If you only knew how long I’ve waited
Now I know the definition of fated

When it’s all completely over
When everything’s jaded
It’s easy to say it wasn’t love
When everything’s faded

I was thinking to myself how there’s no measure for pain
Then I realized there are people who leave cracks and veins  
But every once in awhile someone leaves a fault line
It’s unfortunately a flaw in the human design

If only you could see what’s
next
So you could know which way to turn
But that’s just not the way life goes
Only the hard way must you learn

The way that you treated people
How you left them in the dark
I knew you were a death eater
By the way you left your mark

I was an easy target and your eyes were set to ****

Oh Chameleon, you play so many roles
But for me I’ve never met a kindred soul
As familiar as yours, why must you run?
Love doesn’t come in the shape of a gun

When you just can't turn the page
because it was your favorite chapter
It’s hard to see the future
when there's no happily ever after

When I close my eyes I see green
The strangest shade I’ve ever seen
More chartreuse than the usual blue
When I close my eyes and I see you

It’s just not as easy as some people think
how can I be happy if pain is my ink?

I couldn't fit into your world
but you camouflaged in mine
Now you are nowhere to be found
but I still feel intertwined

My axis keeps on shifting
Can’t stop my mind from drifting
When nothing feels uplifting
And it just hurts existing

And I stood still
While the world spun on without me
And I stayed lost
Because no one ever found me

I’m a delicate flower
That you do not deserve
So here in isolation
My petals I’ll preserve

I hesitated and then restrained myself
The moment passed - you never knew how I felt

My feelings are diminished
You tarnished your own image
But now I must restore my vision
So I may see you with precision

Didnt really want you
I needed an escape
You were just a fill in
And someone to relate

Can’t erase your memory
Can’t stop reliving the pain
I want to rip my heart out
I want to burn my brain

In your little world I’m not on your mind
In your little world everything’s just fine
But in my little world everything hurts
In my little world you’re just an excerpt

Thank you for the delayed closure
It has helped me to see the light
Now my wings aren’t so heavy
And I can finally take flight

Suppose I’ve been postponing my healing
Guess I procrastinate even with pain
Suppose to forget all our memories
Guess it’s war between my heart and my brain

Wave the white flag, I’ve officially retreated
I’m never gonna get the closure I needed

You always said you were bad at words
I guess music was more of your thing
But how can we communicate
When neither one of us can sing

I once met a dead end
Because I picked the wrong road
No choice but to hitchhike back
With such a heavy load

You can try to erase or delete me
but the heart never forgets completely

When you hold it all in
When you can’t say goodbye
Thats when it just festers
And ***** you up inside

Can’t stop the heart from breaking
But what oh what can ease the aching?

I’ve spent a lot of time cultivating my uniqueness to just pour it all out for free
But I will let you share this lonely and destitute space with me

I can’t convince you to look at the sky when you’re fixated on the ground
I can’t continue to chase you when you don’t ever want to be found

Out of sight, out of mind
Rearview mirror, left behind

Our ping pong witty banter or your penetrating stare
The electricity my fingers felt running through your hair
A cig always in your hand & a smirk always on your face
These are some of the images that can never be erased

Our movie was my favorite
but the ending made me cry
the characters were not killed
but the love between them died

I like to escape reality
But Its good to keep a tether
Or else I would just float away
As if I were a feather

I won’t let you navigate my dark alleys and broken corridors
I won’t let you examine my scar tissue and bullet holes
I won’t let you solve the riddles and enigmas that my brain produces
And I certainly won’t let you tear down the walls I’ve built from despair and infinite contempt

Full of regret, wishing that I could undo
Every decision that ever led me to you

How to recognize a snake
They usually have green eyes
Don’t you make the same mistake
Of not seeing their disguise

Alchemy means I can convert pain to gold  
But it takes lots of pain to transform your soul

You made it look so easy
Like we’d never even met
Leaving me here with only
These memories that I’ve kept

Water seeps into their cracks
Provides them with what they lack
Fills them up so they feel whole
Diving deep into their soul
When they leave it evaporates
Replacing love with just hate