i look at myself in the mirror
seeing the tear drop falling down my cheek
i see a lonely , depressed soul
that's lifeless and weak

i see the hurt and pain
that always hides behind a smile
i see the anger and sorrow
that is shown for a while

i see the depth of the past
clinging to every memory i know
i see the death and departed
i see why it won't go

i see why i'm so useless
i see why i'm not smiling
i see why i end up alone in my room
it's because inside i am dying

my funny face
its not funny anymore
my eyes have died
and my heart is sore

i lost my hero
and no i feel like i'm losing my one true love
wasn't one death or abandonment
enough ?

i love so deeply
it comes from within
i love so much it hurts
because i give everything

so when i feel like i'm alone
or just when i speak my mind about how i feel
it's because i want you to see what hurts and what i want
how much i love you and it's real

but sometimes i keep it to myself
and just let it be
fake a smile
and let no one see

thats when you end up
sitting by yourself and playing that helpless role
staring at yourself in the mirror
to the deepest part of your soul

as i'm sitting here
my body lingers for your touch
your sweetness is a jewel all the money in the world can't buy
and i love you so much

if i could ever try to make you mine
i would not hesitate
your beauty is a gift rarely found
your my angel for whom i'll wait

the richness of my love defies belief
with warmth and passion i hover near
carresing hands and kisses sweet
i long for you my dear

the darkest secrect of my soul i revealed
" your brokenness with love i will conceal"
listen gently to my wispering lips
my love for you is real

desire will not wait a moment more
i give myself to you to be posessed
i sink into the sotfness of your core
for a mutual release of bodies pressed

my heart is the only candle left to hold
for it is in your touch
i whisper a promised love to you
for i love you so much

defining trust is to hope
to hope a person or thing is truthful or good
to fully understand the meaning of love
and to give the chance to prove themselves as they would hope you would

to trust is to be cautious
to be loving  and to fully give
the the power to someone
to love or deceive

trust is earned
trust is the foundation of peace
trust is dificault to regain
for scars can't just be released

if you fail to endure
the promise of trust
and you fail to stay truthfull
just to satisfy your lust

take every chance you get
to set standards staight
for your love and compassion will seize to exist
the longer you wait

i can still recall
where everything just goes wrong
you wake up just to simply remember
that you just don't belong

you fight every second
to please a judgemental crowd
only to find yourself shattered all over again
blaming yourself while your face is towards the ground

you look for release
in alcohol , *** , and empty deeds of physical pain
damaging yourself
to hide away the shame

its a pity one only realises
what matters in life to late
because scars will always remain
and will speak for itself and communicate

the past stays in past
but the future still remains
live life as it should
be yourself and don't ever change

when i'm faced with doubt
i glance at your magnificent face
i then remember how lucky i am
to be surrounded and be lost in your embrace

when i'm insecure and lost for words
i just have to turn to you
your my refuge in all my darkness
and you are so perfect to

i love the way you look at me
i love the way you smile
i never understood true love till i met you
it took me a while

so when life gets challenging
when life trows its burden on me
i just think about you
and what you mean to me

your my smile every morning
your my last thought of the night
your eyes is my gateway to heaven
for it sparkles so bright

your laugh excites me
your arms surounds me
your love carries me
and your heart invites me

i'm nothing without you
i'm everything with you
Your my whole existence
your my reason for living

the time goes by
as each second passes
except my seconds feels like years
with many disasters

i'm torn , i'm cut
i'm done , i'm raw
i'm struggling to move on
for i am sore

i long for the day i could hold you
just telling you how i feel
you made life look so rosey and easy
and made it so real

i messed it up
i didn't really see
what a wonderfulll man
and husband you could be

it;s my fault
my loss
now there is only one option left
" PAY THE COST "

when all i hear are the empty promises and lies
that leave behind broken hearts and shattered lives
when trust is gone and hope is lost
what am i fighting for and who pays the cost ?

when you tell me your sorry and you do it again
why do i believe you , why do i keep giving in ?
when i really realise i made a mistake
its to late , i've sealed my fate