I looked at you and you looked at me
How those sparks flew instantly
Oh how I thought you hung the moon
and the story of us began with a swoon

Then the story of us...became the story of you
and I grew bitter and thought things were through
I wanted to tell you I miss you but could not figure out how
I never knew that silence could be that loud

Maybe if we could just meet in the middle now
Maybe it will all get better somehow
Maybe now we can just kiss under that moon
Maybe our story isn't over .... it just started to soon

Was just recently asked "How can you still smile when you are so stressed?"
Honestly, I think it is easy because I have learned to just laugh as a whole
Laugh at myself, at life, and just in general...it is good for the soul
Another way I deal with stress is the power of prayer
I know of ten people right now going through a harder time than me
So I pray for them and the people that I don't know or don't see
It helps to keep that focus off of me
The thing that helps me the most is the clarity I get with paper and pen
There is always a solution even if I do not see it right then
If I do not find a solution then I know I can at least make a good poem
                        
So laugh often, Pray when you can, and Write
You will feel better

I am totally Bewitched by all of your Words
even if I am The Other Woman  :)

You shimmer softly like the kiss anticipated upon my naked soul
and when I am with you I feel like I am whole
Your touch releases me ~ springs me from material bonds that bind me
I give over my heart to you, as within your sweet embrace I feel free
I am cleansed with you and have forgotten all my fears
and when I close my eyes ~ you shower away my tears
Your graceful curves cascade all across the open range
As your fluidity reminds me of the very current of change
One body against another writhing in waves of pleasure
and my love for you is beyond any amount of measure
Salt stained lips whisper softly as you wave me goodbye
Tell me, can you please guess ~ WHAT AM I ?

Birds singing their songs
Everything awake, moving quick
Spring is finally here

Imperfections are life ~ Life is messy ~ Why not embrace it

Look into my eyes and tell me that you don't love me
Tell me you really want to break up our happy home
Then and only then, will I leave you alone

Eyes that undress me and devour
and look upon me as a delicate flower

Lips that softly kiss and taste
greedily savoring my sweetness leaving not a trace

Hands that need no prompting or words
they just read my body and thoughts not heard

Arms wrapped tightly around me, skin on skin
making me feel loved on the outside as well as within

I would try and hide from the horrors
and try to hide from the pain
but no matter how deep it is buried
the fact is the pain...it remains
The pain is still there every day
sometimes it is just hidden further away

I had to learn how to hide and how to retreat inside
Tried so many things to fill the emptiness the hole
So much hatred for a thief who stole so many innocent souls
Even though there are no scars on the outside to see
does not mean it did not happen to my sisters and me

thought I was to young to have a voice
to young to have a choice

Where there is darkness there is also light
Maybe some goodness can come of this after all
We can learn together how to come around that darkened wall
Our pain can produce a voice for all to hear
Make a stand.... speak up and listen with our ears

If you knew me at all you would know that chocolates or flowers are not required...
What I require is just a moment of your time to feel appreciated and loved
Regardless of what you think I am actually very easy to please
Watching the sunset with you and a few beers in hand
Would make me feel like the queen of all the land.
For just that moment I could fantasize that I am at the top of your to do list :)

We have this powerful connection
One that can never be denied
You have left your mark on me
Never to be erased only grows deeper and wide

So I give to you my physical love letter
Communication void of any words
A deeper way of connecting just not heard
Messages through my eyes and kisses with my lips
and the gentle touches from my hands and fingertips
My mouth will form all the vowels on parts of you
without hardly making any sound
Then with the next breath I will erupt into a song
as the pleasure swirls all around

I surrender to you, and only you, because you look after my needs
Others pulled me along in their own selfish greed
You are what I yearn for and thirst
I surrender to you, and only you, because you surrendered to me first

I have embraced my dark side
because I know it's not all that is seen
My light shines brightly enough
in all the spaces in between

For even in the darkest of places
light can still be found
It is where the light shines brightest
As the shadows cast on the walls all around

Piece by broken piece has been taken away
Until I have found I am lost to myself

A friend recently told me when I asked her
totally out of the blue ~ "Who do you think I am?"
She said," You are kidding me...right?"
"You are the glue that holds us all together"

I find that very ironic

Will someone pass me that glue please
so I can start putting myself back together  

                 Thank you :)

Just wanted to wish my HP family a Very Merry Christmas xoxoxo love you all and hope the holidays treat you well!!!

