I'm never getting over it.. everyday just trying to except it. My feelings run deep. your beyond that.. out of sight out mind. Waves of energy crashing into me.. You may not know or even feel but to me there is nothing more real. I was made to love you endlessly like the ocean loves the sand and maybe we just aren't meant to stand. Every living piece of me worships you... worships me for this new life. If that's all you are I'll let it be... but no one will ever take your place you'll forever be.

The crushing never stops when the thoughts of past paths cross with the sad secure truth. In an instant the pain so real of what I let you steal. I defied natural grace just to have a taste of what blew up in my face. Now I see you still attract the beauty and I all that I want dead to me. I know what's needed to change the coarse of my faint. If I just trust in that small still voice I am safe.

He found me in my tree
Fearlessly climbed to me.

His eyes opened wide
A little shy I hide.

Nerves make me ramble
As I speak my souls preamble

His stories calm my waves
In day light we sit and gaze.

I impress you sounds just right.
The end of the tunnel is so bright.

I can see you want me close.
I hesitate to uphold my pose.

Too many have played this role.
So I'll wait before I unfold

61 poems in 16 months

6+1=7     1+6=7   7+7=14

1+4=5

5 is my soul # so I'm exactly where I need to be.
Numbers have a frequency... freaky.

I speak energy... your soul tells me a story before you even look at me.

I’m a cry beast. I take on the pain of others to open wounds to feel heal, seal and gain insight.
Let it stir up my insides, cry about it, start a fight.

My tolerance is worn out by ignorance but I know anything that Erks me is apart on me. A reflection of a person I used to be.. a world so twisted people just want to use you then loose you.

I will stand alone until I know...we stand as ☝️

It's no wonder I get drunk sometimes this reality *****.. Some days I rather swim in a bottle with my delusions and forget all the pain that's come from being insane. My struggles are internal never ending battle the ying and the yang make sense to me now. Doesn't change what's behind and in front of me though. It's the here and the now that's got me spinning around. Angles and perception got me dropping my crown.. of ego. Flesh is in torment of what I'm depriving it now. My souls to great for this body to be locked down. Minds conditioned in the way of the world, body follows suit.. These chains continue to drop leaving me open and raw to the reality of my destiny and I know it just comes down to me. Can I live up to what my souls meant to be or will fall to the heals of the heeping herd of sheep. Stampeding through life without a conscious clue of what they do. Pointing fingers never taking blame. Living on the surface. Worshiping the fame. Doing what their told. Believing what they read. Letting the master plan unfold with ease. It's pathetic and sad.. My only truth is in my heart so I'll just let it bleed if that's what needs to be. Buh bye to that bottle it's only brought me grief.. Live and let love Peace.love and Harmony xo thanks for the read.

I do. I get it now. All I dislike in you, I have too and all I love of you is in me. The place where I stand is all I have dreamed. Bits and pieces of nightmares to bring flares to awaken me. In pain, in joy, in suffering to bring this perfect me to this reality. My journey isn't yours but you've played a part. Everyone I have ever met I have learned from and they have taken from me. For so long I felt I was missing, broken, and confused until the right mirror reflected my flame that had be suppressed and oh so tame. With this enlightening I was exhausted. For ever lifted and connected feeling my cord through my chest reaching through the stars.

Humbly I come before you. With life times of love and loss. Blow my kisses to the warm sun and think of them touching you every time you look up. The fire still burns. Dim at times but that electric blue continues to get me through. I close my eyes I see you. Feel your smile. Hear you say my name. Oh lost love. In this moment nothing has changed.

Truth is they haven't got a chance. So why play the game. My heart sealed the day it sang from kiss filled lips. Now left with the pain, the desire drove me insane and back again. But never have I felt so full and alive. We started this ride that seems to have no end living in the fear of lies at the drops. Highs got us feeling on top we need no physical human interaction. Our love goes beyond what our minds comprehend leading back to the fear of what we don't know. Feeling the need to hide so no one knows how vulnerable we are in our divinity.  But we have much to learn for all that we are is our strength, beating in our chest and once we find whats right we will be off this ride and on to the next..

She’s never quite left you. I can see it in your eyes. Ever since the second she took her last conscious breath and you left her to die. Not one second of the life you live will ever be truly happy again. Her beauty buried alive in your mind and you carry it like sin.

I wear your scent like purfume
When i sweat i sweat you

I basque in your energy
Its all i am and want to be

I breathed you in to last an eternity
Although alone phycically

I see me through your eyes
Vivatious and whole

Such beauty to unfold but your scared to death of me.

Now that Ive seen magic I can never go back..

Our hearts beat as one.. spirits meet in the stars. Its more then chemisry. Way bigger than you and me.

Healing is only found in Pain.

Pain is found in hidden Truth.

Truth is our Fears brought to Light.

Light can't shine without being Bright.

Bright is only the contrast of Night,

Night is in darkness without Moonlight.

Moonlight is what moves me to See,

See to believe is just a lie.

Lies hinder Healing so the Cycles never Die.

Die to be reborn.

When I miss you I breath in deep and pull back memories of between the sheets. When my soul was set free from body and our energies collide creating a light show in the sky  breaking all logic and time.

Forever lovers in moments;
living in thoughts and memories
of what feels like seconds in time.

Hearts left raw and open wide
Changed perception of mind
Sight now filtered through a third eye.

Birds of a feather, flying high.
Leaving each other on the side lines.

The wanting and wonder try to take me under.
But above I rise, no more fear aloud inside.

On this path I started with natural fright.

Now the Fire burns bright: I can't stand the sight.

I have found the inner river of life.

So I breath..  release... and heal with ease.

Living amongst the walking dead.
****** cold black eyes.
Roaming through life
hands ****** with no alibi.
Sickness swarms like butterfly's
in a open sky of lies.
All we know and are taught
are the twisted plans of the elite man.
As they twiddle their thumbs and watch the madness unfold of his thoughts untold coming to light but who actually knows. The hate it took to make this country. America the debt we never wanted the void that can never be paid. Even us in the know choose to be part of the demise flooding our minds and bodies with poison and suppressing the soul. Feeding the flesh not giving a **** about the rest. As we awaken may our own steps be all that we question.

They say time heals all wounds but absence makes the heart grow founder..

**** what they say. Who are they anyway.

How about my heart says its never over and my heart begs my head to find logic in this lifeless love affair. Ego crushed as I stand forever bare. Words just floating in the empty air. My name on your lips cutting all despair still you are not there... but I feel you as if you always were.