No Kiss Goodbye
Not one Last Cuddle

You had your time
You ****** me dry

My heart bleeds
My lungs set Free

Eyes Open Wide
Mouth sealed Shut

All my hearts longed for..
In just one Kiss..

What is this?

You bring out all I've been missing inside..
I see all of me for the first time.

I got lost in your Green Eyes
My heart has doubled it's size.

My Soul Sings for you..
My heart Cries for him.

Can't help my Soul recognized..
Set on fire.. Can you feel it?

Or is it just a manifestation of my desire?

You say I cut you to the core.. I know you want more.

More.. leaves this open as ever.
So I say Goodbye to him.
Hello to You.. Lets take our time.

Twin Flame, I think not.
Just Needed an alibi to be insane.

I used you for your spark
Your ungodly fiery flame

You gleamed me in the eyes
the Heat rose up inside

Like a million Butterflies
attached to electric shocks

In the mirror I stare
At all I am and never lived to be

I saw you in me... me in you.

I breathed you in over and over again.
Yet my bed is still with him.

Did I ****** you,
Lure you with my mind.

With my *** demon smiling on the inside
saying everything is fine.

I stalk, I prey, I conquer. men are easy.

Did I need to feel you to take part in your flame.
Now my lioness got caught in the game.

Claws drawn waiting to dig in..
The rest of me needing to pull away.

So I told him its over but in bed we lay.
Not touching with nothing to say.

I feel for another is what I should say.
Truth is I am a coward who needs the tension and release.

Why must I play this Game.
My thoughts are hurting My weary Head.

Oh how I miss my green eyes.
my green eyes.
That saw me so fine.
How shinny I shine in your greeneyes.

Fire burn so bright in, greeneyes.

Shake me up. Rattle my insides.
Make be remember where my passion is.
Forever I feel all of you as mine
All of you. All the time.
Had me loosing my mind
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You spoke words I never heard.
cut me to the core: had me always wanting more.

I put my self in the best place to be used and push away but I swayed so I guess it has to be this way.

Hearts became one that day, you know. You felt what words can never display with what we felt beyond touch. It melts me awake each and every day. I love you to the change in me this way. Fire is lite my lovin..

So in love with my reflection in your eyes makes me feel like I'm stuck up on cloud nine.

The energy that flows between us is electric. Burning in the deep blue, my soul feeling like this is all that's true. Everything else could be an optical illusion. When our eyes meet the room goes silent and starts to spin as if we have been meeting just this way for centuries. I see you **** beyond your physical body. I read your waves for days with no words able to explain what your existence has awakened.
My Muse. My Love. I wait.

The cool breeze. Sets in.
Fluttering leaves. Help me See.

Chest filled with Warmth.
Eyes craving new sites.

Swarming thoughts.
Like bee's around a common yarrow.

My dream filled Soul.
Won't stop nudging. Tick Tock

The Clock spins quickly.
No more time wasted on a wanna be.

Feet move in the Only direction.
Life is here to be tasted, felt, and Seen.
To be Heard.

New flavors, feelings, sites, and sounds.
Await, Like Songs to be sung from a birds air filled lungs.

Sweet sweet Sun. Show me my home.
Take me away. Onto that Road.

Leaving the dust brimming wind behind me.
You see. We know not what time has for us.

What will your duration be in the monotony.
Stretching to new heights. Taking a leap in my reality.

Forget what was to build something bigger than us.
We are just a vessel of never ending love.

Ten days shy of two months
No part of me misses you.

An ocean of tears
Lost in years of fear.

Never there to hold me
Always pushed aside.

They weights been lifted
Heartache shifted

Silly girl, do you know love?

Sadness..tears.. I know not the love my soul craves.

When darkness consumes us.
Will we cave into our fears.

Everything we do everyday. Gone.

Electricity Disappears.
Frantic Faces. Searching. Running. Hurting.

What will I have to give.