Once a beauty, a sight for all to behold
Now a sad charlie brown replica with a story to be told

Whispered promises of gifts of time and care
Oh how the promises now float freely in the air

If only this tree could have felt the warmth of the sun
Who knows then what it would have become

Tangled limbs of times in the past
Leaves falling and falling off so fast

The words of love left and pinned on by you and me
have now started to also fall from this tree

Oh no there goes the love word Adore
now look there goes the one that says No I love you more

All gone now except for one left right below a small pine knot
I found the love words Please Forget Me Not

Yes neglected and left unattended for so long
but the root system is still quite strong

Maybe this tree can be restored, to what it was so long before...

All the love words could be returned along with all the leaves
All you have to do is follow through with all love promises
and *Believe

Just because I can do everything doesn't mean I wanna!

Sometimes I feel like I am walking the length of a tightrope while you hold all the strings
Normally I would gravitate toward your end because of it being familiar
but I also want to just let go and see what the unknown below brings

It seems I have been underestimated since day one
yes I am small
yes I do cry pretty easily ~ it's genetic
yes I am naive...mostly about seeing the good in people when it is not there
but I also have a core strength inside me that is unrelenting in times of despair

So letting go of that tightrope does not have to be the end
Closing the door to some ...just opens the door for new beginnings to receive
Happier ones too.... it does seem

Love ~ Indifference...How it is sent out is how returned!!

Do you ever go outside and just sit in the sun, breathe in, and just be still?
Do you ever listen to the wind blow and just let Mother Nature seep in and heal?

Close your eyes and look up to the sky and let your body sway with the trees
Be thankful for where you have been and for the journey that will lead you now to be

I try to do this as much as I can and wanted to share a little piece of me with all of you
This love affair I have with nature helps me reconnect and gives me strength to push on through

Nightgown still on....feet bare
Tangled mess of curly chocolate hair
Not a stitch of makeup on but that is when you say I look my best
Your knock this morning was a surprise I was not expecting a guest

Silly me, when you said  I am hungry I thought you meant for food
Till you came out from under the breakfast table and I got a better view
You play with the bow at the top of my gown
Then pull my arms up and then let it fall to the ground

You search out and make love to my mouth with exploring tongue
You drink thirstily as we both slip into oblivion
Your warm lips feast by licking and nibbling everything you can get to
I whisper in your ear I cannot wait to feel you inside me...every inch of you

An overwhelming necessity to have you RIGHT NOW comes over me
I yell out Don't stop, Please do not Stop as I begin to wiggle against you with my hips
You finally release the ache inside of me as you enter and part my lips

They say that breakfast is the most important meal of the day
Cannot wait to see what lunch will bring my way :)

One look was all I needed no words need even be said
You take my hand and lead me outside to Nature's bed
The colorful canopy offers minimal seclusion and makes us feel wild and free
~and I cannot wait to get your hands and mouth all over me
You tune everything else out... I am all you want to hear
My sounds of pleasure ...nothing but sweet music to your ears

Gone is the day of the endless emerald sea
now its time for a kaleidoscope of color
raining down on me

There is a continuity of life and death...there is no true end. The best way to describe it is as a circle. We may die in the physical sense but our love and memories move on with the people left behind. My mom may not be with me in the every day sort of life but she is in everything beautiful that surrounds me..everything that I love she is a part of and therefore a part of me that I carry always <3

In the world of you and me time has no meaning, location has no matter and other people hold no interest. There is no past no future only us right here in the present time.  It's like I am addicted to you all and I wish to drink in your words even if its just one sip at at a time. I love you.. all of you... and all of your different forms because you all give me something different to take with me. I can  escape life and my own problems even if its only a few moments at a time and for that I thank you!!

