There was once a time
When I thought you were smart
So brilliant and beautiful
But now I know how dumb you truly are
Stupid, even
You lied and rejected my unconditional love
It brought out your true colors
Ugly

Sometimes I can't help but day dream
I sit and think about spending time with you
I imagine myself driving you around
Taking you out on dates
I picture in my mind all the laughs
And deep conversations that would be shared
I create scenarios in my mind
Where we try new things together
Explore and experiment
You bring out a certain side of me
I'm always envisioning you with me
All I can see myself doing
Is giving you what you want and need
It's especially bitter
And sweet
How I wonder what kissing you would be like
All I ever want
Is your lips against mine
Getting to spend time with you
And share joyful memories
Is what I dream about
Not only in the night
But during the day as well

Sleepless nights spent missing you
Wishing you were by my side
I can't stand my life without you
You were my light
And now you've burned out
I wish I could have you back
But I know there's no hope for reconciliation
You're selfish
You can't forgive me
You can't even see me for who I am
You don't look at what's in my heart
And what's in my mind and soul
You just look at my past and my wrongdoings
And you judge me based on so little
I always look at you fondly
I've never judged you
However
I don't even know why I want you
You're only interested in your own personal gain
I'm so exhausted of occupying this trap you've set
I suppose only time can help me out of it

I feel terrible and sick
To know that you wouldn't care
If I simply disappeared
Into thin air

I'm officially ending this war
My white flag is raised
I've been emptied
My soul and my heart
No longer want to continue
This long and drawn out fight
I forgive you for lying to me
For leading me on countless times
For telling me you loved me when you didn't
And for breaking not only my heart
But my spirit
I surrender
You win