I didn't want to search and didn't need to find. But the questions bombarded this ever running mind. Now that it's out I can no longer hind what the sad truth is from my heart open wide.

What has already been Known. Has come out in your tone.
And those unanswered questions have finally been shown.

Heart sunk for a second but didn't skip a beat. I will not die for I have to much love inside. Another shell of a person, a puppet.

You can wear a mask say what you say.
This life is one of many.
And I'm with you to stay.

So digress if will
if that's what soothes your aching heart.
I'll be waiting in the stars to love you back to life.

Mistreated stepped on but always giving.
Love can't be locked in a box it wouldn't be love.

With pink streaming lights,
connected from above,
I will dance through this life with nothing but LOVE"

The hurt is gone
now I just feel stupid.

What I saw in your eyes
Your uncaple of believing.

Everything I've creatated
Has been tarnished, defeated.

You felt me, I know it.
Then left my heart bleeding.

Ten days shy of two months
No part of me misses you.

An ocean of tears
Lost in years of fear.

Never there to hold me
Always pushed aside.

They weights been lifted
Heartache shifted

Silly girl, do you know love?

Sadness..tears.. I know not the love my soul craves.

Silly me
Even days in dark thoughts
I still have innocence

Silly love
Be good to me
Light, happy, free

Silly games
only play out in my head
erase them please

Silly nerves
Just simmer down now
Let life be what its meant to be.

Silly Mind
Don't go running away
or Stay and over analyze

Silly me is I am
Be Light
Be Love
Be Free
Woman I am

When darkness consumes us.
Will we cave into our fears.

Everything we do everyday. Gone.

Electricity Disappears.
Frantic Faces. Searching. Running. Hurting.

What will I have to give.

Feed me knowledge so that I may live.
Give me Grace and Understanding.

If this is true. I've heard the words my Whole life.

This place we call home was built to be destroyed.
We have feed the destruction. We are one.

In desperate times will you love or fight.
Will we destroy ourselves from within.
Before the Flames set in.

Can it just be a new start. Clean Slate.
Get back to basics.
Rebuild.
Grow.
Evolve Spiritually.

Or is this the Beginning of the End.

Twin Flame, I think not.
Just Needed an alibi to be insane.

I used you for your spark
Your ungodly fiery flame

You gleamed me in the eyes
the Heat rose up inside

Like a million Butterflies
attached to electric shocks

In the mirror I stare
At all I am and never lived to be

I saw you in me... me in you.

I breathed you in over and over again.
Yet my bed is still with him.

Did I ****** you,
Lure you with my mind.

With my *** demon smiling on the inside
saying everything is fine.

I stalk, I prey, I conquer. men are easy.

Did I need to feel you to take part in your flame.
Now my lioness got caught in the game.

Claws drawn waiting to dig in..
The rest of me needing to pull away.

So I told him its over but in bed we lay.
Not touching with nothing to say.

I feel for another is what I should say.
Truth is I am a coward who needs the tension and release.

Why must I play this Game.
My thoughts are hurting My weary Head.