learning patterns of juggaling thoughts persuading me
to lean in and sweep away the energy that lies within your fragile body
imperative blows straight to the deepest part of the
deepest side of me,

then deeper--

talk gentely of those mingling loners passing by
treasuring what we live in
and what we live through
the ticking of the black clock
currently in rotation in my head

bowing we go further than this
I plead no more

I beg you its something I rather not miss
when you fall in this after that first kiss
--
and then you tarry on into differant levels
of explosive bliss

rebound the character of my moral game
I hope this is something you want to insist on more than 4 times
maybe more than that

maybe Im selfish and spoiled
and deserve nothing more than to have you simply look in my direction

I see how it is now
I feel how it is now
my hand softly playing with my skin

its time I let myself in

past phase through mansions of vampires
that lurk at my doorstep and ask for garlic and white flags
just bare with me please
one more time through this
just one last time through this
sire I grasp these iron lungs and beg for forgiveness
at the thought of your gratitude I am driven
to find something far greater than you
although

I know its impossible
I know its impossible

the room is copper
your hair is not there,
how I knew it all along

I bare

because the one thing that will drive you to destruction besides love is
despair

hoping for something greater than this
just a little better than this

I know its impossible

strangers meeting on the wrong path
but going to the same place
I asked what its all about,
this glorifying race

built beneath the soles of ancient people
who call me every night in my dreams
to tell me,
that there was once a light
and that everyday the passes it goes deeper and deeper into
this black cave

for our world is changing in all the wrong ways

I tell you I have been weary for days and days
you called me to tell me it would be okay

I just want to tell you trembling like a leaf in a storm
I laughed and talked about how i just wish I was home
and smelled the stench of fresh cut green grass

with the thought tickling my tongue
I realize that very rare good things last
some go bad
and some are still great


my thoughts are more confused than my words
and I know sometimes I may sound absurd

but forgive me for saying that once I lied and said I never heard what I heard
and that I really am lonely
and that I really dont know what I'm living for

all you had to do was take that little look from me
or rather more give me that look of yours
come with me cause you know you can
come with me cause you know you should
I ask you too cause I know you wouldnt

so they say that sometimes things are better left half done

no matter how far I push the ice I will never feel like I'm half way there

outside the old bar I smelt the alcohol in your breath

when you told me you never wanted to say it
and then you let it go
you broke free
and thats when I turned around and decided to leave everything behind me

including you

my hand slowly slipped off the back of your wet neck as I walked away

I leaned against the light pole
something classical faintly playing in the background
and I'm thinking to myself I'm never going to forget this day

I know your still standing behind me watching me
I yelled inside my head you will hate yourself for this
but I didnt turn back

I stuck the needles in all the right places
and stuck the warmth in all the wrong places

and my end result was a bleeding soul with no guidance from that smile I needed desperatley

just water from the clouds
falling down

falling down