You are staring but what do you see
Looking my way but looking right through me

Your eyes were not like this before
But now just don't know you anymore

Can you not afford a fresh set of eyes?
Or do you like hiding behind the illusion you call a disguise

The silence is deafening and is hurting my ears
Would just give up but then would be wasted years

Sometimes this life feels like a revolving door
Pushing hard to get out but then life pushes more

Just so you know thick as steel this skin of mine
Your negativity bounces off…my world is fine!!

Sheer curtains billow with the nights breath along my bare skin
Just wishing that it was you... here to taste me again
Slowly my hand traces and reaches down
My eyes closed listening to nights symphony all around
Imagining its your sweet lips and tongue while I touch
Screaming out in delight when it all gets to be too much

Staring what do you see?
                               While looking right through me!

Don't tell me I couldn't survive without you
You do not know the battles already won
and the fears I've already outgrew

I've gotten stronger now... not so naive
And would only be my choice to grant you any reprieve

No passing security, no breaches, and no keys
There are only alarms and pass-codes you need

My guard stands at the ready on the outside of my heart
Dressed in camouflage with a black-belt in all the martial arts

I only have to ask guard of my heart shall I let him pass
With his awareness he knows when to do kung fu on that ***

My heart is now my most prized possession
and my guard rarely takes breaks or any vacation
The battle not always won but always suffers deprivation

Can't take back what
Has already been
Detestably spewed out

The smell of regret is pungent in the air
Your loss not mine...why should I care
How can I possibly give you anymore
Resentment turned to anger..something never felt before
Did you think I couldn't see the difference in your eyes
and how you never want to kiss me between my thighs
Did the respect for one another just seem to fade
or do we seem to live in the past where the memories were made
A change is very evident here..there is nothing left to gain
But can you tell me when did my pleasure become your pain?

We are mesmerized as the purple twilight darkens the day to night
So serene as the sun radiates its last beams of light

The holes in my heart that once reminded me of the sandy shore
Have now been washed away by your love forevermore

Lay down with me on the colorful coral beds all aglow
Lets hide out from the world in the soundless surface below

Alluring tongue brings forth this lustrous pearl of mine
The sea calls out but has no hold in my lapse of time

You drink in the cool dark depths of me
And then you permeate in your very own sodden sea

In life you play the hand that you are dealt
doesn't matter where you have been or how you felt

People come and go all the time
and we may never know the reason
Sometimes they stay long enough for a sad goodbye
other times just for a change in season

All the memories I don't want to fade away
are all wrote down and in a box they stay
This red box of mine stays very close by
as a reminder of all the what ifs, the has beens, or whys

These memories weigh heavy on my each and every part
but especially on this red box....the box I call my heart!

Longing for the warm flowing parchment of your skin
Our very own love lingo that only we can comprehend

Your beautiful words etched deep inside of me
Penetrating my core to the very existence you see

Detailing your handiwork you trace my outline with your lips
Shadowing my body as my very own lunar eclipse

The Darkness and past memories that once were embraced
Have now been washed away with your light in its place

We take each other to the depths of the unknown
Embracing what was meant to be together not alone

Hands of a new mother gently washing baby's little parts
A little hand clasps around her thumb and touches moms heart
An unconditional love that continues to grow at first glance
Brings new meaning to life makes you want to take a chance

Hands of a Lovers first melting touch
Not being able to breathe when it gets to be too much
Butterflies in the stomach and throwing all caution to the wind
Two innocent souls lost in the present and trying not to sin

Hands of a fighter who helped liberate our lands
Bringing countries together and starting a contraband
Hands of the men who were young and oh so brave
Friends and comrades who lost their lives and wound up in a grave

Hands of a writer, a painter, or jack of all trades
Blue collar living but these hands still need to get paid
Calloused strong hands and a hard working class
Got obligations and bills to try and outlast

Hands of a beautiful woman on her day wearing white
Ring on her finger from the love of her life
Hands that promise to love and cherish through all the years
Comfort those worries and help face all your fears

Hands weathered and touched by father time
No longer seeing your lovers hand...your partner in crime
True love that has gone to a much better place
But the hands remain tied and forever laced

Just as I hear the music that plays from within
As soft as a distant whisper or breath
Your touch has been memorized upon my skin
Like a kiss lost upon the wind.

