religiously ignorant - acceptance
*******, admit it -

Sorry ***, spinning these plates, I haven't the time to eat out.

We walk the web tonight to
trap some putz hugging light like
stars falling without expectations
and longing driveways and rivers
cement and pathogens
to someday be Home for your
occasional lost soul.
Your absense is your absinthe.
The grass chases the moon.
Begging for release, don't just
hide in the shadows - smiling
for freedom.
Go get it.

to be watched all day

it's her and her dogs
going for a walk, - the phone
hasn't rang, so why not?
they bark
she smiles
they snarl
she retracts the leash
But they're free.
Dancing without smoking.
A ballet of confusion.
Wave to the neighbors!
With a styrofoam cup she's holding
She's holding the leash,
She barks,
They dart back,
She smiles behind big sunglasses.
It's just her dogs and her
going on a walk.

I don't think
the muse -
appreciates being copilot.

Never put a muse on standby.
Easily unamused, she'll leave you a bystander.

plenty of fish in the sea?
who ******* cares when your
heart sank into a shark tank -
we part ways and
I get sharp pains
in some dark days
for a guy light years - ahead
of the hard faced, ******, instead
of times we carved names, with stone
blaming your anger
on my tone
but my home
is on the road, I bet

Plymouth Street
Was like Plymouth rock
We broke new ground
And explored new thought
I hugged her twice
On the day we met
Never in my life
Had I felt that yet
More than carnal -
It was more like cosmic -
So no wonder why I saw stars
Once I lost it - pitch black
My voice box barely intact -
Waking up in the night
Like I'd been slapped
With the cold hand of death
No man, not yet. And I'm wide awake.
I can't leave the bed even though
I try to escape, I am trapped in my head.
Mislead by myself
I need to find myself, again.

I'm going through something,
Okay?!
What happened to being teammates?
I can tell you how my dreams taste.
Full of blood and salt
Fear of love and loss
I can't compare thee to any seasons thought, because its only winter when your gone. Gone like the wind -
I tried to bottle up
Stick a cork in it
And keep her on a shelf
But I somehow can't always control myself
So I relied on you.
But now that glass is broken
And the idea of it is too.
This is too much.

Let's go for a drive
And just talk awhile
I know this area so well
But none of it makes me smile
I'm over the signs
And the restraunts too
I'm under the lights
And the darkness too

took writing seriously
i was at a glass desk
with a glass heart
shattered
piecing it back together
with each letter

crawling the web
at night
come closer

I said - what?!
I can earn much cash
as long as
I serve enough ads?
maybe...
Food & Drink ? (please.)
   *" and who would think
   the Hive would lie?
       Besides -
   You and I both know we're better off than the next guy
   You know, the left side type to return from work and gets high? " *
I tend to the bars to ascend into stars
probably end up on Mars by the time I end this verse -
'cause life's too short not to fight this war
   So worry free? Never me.
I liked when words
get the recipe - stirred
must be, -
why I'm the latest scoop
must be, -
when I didn't post up on the greatest stoop
See - it let me be free, - unnerved
instead of
splurging at every urge occurring and I'm worried
so of course I'm surging with venom,
one man's poison and is another man's medicine
but every moment you're in is blurring with desire and sin and
Emergency - Insurgency
Insurance schemes - and murderous fiends
swerving from being purged of their devilish ways
and I thought I was just at the rebellious age
but this is the rebellious age, where selfishness gets paid
Personally? I don't know if I'll never make it well...
probably wake up naked in the bottom of a well
for the words I wrote and just
walk up to gates of hell
ugh... let me re-explain myself....

What's one day in the grand scheme?
mistakes branding bland dreams
realities - future and past halves of me
split personalities
splitting these arteries
the artist in me
scavenging what I can
to understand, why smile
wasting time
tasting wine
erasing mind
until basically blind -
OTC's won't assist this OCD
thinking of insanity, no it won't be me
I refuse, to let this fuse
run out of room - I say, Let it burn.


https://soundcloud.com/the_mjv/ogcjm


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i write
poems
songs
stories
movies
history.

she’s the breathe of fresh air
in this toxic pollution
and even when there’s nothing left here
no future, but fear, she’s got a solution
so no, it’s not easy to be renewing -
but so easy, to ruin -
one match this bridge is gone
roadblocks can make us feel trapped and lost
but I want your hand clasped as we cross

weeks pass
when i begin to
think fast
a bullet train behind my eyes
another half assed afternoon and
i am blind
i gaze from the balcony
looking for the light
who said it was cowardly?
to never put up a fight?
i can't see the future
although i might wish.

You're the worst.
You're the worst.
You're the worst.
You're the worst.
Yet.

I told a story
But not the ending.

Why.
it's as close as it gets to me
that's why.
black circles in my eyes
under my eyes
in my blood
watching us all the time

I take my time once in awhile!
Other than that
It's whatever that happens, happens
You can take everything from me.
The food.
The fuel.
The fridge.
The friends.
But the fire is mine.

