and you told me it was killing you,
it had been killing you
to stand next to me all day
and not even get to touch my lips
so you sat in my passenger seat after we dropped everyone else off at their doors and asked me not to take you home yet.
"Please," you said
and how could I ever resist

I woke up in a box
in the backseat of an unfamiliar car,
driving endlessly and terrifyingly fast
(or maybe we were going so slow it made me itch for a thrill)
I couldn't get out
because this lady was holding me down
and she had it in her mind that she'd like to watch me drown
(in gasoline)
so she could see me scream as I charred
into ashes
burning me
and the box
and the car
to the ground

I am sun-kissed and crazy about you

I met you by accident
as you walked to my car and got in the trunk
and I kept my headphones in so I didn't have to listen to anything you said.
I met you by accident
when you asked me what music I liked
and a week later I discovered it was yours that I liked
because of that, every song reminds me of you.
I met you by accident
in your backseat when I put my head to your chest
and you put your nose in my hair and kissed the top of my head
I met you by accident

man, i can spend my entire day
hoping to see you

I feel like I've changed so much in the past two months,
now I'm constantly changing
(it's okay to change)
(right?)
now i let myself have nightmares
and somehow I've lost some friends and gained some new ones
and somehow
I'm letting you in
but not even I know what you're getting into

super good at having super split ends
and hoping you won't notice
really great at embarrassing myself
(maybe you won't mind)