A duet of our souls colliding
That forms its very own tempo
Hitting all the rhythms and beats
On the scale from adagio to allegro

Coaxing forth the sweetest of melodies
My maestro skillfully playing my every part
Drawing his bow against the tightly wound strings
To the hidden notes of his music written within my heart

Harmonizing in our own lover's chorus
Our bodies singing to a crescendo building
Moans and sighs become the music before us
Then collapse exhausted, the performance ending

A serenade to all who wish to listen to our song
Faces without names, lost among the throngs
And just like the music restored my hope
My maestro saved me when he came along

Such is the music that has cleansed my soul
Reminding me of all that I so adore
And having been once again made whole
I can only hope that he grants me an encore

I'm still waiting on my happily ever after so to speak
For my prince to rescue me and ride off into the sunset any day of the week...

Someone to love me for who I really am
to appreciate me and nudge me forward where they can
Someone to have that unconditional love and love me best
wrap their arms around me and lay all my worries to rest

Wonder how many frogs you have to kiss for it to be the one
may just start kissing girl frogs till then and have a little fun :D

It sure is dark in here...
I look up and all I see is rock all around
My **** is killing me from sitting on this hard place on the ground

I sure am stuck as you can see
wonder when this rock and hard place will set me free?

I feel as though an angel is watching over me
Holding my hand and walking right along beside me is she
Guarding and protecting me with her beloved wings
Giving me strength and love in all that she brings
I still talk to you from time to time
Asking for patience when tough times and stress come to mind
On this earth she was such a sweet and sympathetic soul
That has to be why God took her from me to serve with his purposeful goal
As I lay my head down at night and say my prayers
I whisper I still love and miss you Mom... and I still know your there

I have missed me,
I’m just not the same,
Someone else must be using my name.

Some days I feel just like a pair of hands
As if I’m invisible, no-one sees me at all.
Other days I feel like a clock, ticking my life away,
Or perhaps a clouded crystal ball,
Stared at but not really seen.

I still miss me,
Still not the same,
Someone else must be using my name.

I don't think it’s in me to love you anymore,
I wish things could have been like before,
But I needed love too
I have my heart to restore.

So I miss me,
I’m still not the same,
Someone else must be using my name.

Walking alone, down memory lane,
Trying to find the traces of what’s left of me,
But I see someone I just don’t recognize,
Someone who’s no longer me.

Oh how I miss me,
When I’m not the same,
For so long someone’s been using my name.

Am I still intact inside,
Or have parts of me already died?
These gaping holes may be the parts I’ve lost
But I’ll repair my soul at any cost.

I miss me,
I’m just not the same,
Trapped inside,
And screaming my name.

Do you ever feel like we are butterflies caught on seperate sides of the window?
Each one trying with fluttered desperation to break through that glass
Sometimes with an overwhelming feeling of hope that this too shall pass
The one on the outside trying desperatley to get in
waiting so patiently for things to change and a new life to begin
While the one on the inside trying so hard to get out
bottling everything in not wanting to scream and shout
Both with the dream of spreading their wings to fly
not really wanting things to change or say goodbye

My life my soul faded into what you wanted me to see  
everything I did was to make you feel better.. but I forgot about me
I guess we all lose ourselves from time to time  
Life has its twists and turns and has no meaning or rhyme
The one thing I will never lose touch with is that sweet little face looking up at me
no single word not even love could possibly be enough for what I feel nor will it ever be!

I was born to taste thee
as I kiss your lips and taste me

I was born to please you
just as long as you return the favor times two.

We were born to hunt and envelop the night all around
to get lost within each other then found.

We were born to fullfill our lust and desire and just be
eyes that devour one another and truly see

Just bobbin along on lifes fabric ....
Hanging on by a thread it seems
when you ***** me with your needles I do bleed
Sometimes I feel like an alter is in store
other times maybe just a mend would endure.
Whatever the case this garment sure is binding
could use a little TLC and some unwinding

My memory is full of color and passion~ No amount of time could dull it

Its as if I still have the paint brush in hand.. our movements of the sea
and this painting of my memory is still etched inside me

The air is as hot and sticky as could be
your hands slowly gliding and lightly stroking me

Kisses so hot that they kindled and leap at the ready fuel of our need
Muscles clenching and tensing as our passion grows with greed

Weakened and undone now I arch to meet his lips and tongue that now savor
tasting of my flesh and most prized possession as though it were a banquet of the sweetest of flavor

He now whispers the sweetest
of words that I have ever heard
I want to watch you enjoy and want to watch you fill up with me
As I slowly part my legs allowing him to enter and finally set me free

This memory I hold very close to my heart
this painting of my love and our beautiful art

As the dawn breaks through and the first pinkish light
glows upon your skin
I teasingly pleasure you awake with my mouth and as your eyes open
that contented gaze is all I need for my day to begin

