There cannot be thrill An empty happiness Unable to feel We're pawns in this eternal chess Sacrifices for the higher Not allowed to think Move forward **** Move forward Die Liars in this plot Lambs for the feast Crucial pieces of this Least of the most You play yourself Death is your host Welcome to Hell You lose when you lose
It angers me How much I could love you How much I would weep How much I would plead How I'd break my own arms Hell I even tore at my body To understand To become To know How I destroyed it once How we could save us It angers me how I killed myself daily How I tried How in the end we both went numb We both stopped seeing it We didn't change We just grew older It angers me That we both died For nothing
We lost that chance A place to go To live a little easier To smile To be a family We never have loved But before we get our chance We get the same thing we've all gotten too many times "Too late" It's okay I will live here in Hell I didn't expect things to get better I find solace in that God has destined that we don't be happy What a silly thing When Hell is your home
I'm no longer cold In my teenage disillusion I'm at a disability for fools But for now I'm not handicapped I'm that nine year old again Smiles and tears Simplicity Feeling out if feeling No silly fallacy Just who I am For another night, I'm me again