Feed me knowledge so that I may live.
Give me Grace and Understanding.

If this is true. I've heard the words my Whole life.

This place we call home was built to be destroyed.
We have feed the destruction. We are one.

In desperate times will you love or fight.
Will we destroy ourselves from within.
Before the Flames set in.

Can it just be a new start. Clean Slate.
Get back to basics.
Rebuild.
Grow.
Evolve Spiritually.

Or is this the Beginning of the End.

If you were a drug
You'd be crack *******

As you crackle and pop
My heart wouldn't stop

What a sucker for the game.
Because I'm a women we're all the same..?

But still you caught me.
I always see the best in people.

Silly me, such a fool.
All I am in this life is a tool.

You can wear a mask say what you say.
This life is one of many.
And I'm with you to stay.

So digress if will
if that's what soothes your aching heart.
I'll be waiting in the stars to love you back to life.

Mistreated stepped on but always giving.
Love can't be locked in a box it wouldn't be love.

With pink streaming lights,
connected from above,
I will dance through this life with nothing but LOVE"

I came to you in my dream last night
still wanted nothing to do with me. Thought if I met you there I could have you the way I always wanted to..
but my dreams reflected the reality
my imagination ran out.

So I said forget you finally
and took a flight through the clouds.

I was thinking you were the love in me but it was the other way around.

Now all that's left of you is a spineless slimy shell. A coward is a person to awaken the love in another with no intention of loving her.

Still grateful for the spark that made me realize I am the love in me
forever swimming
in the glorious river of eternity

and your lost scooping crumbs of what I left behind.. but even the crumbs need love and maybe that's your role. Wishing you all the best my not so friend after all."

  I am filled with all from above and I thank GOD I am WHOLE. So blessed the obsession is gone.

It can be quick or slow
But Onion Peels got me ready to flow.

I write to read what emotion I live in my path. Who I am. whats been acomplised. It's all just perseption you know.

I a free moving soul. Dancing on a 70 degress breeze, moving through galexies. While my feet sink deeply into roots. I am all of this on my own two feet you are just as I living your peace. Love and hate swirling to mate. But can never be one. So they create friction that sparks dust fate. We are but star dust seeking its source. Forever living in cycles of form because our minds can't concieve being al(l)one.

The subtle sound of the ice cracking beneath me feet


I shut my eyes. How long have I been sleeping?

Now again I awake in this bed of denial

Again. Repeat. Obsess. Over and over...

Can't just forget. It gets worse every time.

How do you explain hopping back on that coo coo train?

Insanity. Period. One answer. Lets not complicate this.

Just one more got me no where before.

I just want to be cool. I don't want to be weak. I just want to forget whats being held over my head.
I want the freedom. I want to tease, excite, and leave.

The only way to fix this is to make it right not keep letting life pass me by trying to hide my other side.

Self sabotage. Its easier to admit defeat when when there is nothing left. I don't want that. I've got too much.

It's not okay. This is not acceptable.

I don't want to out shine you.
Just want to be your friend

I want to embrace all of you
share all I have within.

Lets bring out the best in each other
Not tare each other to pieces.

I can be evil too..
But I don't want to talk down on you!

You don't shine any brighter throwing dirt on her name or mocking her misfortunes or smirking at her shame. Its you who is a sad shell of a woman. So before you judge her and shred her name remember..

All that you are comes from what you've been through so imagine the strength it takes coming from the bottom or standing up when you've repeatedly fallen.

Look in the mirror do you love everything you see? Are you all you intended to be?

Why not build someone up instead of tare them apart..

Isn't enough breaking us down every day, leaving us in the dark.


Its time we accept our place as women. Come together without Competition. We all have strengths we can share our wisdom and when we are weak need a compassionate ear to listen.

In my fantasy world
I asked for you to appear

In reality you showed up
Filled with delight

The words still refuse to come out right
We know I'm a bit crazy..