You knew love could hurt
And you still went to work
Shaping a heart, a conversation piece
You knew what love was worth
Escaping the dark, finding patience and peace - in a place where everything else is grey - at best
You spent your life loving
And worst case scenario
You'll have been lying - but you won't know until you reach the cosmos
If you should have lost hope long ago

Ask me to hang out
Your anticipation ringing
I'm sorry
This line is dead
I'm away
Answering my calling.

pleased to meet you
you piece of meat you

if these fettered feathers will ever be better
reversed intent
i could gain back the
time i spent
sipping lime mint mojitos
getting bit by mosquitoes
bloodsuckers that be
feeding their egos
jeez, there we go
over the same routine, and you never get it
are you stupid or deaf?
im blinded by the minute -
my decisions a mess
living upset
given a nest
built on a ship
i perch and jump - just to flee this ****
diving at your purse, life's broke
but i take what i can from this *****
plus with a wide set hips and a bright sets of lips
i can't help my attraction

it's been days since I've written
almost forgot this site
almost lost my life
behind a wheel
trying to heal my mind and feel, love again
oh the wonder of the unknown

life at a screen
hyped by a dream
life at a screen
help - I might scream
if another second I'm sitting in this position

i miss what it's like
giving the kiss of death
stealing the bread of life
i long for the days
we'd write songs in the shade
light bongs in a haze
the wind in her hair
just last week, there
in my arms you seemed
so at peace.

just keep talking someone
will nod eventually -
maybe, maybe maybe not

it's been 3 days
22 hours 5 minutes 43 seconds
and counting

I'm a flighty night owl.

warm blankets and a cool breeze
my window's open
but no one knows me
swing dance with dark drinks
don't get me started on
plenty of fish to match in the sea but
the only opportunities are in shark tanks
drowsy and running on fumes
i move with the light of the moon - so dizzy
revolting, im molting
this cold skin 'til im molten, sowed - is he
a volcano
going to reap soon?
there's some seduction in sudden destruction
I hope - I stay
busy enough
with the cards until still
i land my soul in the stars -
i know it's can be hard to go with the art
but for me it's a part of following my heart
existence apart, from my brain -
because it does things, i can't always explain


https://soundcloud.com/the_mjv/stark-darkness-v2

i can't always explain.

You say words
I speak my mind
You fight wars
I spread inner peace one piece at a time
You cast stones
At glass homes
You are too much alike.

i pray for rain
plead the stars
shun the sun
and abuse the earth

i miss when what i did
didn't matter
conversations i had
filled with laughter
umbrella over pavement
i was running faster

misery's a matter of believing motivation matters more than discipline




https://soundcloud.com/the_mjv/follow-you-there

she came into my life like a
flash grenade
watching moments of the
past just fade
in seconds, made me ask
myself why I
attract this pain, why it had to
happen this way
4am phone conversations i could
chat 'til eight
i could laugh until hate left my soul and couldn't find its way back
afraid, of this love. it terrifies me, electrifies me.

we whisper white lies between dark truths
flame-like tongues flicker between teeth
a friendship dependant on what you're able to prove
hoping to appear naive
but nothing to lose
a soul feared, is a soul had
her lipstick smeared, a moment
i wish i could go back
and stop myself, resist
temptation, and tell myself
resist temptation
do it for your future self
he'll be glad you did
but that didn't happen
'cause here i am, trapped in
this passive
aggressive, sad and obsessive
tragic and mixed message flashing
it's getting - me sick

it's over it's over
even though it's just begun
i'm older and bolder
but maybe i'm numb
over and over
we forget what's to come
cold shoulders hear i told you
to turn around and run

When I wrote you that poem
- it ******.
The more I read it, the more
I hated it.
The lines made my stomach twist
The words had me dizzy
The letters sharp to my vision
This isn't what I wanted to be.
I just wanted to write you a poem
Tell you my crazy feelings
Make you smile
But now I'm afraid.
The art is larger than us.

Sometimes I don't know
Why I write
Or if I spend the right time
Doing the right things -
I've bartered and I've borrowed
Argued plaid lawyers into tomorrow
Became sharper from the sorrow
harder as it narrows
This pyramid scheme
Lain against a sunset exhumes
Perfect contrast.

I never knew how easy it is to point fingers and place blame.
I never knew how long pain lingers when we face shame.
I never realized you know me better than I ever will.
I never thought I'd say goodbye to a piece of this until, I had too.
I had two chances
And I blew three
One time, it was just you and me.
Now it's I who sits alone at night at home wondering how I could have been so blind and go, this way.

Phony girl
Only Dials a *******.
Washed up
She's never coming clean.
Soapbox talking,
keeping the conversation flowing.
Just long enough.

that's a stupid question
You, resilient ignorant youth.
learning the hard way
is the only way
So don't ask.
We won't tell.
You can decay fast.
And go through hell.
I'd take a stand against misinformation.
But the government passed legislation
that protects the interest of the corporation
While I'm just told to stay patient
My bonus is near.
But they bone us all year.
Its my fault the fear
Assaulted my ears
And I forgot all about my career.
Don't ask stupid questions.
Just do your job.

I could do anything
if I tried
the training
the mentor
the moment
for the right price
I would do anything
and if I lied
and told you
it was over
would you believe it?
We were strangers
smoking cigarettes
watching sunsets
asking  ourselves
What difference does it make

https://soundcloud.com/the_mjv/fine-print

read read read
we never do it
but words we always see
and seem - to ignore
I recognize the shapes of words
colors and sizes, the meaning no more
I don't know how it got this way
but I'm trying to ignore - the voices
in the ceiling and under the floor
I'm trying to ignore - the voices
in the ceiling and under the floor

oh why can't I escape its glare
reflections of a time insincere
I know if I hide it beams back

it takes
time
to get to know someone
time
and energy and
energy sapped I pine for you.