why a whisper can travel forever
But a wish would die young?

Show me, I beg you,
The path to redeem.
Guide me, I ask of you
While I drive off a broken and rusty bridge.

Ill pretend to paint a painting
Using some cloth, some paint and a brush.

Ill attempt to describe your beauty
Like I could ever have a fair shot.

Ill dream of casting an image, or a thought
So angels can vanish, knowing they lost at last.

Ill wish for one more moment, as I witness
The stars coming to a halt,
Sitting next to the pit in fire
Matching that warmth spell you casted fast.

Ill drink one last bottle
Tonight and forever shall never last,

Oh, ill win every battle
If it got me closer to your heart.

Ill look at your eyes and pause a moment
So I can understand the endless pit,
With every second I stare
A demon surrenders
In the hope you’ll look back at him.

Ill render the deepest sorrow
Ill walk the longest way back,
For with every second i saw you
A new hell awaits to take me back.

Yeah, Ill melt in your silhouette
Ill dance away in your dreams,
An perhaps one day I wonder,
Would I ever see such a forbidden dream?

Soft are your curves
A decadence in disguise,
A smooth tempting sin

Your skin like a dream
Dancing like they do in the ocean,
for with each touch
I melt, I pause and I imagine

you move like the waves,
God, Neptune must be insane!
to create such a beauty
from the droplets of the seas.

your eyes put to shame the Horizon
two timid looking stars in the distance,
marking a new path to sail on
for the wonderer kings
who only wish is to by you be touched.

your voice like a distant salty breeze,
perfumed by the mysteries
that hide in the deep deep sea
like an universe of sounds,
that compere to nothing Ive found.

for one day i wish I conquer
that which seems to be a queen,
the dancing queen of the ocean
for which my heart beats.

with the chill of the wind
audible in the close distance.
the morning droplets on the dead skin
painting a landscape of hopeless worlds
that will soon perish.

under the still darkness
moonlight glistening on your skin,
under the twisted spell of life
I hold you down and feel your soul breathe
holding you tight until you can finally feel.

I've seen demons, angels and dust
like shadows casted by the old man,
I've seen beauty in the ugliest of places
seen demons with pretty faces
followed angel with a dark hollow heart
baby I've seen, well I've seen nearly all

come lay down for a moment
let that moment never stop
let your wrongly placed tears leave your face
they can live on my chest instead..

rest your fears on my darkest corner
from there I can easily protect you,

lay on me for a second
I like to feel your small trembles,
let yourself feel a little closer to home

quiet down for a moment,
let the tears dry up
your eyes carry so much pain
they don't allow you to see clearly when wet

kiddo, allow yourself to be you
life will never be easy
for this is not living,
but let every step you take under the ****** whisper of sorrows
testify to yourself, that despite everything
the demons cry to have you, because the can't