Everything after that seems to catch fire
a slow smoldering burn and all the hotter for that reason
Like someone lit a match and started a thousand forest fires
right in the middle of the dry season

Now descended from our blazing heights we lay holding each other
a grin lights up your face like a open window with no world beyond this room
we try and catch our breath and procrastinate as much as we can
because we know we will both have to leave soon

Drawn to each other by some magnetic force
Someone else pulls the strings on this course
Two magnets attracting each other with a tight bond
Meeting any controversy with repellant and despond
This mysterious force drives us together night after night
Never ever fearing because its our preemptive right

He comes to me with  such a force
as if moving through a wall of fire

Things are definitley heating up I say
as he puts his fingers to my lips
but no words are needed right now
we can save those for another day

He grips my shoulders, spins me around
and pushes me up against the wall
Satiating his sudden appetite
by taking my mouth, my body, my all

He works those masterful hands
over my body with such a talented skill
can't help but succumb to them
can't help but to just bend unto his will

Surprised and stirred I return the heat
as my fingers dig into his hips
not wanting the moment to pass
this moment that started with such a fiery kiss

Tattered and Torn
Used and Abused

no one to blame but myself....

You see I'm a giver by nature
but this promise I make
either out of love for myself
or because of my character

I will find myself again!

Broken mind Broken soul
lost and out of my control

Need appreciation and adoration
someone to step up and have maturation

Imprisoned by the pain
and lies you've told
Is there anything left to gain?

You were so perfect in my mind at one time
did not want anyone but you
but now I see a different side
Think I should find someone new

Your silence and your lack of care
means to me you were really never there

Feel that? Its the wind of change blowing
Don't know what it is yet but I know its coming

I hope its bringing something good this time
because this wind has been here before
didn't bring me what I wanted
but sent me to sorrow's shore

Lost oceans  and troubled minds
Trees swaying and confused times
Looking around the shorelines for any sign

Wind is really blowing now
Should I stay or should I go

Dream Lover come and see me this night
make love to me under the moons iridescent light
I want to look up and see your eyes
and stars staring down at me
At this moment no cares in the world
and no one around to hear or see
Floating in and out of a dream state of mind
Think I will just stay here awhile
where its easier to hide behind
Don't have to be dreaming to think of you
but in this dream world Ive created we can
be anyone we want and just play and do
If your half as good in the real world
as you are in my dreams than that's quite a lot
Too bad these dreams are all I got

Mel, Shed no tears
for me my Dear
I am where I need to be
We will be together soon
dont you worry you will see
I am with your Mother
and your Grandfather
and we are doing fine
carry me in your heart my love
you will always be in mine

I know this isn't Goodbye
but its so hard to think of you and not cry

You have been my rock and inspiration when needed
and the one who grounded me even though I pleaded
You were a beautiful person inside and out
and I only hope to make you proud
of me without any doubt

You could make everything bad be good again
with your loving hugs and beautiful smile
without you here there is a constant darkness
and my heart is so fragile

Cant believe all the things you've missed or will miss
rocking your sweet grandchildren to sleep
and putting them to bed with a kiss
Watching them grow up so fast
not knowing if what we try and teach them
to do or say is gonna last

I know your still around when I see a beautiful sunset
or when a warm breeze blows by
I have so many unanswered questions
and look up to God for answers why

The world is a different place without you in it
I hate we had such a short time before you had to part
One thing I will always know to be true Dear Mother
you will forever remain in my heart!!!

She paints on that beautiful smile that you see
because she doesnt know any other way to be
Hiding and disappearing
has become her greatest game
Laughing and crying
are all one in the same
Sometimes it feels like she is running
but she is really standing still
no choice but to go with it
it was all against her will
She has totally lost herself
somewhere along the way
and uses her best defense mechanisms
when there is nothing left to say
Good times have come and gone
so many wasted years
so many empty promises
and so many Im sorry Dears

Ive never had a True Love Kiss
not really..

Someone to stand by my side when Im wrong
wrap their arms around me and make me feel like I belong

Someone to meet me on all levels mind, body, and soul
who shares the same likes, interests, and goals

Someone who knows me well enough that we need no words
our own language of unspoken thoughts not heard

Someone to make me laugh
and read to me on Sundays being lazy

Someone to make me feel safe
and make love to me like crazy

No I have never had a True Love Kiss
not really..

Your fingers dance over my skin
bringing out an old song
that I thought had gone away
You have instilled in me a new hope
that I may live to play another day
Playing my chords that only you
have come to know so well
Whispering your beautiful words to me
and putting me under your magic spell
Im just gonna ride this out
and see where it takes me
Thank you so much for showing me
my way and setting me free