CrAckling of electricity the world goes quite, my cheeks turn red, oh the pleasure and the pain of your presence.

As I stand strong and vulnerable... Open and raw from our last encounter
Still I love you the same..

So I push forward into the fourth demention so that I can grab a hold of you. Shake your psyche so you could feel the urgency my soul craves us to be.

But I know if it's meant to be it will be.. And all my dreams and thoughts bring you no closer. I must let you be free so you heart can decide where it's meant to be.

Curious of what stirs within
the thought of touch

My eye drawn in
the unseen or heard

Body temperature rises
heartbeats, beats, breath

deeper and deeper
the heat rises
breath just breath.

this connection undefined
breaks walls and crosses lines

Words turn to faint noise
What is this..?

Am I hypnotized
Stuck? Lost? Frozen in time?

In those green green eyes

Shh..Silence. I must not know you.
Stay forever, Go running, Hide!!

Silly me
Even days in dark thoughts
I still have innocence

Silly love
Be good to me
Light, happy, free

Silly games
only play out in my head
erase them please

Silly nerves
Just simmer down now
Let life be what its meant to be.

Silly Mind
Don't go running away
or Stay and over analyze

Silly me is I am
Be Light
Be Love
Be Free
Woman I am

Fluke
DECEMBER 20 · ONLY ME
I miss you. It must go unsaid.
I want you. The thought you must dread.
I hurt you. I feel it. I couldn't wait. I put you in a place you didn't want to be.
I hurt me. I said it. The natural flow of what could have been. Is behind me.
No light shines brighter. No soul brings fire. No touch moves me inside. No eyes charm harder. No truth seems truer.
The feeling of utter bliss. When the birds sing. Bodies collide. Breathing you in so I can keep you. I could shower in your scent.
No one has done what you've done to me. I want to hate you. But it was all my fault.
the crazy one. Yes I am to blame. **** me for eating the cake. Just as Eve tasted her apple. Forbidden fruit.
It was you who was forbidden fruit. The dying urge to taste you just wouldn't subside. So I sneaked and I lyed and I fought for my moments. Because in them is all I was and I couldn't watch another pass me by. I seized love locked in time for ever in my heart. I know when you said I was just *** you lied. You had to push me aside. I feel you. You know it. I remeber your words.. I lived by them. They tare me up but keep popping into my mind. I cut you to the core. Your eyes bring back lifetimes of heartbrake and soul shaking love. Come to me my runner. My bride. I just want to shower you with love will everything that I am. No one else will do.

Hush Love. Hate Love. Love Love.

Love, What's that to me. I say so freely

Above, Beyond, Unfolded.

In Heat. In the Hate. In the Hush of the Moment.

I know not Love.

So pure and forgiving, through the darkness, stand strong.
Unstoppable, never ending, with out condition. Bond.

Love is Simple in a complicated way. I AM

Blows hope. Inspires. Admirers. I STRIVE.

This I feel I know is True. You touched me with Utter Truth.
In the night. In my Mind. Lost in Your Ever Green.
Forever Changed. Let no Shame be Made.
Rise Above, Empowered by the Game.

Truth is I barely even know you as a human. My visions of you are of a life we lived or a dream of what could've been.

Truth is you never really showed an interest. I pushed forward because in your eyes I felt a blissful urge to be physically one.

Truth is your pressence indused my soul to come bursting into life. A fire got lit and forever burns bright.

Something about the recongonition of your essistsnce has forever changed my sight. I am forever grateful for your part in my life. I thanked you with my body but all it left me with was a quest for more. I could OD on the thought of you and the passion that follows.. Nothing can change that now. But it's done because somehow this feeling wasn't reciprocated and I feel silly now. I say this out loud so I can see how crazy this last year has been. I am only becoming all of me. You were a link to progression, a lesson in this section, a piece of the picture, a glimpse in an unseen mirror. When someone truly touches my soul I have a hard time letting go.. So I'll just grow old forever loving your soul. Appreciating what you showed me in myself. The true beauty and ambition. The spark that brings the world to life.. Forever in me is you. Is Me. Is everyone honestly but my favorite is in crazy green sea..

