The pieces of the puzzle are scattered on the floor
You don’t know if you can do it anymore
You start to look around to see what you can do
But you truly don’t know if you can even get through
You see the hot mess that you were left to be
So you go to seek out help hoping you’ll be free
Free from all the pain you’ve felt and the misery
Hoping you can let it all go and just—be
The people really help you come to terms of all that has happened
And you start to see clarity that you never expected
It becomes easier and easier to simply be yourself
Until you finally take your old self off the shelf
You look down and see the puzzle pieces on the floor
And you can’t stand to see them there anymore
So you start to pick them up and put them back together
And the pieces of your life look better and better
You realize some of the pieces aren’t good for you anymore
So you throw them away so they won’t hurt you as before
Pretty soon the puzzle is put back together
And though it looks a little different, your life is better than ever

I find my mind drifting back to you
Wondering what you're doing right now
Wondering if you're thinking of me
It happens from time to time
Especially when something happens
Good, bad, mediocre--I find myself wanting to tell you about it
What's happening to me?
Am I turning into this lovesick fool?
When did this minor crush turn into something this strong?
I'm not sure if I like it--
The vulnerability like a shy kid on his first day of high school
You literally have a part of me that no one else can take
I don’t know when it happened, when you claimed that part of me
But you did
And now here I am
Thinking about you
*And wanting to tell you everything about me

I came across that old picture today and it brought tears to my eyes
It reminded me of what we used to have
We used to be a tight knit group; completely inseparable
Now I've been replaced and you don't even think of me
There's an old saying that says:
"Keep the picture. They never change. The people in them do."
How much we've all changed
I used to think you'd all be in my wedding
Now I know that that won't happen
We drifted apart, we all took different paths
Or rather, I took a different path while you all stayed on the same one together
You left me here
Now I just have the pictures
**And the memories

We talk and it's all I can do but smile
You make me giddy
You make me feel like a little kid again
We joke and kid and I feel like I'm floating on a cloud
You'll do anything to see me smile
And I'll do anything to keep this going
I want this to last forever
I want to be able to stay here and revel in what we have
But like all good things, this must come to an end
You say goodbye and we part ways again
And I wonder when the next time will be
When I can float on this cloud again
And talk about absolutely nothing
With you

Paranoia sets in as I wonder why I always seem to just miss you
Are you avoiding me?
Do you not want to talk to me?
Is there a reason we haven't talked or seen each other in a while?

I start to question everything
I start to wonder if I imagined all the wonderful moments we had together
All the flirting, the late nights, the texts, the calls
The days when you showed me something new or told me that you cared

I'm starting to question it all and wonder if it was all a ruse
Because deep down I'm just a timid girl who's been hurt before
I've been played by the best and I thought you would be different
I thought that maybe, just maybe, you could be the one.
You could be the one that changes everything
The one that changes how I look at the world
The one that makes me believe that there is more out there than just this nothingness

Was I so wrong to think that?
Are you going to let me down?
There's really nothing I can do but sit and wait it out
A helpless girl who put her heart on the line

With nothing but a little bit of hope that it will all work out in the end

I look to see if you’re online again
A bad habit that I should get out of
It’s been a bad day
And you’re the only one I want to talk to
Just a look to the right
Just a glimpse to see if you are there
But you still aren’t like I wish you were
I’m three degrees away from obsession
Toeing the line and getting closer to it with each passing moment
You’re like a drug to me and I can’t seem to get enough
I just want to talk to you
Because I know you can make it all better
But then you come online and I do nothing
I’m like a teenager again—waiting
Waiting to see if you will say something to me first,
To ask me how I’m doing
To see if you need me like I need you
Although I already know the truth
Or at least I think I do
So I keep quiet and watch as you come and go
You’re gone again and I feel that emptiness inside me come forth
Obsession is creeping up
I’ll push it back as long as I can
And wait for my twisted mind to go back to normal

So I thought of him today
In the darkness of my mind
And there wasn’t any way
To make it go away
It happens from time to time
From a mention or a song
And I still tremble in fear
Like he’ll just come along
What has he done to me?
I used to be brave
Now I’m a scaredy cat
Now I feel betrayed
Maybe he didn’t mean to
But he shattered all my trust
And he brought me back to way back when
When I was really young
That one more changed everything—
But that he still can’t see
Which is why he’s still on the prowl
It’s why he’s still pursuing me
I pray to God that it will stop
Before it happens again
But I know better than to hope for the best in the end
That just leads to disappointment
And surprise when I get hurt
That’s not something I need
That’s not something I want
I just hope he comes to his senses
And realizes I’m not the one
Because if he doesn’t
I might end up more broken than before