You said
It might be better
For us to be strangers again

Strangers who have no idea about each other
Who do not know anything about
Our favourite food (so I should start forgetting that you do not eat tomatoes, pineapples and olives; and that I should be willing to eat them all for you because coincidently, they were my favourite)
Or the way we want our eggs cooked
(crunchy on the side. soft yolk - mine, well done)
Or our dreams, failures, fears and inhibitions.

But remember,
We were once strangers
That one September day (it was the seventh, I believe)
I first got a glimpse
Of that little girl
That would change my life for eternity

And when I see you again
I will make you remember
This stranger
That loved you and known you more than
any stranger could do.

(2nd letter for the day- I guess that was how much I thought about you today)

Why do the past two days
(forty eight hours
two thousand eight hundred and eighty eight minutes)
Feel like eternity
After that last moment
I saw you
(Pixelated, but every detail of you was vivid in my mind. You were even wearing something I knew was one of my favourites - because I once told you how you looked wonderful in red)

Why does it feel like forever
When I do not know where and how you are
Or if I could do anything
To make your day

But if waiting for the right moment
Would take
An exponential growth
And intensified feeling of eternity
Then let me wait.

I wake up
Even before the world does
And bask
Under the full moon's light

I remember how you adore the full moon
How you'd always wish
To have your toes buried in creamy sand
With waves crashing
And Luna's light watching you from the horizon

And I remember
My futile attempt
Of illustrating how much I love you
Through hares and coloured pencils and
a Little Prince scrapbook
To let you know that I love you to the moon
and back (and yes, it holds true until today)

As I watch the moon from where I sit
(in an almost empty, moving train - the sun has not risen yet)
I know, out there, you might be admiring it too
And that's enough comfort for me, for now
To know that we're still under the same sky
You can never be too far.

It was unexpected
A twist in my life's course and fate
To find myself entangled with her charm

She was just there
A meek, strong willed, little, i sometime even think tiny, coloured-haired girl
Who one had to see beyond bridges and brick walls
To get to know the woman inside that's so much larger than life

She had a wit beyond words
Who first captured me with her thoughts of black and yellow striped camels
Out of the blue
As thoughts to lull to sleep

She had a heart more than a mother's
Who had every inch of concern for the people around her
From whom i had the best time being taken cared of

I took my chances,
Broke hearts and friendships, even...
But I knew she was worth it.

I was blessed to be hers,
To be given the chance for her to be called mine.
To wake up beside her
To have her as the last person to hold before slumber
And the first to lay eyes on as, or even before, the sun sheds light on us
All bundled up in fluffy sheets
Cuddled in each others arms
Like nothing else mattered (and nothing did)

But despite all the happiness
Despite knowing I had something perfect,
I made mistakes.
Pushed her away
Lost the only best friend I ever knew
And most painful of all
Broke a fragile heart that does not deserve this pain i inflicted

Now that my world has turned 360 over
I have lost myself, found out what really matters
Figured out that one of the biggest mistake I have done, has actually been committed early on in this life of mine.
I lost her.
But I am taking my chances again.
I will find her,
Do everything all over again if I have to
Just to be with her again.
If it means reintroducing myself,
Like that very first day I shook hands with her.
Even if it means making her fall for me all over again,
Like how she did that night she accepted me as hers
If I have to let all the stars fall
Like how it did that one night we were just lying on our backs, side by side each other... As if we owned the world (And i know for a moment there, we did)
I will.
I will gather them up, make them light up her night sky
Just to have all the wishes I can buy
To ask for her
Over and over again.

I will just be here.
I will fight the good fight.
Silently, miles away.
For you are all worth it.

I hope one day you wake up
Thinking about me.
Remembering how I kiss your ears
Until you giggle
How I hold your hand while you drive
(those were the only times I thanked God for traffic)
How I grab you from behind at your waist.
hugging you from your back
While I smell your hair
that you curled because I told you I like them that way
(and I really really do)

I hope one day you wake up
Wishing I was beside you
Like how it was on cold, north-of-the-metro trips we've had
Where we wake up to each other's body warmth
With good morning kisses (and I don't care about our morning breath)
And alarm snoozes to buy time to cuddle more in bed

I hope one day you wake up
Yearning for me,
For how I kiss you in your forehead
For how my voice sounded when I call you 'babe', 'baby' or 'my little girl'
Or how I look at you
During those mornings, afternoons and nights
where you entrusted me with yourself
And I tell you how beautiful you look
With wearing nothing else but your smile
(and have I told you over and over how I loved that smile? That smile you rarely give others, that smile that was once mine.)

I hope one day you wake up
And give me the sweetest kiss
That would be the only thing that could awaken me
While I am in this deep slumber
Until I am back in your arms again.