He texted me again,
But I'm still not going to answer his text. :)

1) I am soft sand between your toes
2) I am the essence of sunshine
3) I am breathing for you
4) I am made of lithium; I spread to you
5) I am filled with stardust
6) I am strawberry white sheets fresh from the dryer
7) I am the ocean when you are sad; i envelop you into my arms
8) I am wrong.
9) I am not the ocean.
10) I am not your happiness.
11) I am your misery
12) I am the gun you used to ****
13) I am a knife you shed your blood
14) I am the darkness; wretched in your soul
15) I am fire. I burn you when we touch
16) I am the ashes that fill your chest.
17) I am the contaminated air that you breathe.

This journey started with a morning pancake
and your special coffee with chocolate
that all tasted so real as if i was awake

Five years we sat on a table,
with you across from me,
and I across from you,
we spent years building something true

Come rain, sleet, or snow
no matter which road I take,
You were always the way to go

As I held your hand,
And You held mine,
We walked through every weather
and still your hand would be engulfed around mine

Just as the sun rises in the morning
   you have always had my heart,
   And just as the sun sets in the evening
   you took what we built
   and tore it apart.

You were all that I had
and all that I ever hoped for,
Now I'm laying here
on this cold October floor.

Eyes full of the unknown
We slowly came to know
Of each other, nervous but excited

Feeling around in the dark what was to become so familiar
Months past in your arms
Years next to your lips
Arguments set in, thunder storms

We fought to make up and made up to fight
There was life in it still
Two strong characters of will

Impassioned lust laid across covers of trust
My beautiful vision of you and I
Too perfect you did decry

Infected by resentment, my heart shrank
You were to endure words so utterly fraught with cold
As though fashioned in the North Pole

Yet your love remained bound tightly to me
We would rise high above common ground
Soaring amongst the clouds, our love not to be touched
Until crashing down we fell into boundless hell

Picking at faults we should have forgiven
Too long they haunted our position
“You need to change” we both declared

Attempts were made in vein
So simple it all seems now
To have simply kissed your furrowed brow
Taken your hand and reassured you of my love
Apologised for any wrong made in haste

Sadly it was too late; you took matters into your own hands
Feeling away from me into foreign lands
To where I could not reach you
I went mad with pain of missing you

My utmost did I try to show my change
The man I had renounced stood no longer in me
I only wished for your return
To rekindle the fire that had died in my heart
I would rise born again a better man
With you to guide my unsteady hand

The fire remains quelled ever since you came back
To see and feel for me so differently
Our bond lay broken, dashed aside
Relinquished our tie, let loose against the tide

I now struggle out at sea, wave’s crash over me
Waiting, hoping for you to rescue me
It never came
Memories seemingly held you back
Of torment, tears rolled by

So your love drowned
Letting it go gladly, almost a relief
I now sit alone
Wet and full of regret, on a vast sandy beach.