they are multiplying
growing
and splitting, at the seems of sadness
glowing screens and madness
it happens, a lot
you're distracted, a lot
and I'm attracted, to thoughts
of where i'm trapped into -
accidents -

The cameras got there too fast.
Me and you?
We weren't too last -
Then metals bent, and glass shattered

kiss the ring of the employer
holy matrimony, me?
join ideas with a ******?
I'll go grey hair as long as I can stand here.
and watch.
Listen. I'm okay with this.
it's there when I need it
it's there when I don't
it's in the air I'm breathing
it's in my hands my hair and my scalp
it's behind my eyelids and in my mouth
it's all the violence, in the South
It's black on white crime
It's money inside politics
It's a sweaty lipstick ******* in San Francisco
It's you
It's me
It's America, it's the whole ******* planet I say -
Where scientists are the only ones who don't sin -
Not the religists, or people who's kids go to elementary schools that cost more than my college degree I now only know I didn't need
It's the color wheel
It's everything
And it's mine, please.
Please Please Please.

It's funny how
We can learn
To love what
We always told
Ourselves to hate
It's sad how
We can learn
To hate what
We always told
Ourselves to love

And let the sun cook you like a ham sandwich
Swallow the salty water of temptation
Gag on your fingertips
And cry endlessly for salvation like a feral cat in the night
Kiss the moon, and cut the sky
Roll your car over at eighty miles per hour
Laughing and crying but laughing

I didn't know my own strength
(I should have known how weak you are)
I had a bad dream last night
(I think you're cheating on me)
I have so much work to do
(Let's stay in and have *** all day)
I miss the swingsets of my youth
(The way you breath so loud ****** me off)
You can do better than that
(I'm definitely more insightful than you)
I'm sorry
(I'm sorry for now)

Everyone dies alone.
When you close your eyes, for the last time
I want to be there, holding you hand
Knowing, you'll be happier after this
This unfamiliar blackness passes -
It's nothing you did, my love
This is by divine design -
Don't fear the air opening up a pathway
into voices familiar, colors unseen
and unspoken, and eyes that feel ecstasy
And when warm chills kiss your temples
and cool liquid wraps around your arms
When your legs go limp but heavy
and your heart is merely a memory?
I will love you, I will love you
I will love you like a city is noise
I will love you like the stars are static
I will love you, from so far away
with patience, and acceptance
And I will love you, with a damp teal
cloth patting against your forehead
I will love you, as the hospital bed
becomes a poem, and the poem becomes something more -
I will love you, I love you.

She puts what where?
He says yes too?
She doesn't listen well.
He tries, but doesn't have too.

i am a shadow of a person
of the person i was
standing hunched over
come back to me, my love
a failed salesman
an honest street pusher
a broken window
a piece of pavement hot
and walked all over
i didn't ask for this
but i do deserve it.