The lonely lighthouse full of the sea and of its salt
In the distance ship horns can be heard
with their loud billowing swells
Up above the grey gulls cawing with their wings
fluttering looking for any crumbs
None will be found here and no happy visitor
greetings either only sad dormant farewells

Why do I feel so dull, Why is it I feel myself as just half a life and just half a light
Please help me find my light that once shone so bright from within
Help me find my purpose and to feel useful again

This lighthouse beacons for me
~ can hear him and can feel him
I could see what he use to be
what he could still be so easily again
I could see that light that shone from within
After all, I knew how he felt I too
had built up a lonely darkened wall

So I went to this lighthouse told him
your light has been there this whole time
You do not need a new light you are already
a brightness a joy for all to see
All you needed was some help to find it again
All you needed was me

I hold him and tell him close your eyes
Look up toward the sky my love
Feel that cool sea air tickle your face
Let that enormous sense of calm descend down
match your breath to that of the sea and all else shall be erased

When all else has failed....    
                                           My words can console me!

I am a pretender...
Pretending my life is all okay
Putting the bad things on a shelf and put away
out of sight...out of mind

I am a pretender...
Why yes, that was the best two minutes of my friggin life
yes I was able to finish too honey, are you happy now I did
my duty as your wife

I pretend for you, I pretend for me
Of course you didn't see what I needed you to be

I pretend for you, I pretend for me
Who wants to always wear their heart on their sleeve
not me

I pretend for you, I pretend for me
Always trying to pretend that I am so very happy

If you want I will show you my ugly face
Let you see all the dark, in my darkest place
but, no one really wants to see all that

I learned to pretend to get me by
the truth hurts....it is just easier to lie

Psssst are you still down there
as I check to see if there is still a beat

I know I haven't paid much attention to you lately
but its time to get up and not feel this defeat

I promise from now on I will better nourish you
Just needed some time not to feel and think things through

So after many months of not feeling
it has all finally came to an end
Me and my heart can now again be friends

In some ways I guess it was good that after so long
my heart could still feel such ache
But next time (if there is a next time) I think I will
choose for it not to break

I am the moves to the dance you have done
and the voice to the song you have sung

I am the thoughts that grow from within
before your thoughts even set to pen

I am the magic that forms on the brush that you hold
and the melody from the music that unfolds

I am what is behind the alluring touch you so crave
I weave around all that you so freely gave

I am the one who inspires
I am your lust wrapped up in desire

This is not a ruse
I am who you call out to for help
I am your muse

Ah to see the world through the merriment
of a child's eye
To catch every lightening bug and see who can
make the best mud pies

To still believe in magic, fairy dust and
to make wishes on the first star
Blame someone else when cookies
go missing from the jar

To always have a sword in hand
so you can keep evil at bay
By remembering to ward off
the cooties while at play
Circle circle, dot dot
now I've had my cootie shot :)

To try and always be the first
to yell ~ SHOTGUN
To always wear my fast sneakers
so I can be the quickest one

To always remember the important things
Like when walking on the sidewalk....
Do not step on the cracks
unless you want to break your mom's back

Yes I have to be a grown up most of the time
Its good to know I can always revert in my mind
I also have Cayson to show me the way
To always remember how to pretend and just play

Oh to see everything as my son does see
Just brings out the very best in me!!!

She spreads her words across a symphony
of color at the days end
Hoping her loving expression reaches the moon
and that it transcends

The moon slowly rises from the sea
Looking everywhere for his love is he
Calling across all time and space
Searching for his light and that beautiful face

She lights up the big beautiful sky
He has witnessed this with his very own eyes
All the way from the top of Mt Hood
To the bottom of the Alabama Hardwood

They catch a glimpse of each other from behind a cloud
thinking maybe now we will get our chance
Then disappear out of sight and reminded of their fate
They will be forever chasing each other for that dance

So close but still a million miles away
She is the sun and the moon is he
Hoping for a love that can never be

The word is so simple...
Why is it so complicated?

You have me bewitched...weaved around some magic wicked spell
It's like my body is mine no more
You have brought this woman out of her shell

How did you know where to find me
How did you know you could do this to me
How did you know control would be relinquished so easily

You are *** in every breath, every beat, and every motion
You are all of this and more without commitment and void of any emotion

You are a fire within my wondrous sea
A great burning rush that consumes me

The silky flick and swirl of your tongue on my flesh
Has brought me this intense current of desire
Your touch has magnified all my senses in a warm liquid fire

Your lips are soft and searing on the inside of my thighs
Your ******* a teasing length on my leg waiting to comply

Gasping... my lips are licked and bit in a wordless plea for more
As you start exploring and teasing my throbbing aching core

My thighs are now split on both sides of your hips
My breast in your mouth caught between your teeth and your lips