I am regurgitated knowledge and memories, stuffed in a bottle.
Whaling about with all of the other pieces of garbage.

The plastic, the plastic, beads and unrecyclable matter.

Flittering, Fluttering, No sense or pattern.

Whats left or Right. Could it ever Shatter.

You Come to. You go. No one knows.

All we have is this moment. But Past Sinks in.

Fear Floods Future. The unknown, unknowing,

Passions set free? Dreams set to Death. What Will it Be?

Whats Been Said Is Said. Is SAd I know.
and What's Done has been done. is done

I account for today. No promise for tomorrow.
But the ****** has come and gone.. no more lingering on. and on

Thanks for teaching me somethings that will help me Grow.
Keep it moving my not so friend this show has hit the road.

What a ride it's been. I hope you open your eyes.
Ego is a mans foolish demise.

My heart still lifted from the love I could give.
It fills me everyday so that I may live.

My soul beams with light and joy.
For myself I will never Destroy.

When you are reckless with others you hurt yourself in the end.
So I have to defense, no reason to anger or cry..

Wrapped in White Light ****!  Goodbye :)
See you when you elevate from Victim to Love

This is not a dis on the needy but possibly a moment of truth for the greedy.

It's always the same ones with their hand out. Relationship hopping to **** you dry of life now.

Don't give those vampires a taste of your blood. Greedy mother *******. Giving back to no one.

Invest your time in the ones who love. Who bring out the sun and remind you, Your blessed with the warmth from above.

You can't save the ones who choose hell. It's their story to unfold and their future to tell.

I'm done going with the grain.
With all the shame I've put on my name. I've got no one to blame. So I'm breaking free from the pain.

Every days a new start to evolve and grow. Mistakes happen so we don't keep slipping on that same *****.

People take advantage of a good loving heart. Don't stop loving , but pull yourself apart.

Find the rare kind of person who loves to love and make that your reflection.

In the midst of the built up romance...

Deception

So real in my mind I warmed my heart with lies.

Perception.

Understand this to no end. Emotions are not a fact.
What you feel is not reality. Love is a matter of Tact.

What you see in others is just a reflection of you.
The beauty, the ugliness, in a vast sea of blue.

Still I am you and you are in me. From now until eternity.

Ha No body Cares. Just sayin. It's all about you. Take it or leave it fool flushed *****... If they bring you down, leave'um, if they bring you up conceive them.. but move on. Stagnace, is debilitating...just branch out and grow. You wanna stay the same fine, peace be with your soul. I'm getting mine fast or slow. Each person I meet plays an important roll. I honor that because I love me and whatever I attract  or detest says something.. speaks volume in this life of misfired garbage. I'm here and now. I want the simple finer things. But your all hung up on these deformed ideals...getting wasted away like zombies.. Is it Armageddon? The end of the world where you choose to eat the shinny fruit, cause your all *******. Don't wanna get your hands ***** so you eat of a mans filthy riches.. and in the parameters of the English language I've got run in sentences... And whatever else stumps you from the truth. **** structure **** taught belief.. **** ***** for ***** sake.. forget word and spoken reason. Words are discrimination. Words can't even touch true evolution. But we all try so hard to make them work... And I'm done you silly *** folk. I stay silent and a loaf since the rest of the word is just living to stay a float.

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I didn't want to search and didn't need to find. But the questions bombarded this ever running mind. Now that it's out I can no longer hind what the sad truth is from my heart open wide.

What has already been Known. Has come out in your tone.
And those unanswered questions have finally been shown.

Heart sunk for a second but didn't skip a beat. I will not die for I have to much love inside. Another shell of a person, a puppet.

