Megan

Megan Feb 2014

panic
i can't breathe
i feel like i'm going to cry
who's ripped my heart out of my chest this time
why's it empty
what's happening
it's getting worse
you tell me to breathe
tell me to breathe
me to breathe
****** breathe

Megan Feb 2014

message ping

the message sound
makes me flinch
because what truly is coming next?
what should i expect?
i don't know
grey
is inside you.
i don't know how to deal
i don't know how to react
but i find myself coming closer
god am i reaching
let me think
let me pause
god.
i just worry.
i'm sorry.

Megan Feb 2014

forget-me-nots are only a flower

a sharp pain in my heart
helps me recall you
forget-me-nots
are only a flower
and sorry is overused.
so what do i do
about this?

Megan Feb 2014

"return to sender"

i've gone from sad to angry
i'm no longer recieving **** today
and i'll re-stamp
"return to sender"
throw it into your face
don't you dare treat me this way.

Megan Feb 2014

tick tock mocking me

the time can't pass fast enough
so i fill the time with poems
tick tock mocking me
you pass so quickly at other times
please oh please don't slow down when i'm suffering
please oh please speed up
tick tock mocking me
if i watch you,
clock you go slower yet
tick tock mocking me
time you're killing me
please oh please speed up
tick tock mocking me
tick tock mocking me
tick tock mocking me
tick tock
stop.

Megan Feb 2014

solidness

stardust particles
so small to the eye
i want to be.
don't look at me
i'm not worthy
i'm tired of being...
solid

Megan Feb 2014

quiet and alone is a better suit

i do try
but no one listens
so why do i try?
being quiet and alone
suits me better
than not being heard.
so let me dress
in quietness and alone
let me disappear into the wall work
just let me become background noise.
a tree to fall in the forest