Our bodies melded together..heated skin on skin
Do not know where your limbs end and mine begin

To be desired by you is such a gift beyond measure
The submissive in me aiming to please and always give you pleasure

For Her
She looks in the mirror at herself
and smooths out a wrinkle on her waistline
Feeling pretty anxious about tonight
but also floating on cloud nine

She comes down the stairs
thinking don't fall now girl, please do not fall
Then she says to herself I got this
As she sees his face and suddenly feels ten feet tall

She loves to play dress up
and loves to please her man
So she puts on the little black dress
As all part of that strategic master plan


For Him
He looks at her and thinks wow so stunning
as she stops at the top of the stairs
For a moment he forgets to breathe
He forgets that he has to have air

As she comes down the stairs he watches her
and he knows she is waiting to see his first reaction
He hopes that she truly can see what he feels  
Way more than just any mere physical attraction

That little black dress is so hot
as it is hugging all those luscious curves
but the best thing about that little black dress
is watching it fall to the floor so he can worship her and serve

I followed your footprints in the snow
thinking your path was the way to go
I realized that this was part of your master plan
Lead me... then use me... just because you can
I know the ground will at some point fall beneath me
but maybe then my journey will be clearer to see
I look up to the stars to guide and show me any sign
It is then I receive my answer it is your heart or mine
Your footprints start to fade and then they disappear
I now make my own path and have nothing to fear
The journey once together now over so we go our separate ways
I followed you till I saw my choice....live or die this day!!

maybe one day our paths will cross again

Warm summer spray
bare feet on dampened green
swaying the pain away

Heaven has blessed me
Looking into those blue eyes
Is the ultimate prize

You think you have defeated me
You think that you have won
Do not stick that fork in me yet
The fight in me is not done!!

From the very moment you take your first breath
There was a clock that started taking time
As minutes, hours, and days pass you by
Life was put into play without the acuity of your body or your mind
Destiny holds all the playing cards
As fate lays out the crimson path at your feet
This future was written for you to ride out
Till you take your last breath and your heart beats its last beat
In your lifetime you will see some joy and also feel some pain
Life plays out before you and feels like it's running in the fast lane
You should be thankful for all you have and thankful for the here and now
For when it does all come to the end ~  just let go gracefully and take your bow

There was a time I didn't stop to smell the roses anymore
I just wanted to hide away from the world

He took my childhood
He took my trust
All because of his sick ******* of lust

It took me awhile to finally see
That he was to blame for the horrible, awful ...not me

Once I started cleaning out darkened cobwebs
and the craziness from my mind
Those roses started smelling sweeter and sweeter all the time
Despite all that evilness from him
I overcame and I am longer victim

He on the other hand I hear is not faring that well
Seems as though he has already cashed in that one way ticket to hell
He can never hurt me or anyone else for that matter ever again
He loses and ...I WIN

Oh yeah he wanted me
One look into those smiling eyes and I could see
He wanted to forget and feel good for a change
To be who he really was and not keep feeling estranged

Oh yeah I wanted him too
I wanted to feel alive and pretend I was someone new
I guess I found a way to self medicate again
One taste of him and it numbed out all my pain

The inertia of all our heartache
Just got to be too much...

We wanted to just live again and be off that sinking boat
All we needed was each other to keep us afloat

How could that ever be wrong and thought of as tragic
When all we wanted was just to feel wanted  ~  bring out all that hidden magic

We were lovers but not quite in love
We were friends yet strangers
Till you gave me the shove

You can erase me from your life
Perhaps you can erase me from your mind
The heart will be a bit harder you will find

Probably should have known better
and maybe knew this all along
Was just hoping for love's chance
Hoping the rights would out do the wrongs

Will always hold on to us somewhere deep inside of me
So close inside so that no one can ever truly see

Yes being without you does scare me
but will keep pushing across that line
You live to play out all your silly dreams in your head
and I am just living one day at a time

As I look in the mirror today and stare at my image
I begin to pluck out the gray and poke, tuck, and pull
I cannot help but see a different side to these wrinkles and gray
I see them more like my medals or my crown jewels

They are proof that I have made it through some tough battles
and I have made it to the other side of the unknown
Though I still have a long road ahead of me
I know I'll overcome because of my grit and backbone

Today I feel more wise and more comfortable in my own skin
Not relying on other people for my happiness I find the peace within
I don't worry about the outside as much these days
It's the good stuff on the inside that paves the way

I no longer have to be haunted by memories in my past
The future is not promised to me or any of us for that matter
The present is whats important because life just goes by...
Too **** Fast!!!