Feels like I'm spinning
Toes barely touching ground

Not sure I can handle this change of season
Some things falling so beautifully in place
Still can't get a grip of what's slipping away

Breathing in the cold air won't cool my heart down. Part of me brought to life brings tears of joy, sadness, and strife.

How can I embrace this?! Can I live up to the eyes that stare at me through the mirror. Am I or am I not?

Is this the beginning of the end or only the beginning. Adaptable as I am change is hard.

Answers untold my world starts with a thought.. Where's my head at?!? At?!! At?!

Somewhere stuck between what could and what may ruin me. The risk of coming to close to the flame. Set me on fire. Lore me. Distract me. Just forget it all.

Am I wrong.

I rise to the beat of my own heart. My truth will be spoken even if my voice shakes. I will never bend or conform this inner bond. I am not just full, I am over flowing. I want to connect to be understood and be loved funny how I find this with strangers over loved ones. I will never be slave to your system of beliefs and I truly grasp your hate for me friend. Hate is love anyway so what's the use in getting all bent out of shape. Its just passion retracted and projected on a reflection of self.

The Mirror Fogs up
I loose site of her

Beauty of the face, fade.

Reflections ripple with a wave
Picture distorted, I loose her.

Eyes blur into a sea crashing before me.

Shadow oh so true, follow me home.
Get lost in the night, disappear in sunlight.

Feel me from the outside, I can not see.
For I am inside, blind folded by exterior me.

Sadness, Darkness fill my Sunshine.

The world unfolds like dead bodies in the open green.
Close my eyes I don't want to see but all of me feels, even if I fight not to see.

Heart Throbs Feel for you and me. I am numb. I loose her. You See...

Snuggle me don't let me go. Let me stay and make a home. Rest my head in your chest. Legs intertwined. Blinded from the world outside. I'll close my eyes and squeeze you tight in that moment I can rest in delight. Away from faces, voices, and pain. I'll hide myself securely in your bodies frame. And when I'm rested and recuperated from the weight of this place we can rome like children with everything to gain and fall in love with the stars that made us Aline and shine side by side in this promising life waiting to be defined...

Breathing you, in hopes of filling the holes of past hurts untold and unknown to the eyes of a new lover.

Here I am dressed in every color eyes sparkling no make up to hide my expression as I play lightly on the surface. Fun is all you see. I charm I giggle and my claws start to creep for I feel starved for true affection. But I can only give what I have been given a book of pictures of what could be. Wounds so deep no ones diving in with me. I must brave up the courage to let you be so I can fix me and not send another running.

Just like all the other bad habits you appear just when I thought I was in the clear.

Now face to face with drinks between
Mind flooded with images from past lustful mornings and sleepless nights

I cut you to the core was a pick up line
You'd leave me on the floor waiting to die after you ****** sweet nector so you could servive.

Another vampire you are, disguised
Your victims have no chance because you wrap yourself in women's light.

You are the same as all the others in past lives. You got your piece.. I feel it missing from me. But as you float on ******* life to live. I create it so Peace. You make me sick.

Mirror flip. Enough said. :(

I'm out of my mind, I like to rhyme. Living in this body making the best of my time. I chase what propels my heart to race. So my soul has space to reach beyond my heights. What you see is only a shell of the beauty that's coming with lights so bright. Dancing in the shadows of the moon. I am a flower continually in bloom.

I've conducted myself as you secretly know that we are one.. I'm a silly girl for letting it leak, seep, explode out of me pieces at a time. To a person who is all primal and ego driven. Soul so lost inside a parasites mind. My heart I've sent out to you only to find it in a pile of mush all twisted up. For you have no love for my divine vessel of pure everlasting energy. I live while you die. I thank you repeatedly for what you can not seen has been freely given to me. Goodbye for the last time lost love is a lie my love is never ending but I'll try.

I want to romance you like I've tried before. You want nothing to do with everything more.

