if i swallowed a magnet
would i be more attractive?
but the problem is
many people feel unattractive
so what happens when the people
who are unattractive swallow magnets?
the ones that appreciate the most
and see the best in people
will be repelled.

i've looked in the mirror
and more than once
and i've wanted to smash it
break it into pieces
and use the shards
to carve my skin
make me beautiful.
maybe i could be
placed on a pedestal
with a plaque next to me
describing what art form i am
i'm the art form of sadness
of complete lack of happiness and confidence.
people will take pictures of the art
people will write papers
post me on their blogs
and i will travel from museum
to museum
not spreading my misery
but my concept
and my awareness
that people live like this.

i sit
restless
i'm supposed
to be doing something pertaining to school
but i can't bring myself to cross the room
and lug over the heavy book
to read.
i have no patience
i try it but it leaves me
mocks me and runs
what am i supposed to say to my parents?
i no longer like school
because i no longer like myself.
i have lines of woes on my arms
my thighs
and my soul
now what was i supposed to be doing
oh yeah
homework.
not drowning in my thoughts.

please
if only for a moment
give me your lips
and let's start world war three.
i tell you
i think it's worth it
if only for a moment.
even if i'm minimal face
and long sleeves.

i really want your hug right now
i don't know why
i've never had this craving
if i called you
to me

would you come?

maybe i'm the only one that can see them
five or so lines across my left arm
maybe i'm the only.
it's not like i flaunt them
it's quite the opposite

but are most people blind
to suffering?
that is my main question
or am i the only one who can see?

i can't imagine
the tar that slops through your veins
going back to your heart
and poisoning it.

impending doom.

i can't imagine
about how you feel all the time
i have told you once,
it scares me.

i believe you
i'm not sure about others though
i said i'll be here
you can't be alone.

not with anxiety.
not alone.
i'll be here.