It's your birthday and I so wish I could be there
but I am sending your birthday wish and kiss on a balloon full of hot air
The balloon goes straight up to heaven and it's from my heart
Cause that is where all the best wishes do start
Wishing you your happiest birthday yet ..
A birthday and person too special to ever forget
LOVE YOU MOM and HAPPY 60th!!!

Will you lend me your eyes for the evening and look upon this face, this body... like you never have before. Watch me undress slowly and watch my clothes hit the floor.  They say the eyes are the window to your soul and when you look at me my soul feels whole.

Will you lend me your ears and savor the growls and moans that escape my lips for you.  Making my pleasure known by sending out all my verbal cues. You watch as the pleasure overtakes me...sending me to the very top of the world's tallest peaks and all along the bottom of love's deepest sea.

Will you lend me your lips to play, tongue to dance and mouth to graze with my lover? Plunging each other to the depths as we explore and as we discover.  Can you taste the pleasure of you pleasing me? Inhale my sweet kisses and breathe me in more deeply.

Will you lend me your strong hands that are able to guide and tease. Marinating fingers finding hard ***** ******* and wet pleasure spots eager to squeeze . Warm roaming hands that help finish ******* my most intimate clothes and hands that need no encouragement but bring forth the greatest pleasure bestowed.

Will you lend me your body so hard and pressed to mine... loving me with all you got and taking your sweet sweet time. Will you love me from every thought that comes to your mind all the way down to your curled toes of delight? Will you love me all day and throughout the night and when the sun wakes us with its first rays of light?

I am the other woman
the one that never gets the man
I am all his lustful thoughts dreamed up
I am her nightmare in a can

You see she will never give him all he needs
and he will never leave her a fact I now believe
She has his family and his past
and I am the woman who keeps coming in last

I am the other woman...
I know I am not everyone's biggest fan
but I loved him the way he really wants
and the way that she never truly can

You there.....Yeah You
Why did you put me up on this pedestal
You see I am really scared of heights
And not sure how I will get down
What the hell happens once I am on the ground
Will you just build me up again
I am afraid that you will
And what I really want is for you to see
That I just want to be me

He is tall, built, with dark hair and even darker eyes
The warmth of his eyes when he looks at me amplifies all my senses
These eyes seem to speak only to me and certainly could tell no lies

As the last rays of  sunlight and rain fall down
it bathes his body in this amazing liquid haze
This only intensifies the depths of me wanting to feel
him inside of me a sensation that I not only want but crave

Hand in Hand we walk to the boat house to get out of the rain
We light some candles and then open up some champagne
We drink to each other and then drink to the night
Neither wanting the night to end forbidding the first rays of light

The candles seem to start dancing and performing before us
as we watch the flickering images on the wall
The contrast between reality and illusion is intense
as we start dancing our own dance the most passionate of all

My breath steady and low
My heart fast and loud
My head spinning
My body trembling

The sands of time flow through the glass destined to reveal my fate.
When the last piece of sand does land though, I am still at a loss
not knowing if what it revealed you feel is love or is it hate.

It seems it is easier to remember the bad things people say about you than to remember the good.
Harsh words for a harsh world things said that would not be taken back even if they could.
Do you think people or things control your self worth?
This way of thinking has been instilled within us since birth.

With the New Year I do not want to be afraid and have certain things control me anymore.
Instead I want it to bring me a renewed strength and hope
something felt on the outside as well as deep inside my core.

Drop the top toy and watch it spin...spin...spinning
The world has somehow shifted now looking for the end or the beginning?
Tilts this way and you want to close your eyes
You keep them open and look all around
But can't seem to see your feet on the ground
The middle when it is balanced is when you should pay more attention
But you are so **** scared not knowing if its gonna go left or right
One thing for sure if the top does not turn then how will you learn
And I for one will never give up on that fight
Then it spins and tilts the other way
This is when you hold on so very tight
And when you also know that everything will be alright
Where ever the top toy lands
This is where you will make your stand!