You cannot fly,

You're just a mere human..

You get wings when you die..




Stop jumping like a wingless bird..

And stand on your feet like a human should..




I am not scared..

So dear white doves..

I wonder if they can reach to tell the Full Moon my..

Lonliness and fright..

I thought...

I was cared about..

I thought I was loved..

I thought I was ready.

I thought I could do this..

Live on..

But I my confidence is running low.

My battery is almost dead and can't get charged..

I think I have lost all my hope..

My emotions are turning too fake..

And now I need..

Thoughts...

Emotions..

Knowledge..

Love...

Courage..
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I have courage.

Just like William Wallace once said...

Freedom,

And I'm throwing my sword down with me.

I am lost

Lost inside

Deep down..

I am dust

Dust inside your chamber of many broken

Hearts.

You've broken me over and over

Setting more and more weight

Upon

My poor soul..

She's been chained

To this poisoned wall of..

Your

Pitch

Black

Heart..




I am

Lost...

In

Your evil trance..

I wish that..

My love that was thrown away,

And caused my heart to shatter like a broken mirror,

Would come back

And be on this necklace of honor and pride,

Saying look at me,

I came back.

I ran from hell,

Had tea with the devil,

And now I'm eating cookies with only your soul being the main ingrediant.




My hearts made copies when I was little,

They must've known that I would have to fall in love with you

But hey,

Look at me now,

I'm sitting here wishing.

And what I wish...

Is..

I wish

That you'd never come back.

I see her standing there.

As light as a feather.

She's not casted by the light

Or anything scientific.

She doesn't react to weather

But stands there silently.




She's so angelic

Never heard her voice.

But she's heard mine.

She's with me every moment.

She is my soul

I've named her Shadow.

Because that's what she is.




She cringes at the day time

She doesn't like the sun light.

She appreciates the night time

She looks out my window every night

Crying at the moon,

Holding her hand out for stars




And when I try to talk to her.

She unfurls her mysteries.

And those wings is what I see.

Sierra,

You're my sister,

And if you're hurt,

And you're in the hospital I think I might just have to conquer my fear.

I've been lost lately,

And I can tell from the last time I saw you,

You've been lost too.

I'm sorry all I could do was make you laugh and smile,

And it might not have been real laughter or smiling,

But you don't deserve the pain you're going through,

And if I could I'd **** all the pain from you and unto me.

Because I think I deserve it more than you.

You've always been there to listen,

You've always been there to free my spirit,

And I'm sorry I never thanked you.

I always did listen to what you had to say..

And I'm sorry philosophical advice was all I could give you.

I remember our funnest memories and our bad memories




Naming the trampoline, Fernanand of course.

Always searching for resources

All the little tea parties we used to have.

Jumping on Fernanand with the sprinklers on and listening to Bon Jovi and screaming the lyrics at the top of our lungs.

Sleeping on Fernanand , getting eaten alive by misquitoes.

Sitting under the mushroom at the public kiddy pool.

Seeing all those shadows,

Sharing deep dark secrets.

Our first meeting.

Setting notes under the house mats like we were spies.

Playing tip the cow on Fernanand.

Crying together.

Funny make overs

Sharing books,

Being ourselves.

Being sisters




Our bad memories...




Our fights

Moving ...

And when you're hurt,

I hurt too.




I don't know why you got this pain,

I did not.

When I deserve it more,

Than you.

You,

My dearest friend Sierra.

You did nothing.

Would you still hurt,

If we were together,




Sierra

I wish I could help.

I wish I could come visit you

But I don't think you'd like it if I had to commit ****** in a hospital to do that.

We are attached by soul chains

If you snap,

I will snap with you.

Do me a favor and don't snap.

Never give up..

Shoot for the stars...

Cry when you need to...

Write when you want....

Just because you're in that room,

Does not mean you cannot achieve your dreams.




Your description...

Just a girl following her dreams...




You're more than that..

You're my inspiration achieving her dreams.




We will never lose each other...

you cry, I cry.

You hurt, I hurt.




You don't deserve this pain...

I do...

Sierra..

My dearest friend..

My dearest sister...

My closest friend...

My closest sister....

Please understand..

If I could come and save you,

I would....




To all the world's best, You're the best...

Never forget...

Sierra...

I love and miss you...

And I hope to see you soon..