I can't help
But always think of you
I can't help
But always want to know your thoughts
I can't help
But always want to tell you you're beautiful
I can't help
But always want to be a part of your every day
I can't help
But always ponder about what you're doing
I can't help
But always want to have your heart
I can't help
But always want to give you mine
I can't help
But always think maybe someday you'd give me it
I can't help
But always wonder if you ever think about me
I can't help
But always want you to see
That I love you so much
And always will
Even though it hurts

We had a good run
Thought you were my only one
But when things had to end
You still remained my closest friend
Now that it's been a while
Rarely do we ever smile
Something has come between us
Now we lack in trust
I wish I could erase
This feeling of disgrace
I have so much guilt
Over destroying what we've built
I fear the loss of you
Even though we've been through
Everything and anything
Now you are missing
From my every day
I'm hoping for a way
To somehow reconnect
And change this defect
I want us to be strong
Where nothing can go wrong
That is how we used to be
And you still mean that much to me
My love and care will never fleet
Because without it I am incomplete

I'm in a stagnant place
Stuck on autopilot
Don't even recognize my face
Always reserved, always quiet

I feel very alone
Even with family & friends
I am always prone
To feel like I'm at my end

Every day is not new
No motivation, just doubt
An endless cycle of devalue
All I ever do is space out

I get drunk and high
To try & escape this reality
But all I do is ask why
Not even drugs are enough for me

I wonder when this will leave
And when I'll feel normal
I don't think I'll ever believe
That I'll feel anything but mournful

I only wish to sleep all day
And stay hidden in my bed
That is the only way
To cope with these thoughts in my head

I'd rather have my heart broken
Than be the one to hurt another
The feelings of guilt and deception
Creep up taking over the mind
It's hard to sleep at night
When you leave someone
Because feelings went astray
There are no words
That one could possibly say
When you leave someone
You actually feel like the devil
******* the life out of someone
Stooping to the lowest level
When you leave someone
It is all so confusing
What led us to here
It leaves us refusing
Our reality
Once so in love
Now fighting with brutality
I feel so wrong
For leaving you that one day
I broke your heart
I wish I could've stayed
But it's ironic
How things unravel
Now my heart is broken
And I'm left baffled
By our awkward friendship
I hope you can forgive me
Didn't want to destroy you
Didn't think I possessed
Such a power
Didn't think I could feel
Any lower
But I do
I hope you know
How much I loved you
And always will