I let you in fully aware of your only aim. I thought that was your game.

I felt you saw me the way I saw you you. Beyond body, past words, through my eyes we danced.

So

When I think of you my heart opens wide.
When your eyes meet mine, I want to climb in and hide.

Who am I

I loose sight to often in this life.

Caught up in past lives
Feelings and Soul ties.

Giving my mind more to ponder inside.
Twists and turns thoughts go leaping astray

Living in the moment is light years away.

Until awoken to the words I hear myself..

TBC

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Sometimes I want to crawl out of my own skin. My body craves what my soul tries to cleanse. I can be my own worst enemy. It's like a team of destruction in my head the best thing I can do is go to bed. My mind can't keep up with the knowledge that it's feed. My understanding is based on a sensory and pretty much it's how you adapt to me...
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Gone. Gone.

He is Gone. Been gone.

Gone.

For quite sometime.

The hurt is gone
now I just feel stupid.

What I saw in your eyes
Your uncaple of believing.

Everything I've creatated
Has been tarnished, defeated.

You felt me, I know it.
Then left my heart bleeding.

Months and Days
The tears came no filter
Laying bare in bed
Saying, never again.

I gave a collector the keys
Blindly with no thought

Crushes me from within
As he licks the ***
Now forever filled with beauty
And darkness.

Was that your duty
To dazel use me.
Tender are my thoughts of you
Wrapped in painful pleasure

Left pondering possibilities of love after heartaches. Once I fully understand my lustful experiences are only a hinderance a misguided act of ****** instinces... It will be over. I am a lover. I take *** appeal to another level Cause I just want to feel what they feel or what I perceive is felt but then I wrap it up in fluff and silly stuff to fit in with what this world calls love.

It would seem over night
The wind through my trees
At just the right speed.
I say GoodBye.

I can't seem to see you in that light.
Once I was determined to get close.
You held my face as far as your arms reach.
As all my love came pouring out to you.
You smile: You like it. You like me?

Smirk of pleasure: to see such a fool.
I blew your mind with the craziest mush fest.
Took you all wrong..
I can't speak for your soul, your heart, your mind.

I swear I felt you.. I still feel you in this heart of mine.
My soul will forever dance.
My mind will let you go.
For you are cold : Soul shrugged into a corner.

I wish you felt it when your soul met mine..
But you live in ego.. loosing track of time.
It was far beyond words. Thank You.

You sparked the flame that helped me ignite.

In this place between words and silence. Sight and Faith. Closest to my heart are those who are true. This world breeds lies and people who point fingers and deny their own truth. The ones who appeal to my soul aren't slaves to this place and are willing to fight with every ounce of love and grace. As much as I wish I could jump to my feet and take on this demon who keeps nudging for my fate. I will grow easy into my place and collect all that it takes to build the strength its going to take to face the pain and heal wounds. Each life has its own things to recover so we can evolve from hurt and hate to joy and love. So as I work at being my truest version and moving forward taking out what lays beneath... I'll know my place when my reflection is whole with lots more creativity to unfold...

You live in my poetry. What a lovely place to be...

What seems like worlds apart. Layers of reality.Time has no power. Bodies hold no form. We flow like the breeze and freeze in the sight. We know this feeling that's brought such frightening delight. We gaze with a charm and touch with passion. I Breath deep and speak. You just stay hush, because you are gone.

Finished from the first kiss.
I pushed. I chased. I lost.

I feel the future in my bones.
Love. Swarming LOVE.

I dance in the thought..
I whistle the Song. I want.

Sometimes a lesson replays to allow us to gain what we missed for the millionth time we decided to remain in that perspective that drove us insane again and again with him on the brain. All though my thoughts are conveyed some other way from what he would say. I feel it all. Energy doesn't always just go away. I see you with all senses without you in sight. I hear all that your lips feared to speak. My force of fate landed on your plate but your palent just couldnt take the taste that with never dissipate