Emily

Emily Aug 2013

My mind is full of these thoughts
Thoughts that are surrounded with her
The thoughts grow every day like crops
In a field of love and care

She is the queen, the princess, the duchess
Of the kingdom that is my heart
She's won me over and wants my touches
It is a shame that we're apart

Her body is my muse
Her thoughts my only interest
By her I want to be used
She is the finest artist

I want her to paint me with her fantasies
And on my heart write her love
She has stolen my sanity
She fits me like a glove

I'm not even aware of how we got here
To this very high and heavenly place
But to be completely fair
She deserves this along with my warm embrace

I hope to remain in this field forever
This field of pure joy and happiness
So our love crops can evolve into a fever
A fever that is just an added bonus

So sick in love.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Aug 2013

A Small Fib

I found the love of my life
And nothing could be better between us
But I started off by telling this one tiny lie
And can't help but wonder if our love will get hit by a giant bus

I don't know how to rectify the situation
What we have is so heavenly
I don't want to further complicate the equation
We express our love so sensually

My adoration for her fills my heart
She is my only purpose
But it feels like I'm pushing a very heavy cart
And it's causing me a disservice

A cart, heavy with this burden
The burden of a tiny mistruth
With the impact of a canon
And the ability to destroy youth

But I am what keeps her sanity in check
I show her just how worthy she truly is
Without me, she'd be a wreck
Is this a test, or just a quiz

Probably a test, a test of true love
If what we have is real
Then we can get past the rough
Because what we have is stronger than steel

I can show her my true self
Without having to hide this one small detail
We can demonstrate our relationship's health
And continue living this fairytale

Emily Aug 2013

Her

I get so happy when she comes back to me
She makes me feel like a god
Like I'm the only thing in her life
That makes the sadness gone

She confesses her love to me and I melt
I can't believe she hid all these feelings she felt
She needs to practice on her expression
I think she's finally learned her lesson

Just when I think I can't take anymore
She acts and speaks in her perfect way
And so eloquently tells me
That she wants me to stay

Stay by her side and hold her close
Sleep with her at night
When she feels most alone
Let her know that she's alright
And that all this time my love's only grown

I love her so much
I don't know what to do
Since her, something's come over me
I don't even think clearly
She's all I want and all I need
Our souls are one and now we're both freed

Emily Aug 2013

Hate

I hate myself sometimes
The way I think
The way I act
The way I look
The way I wish
My life was a book

I hate my body
And the lack of will power
I have to make it better
I just sit around
Drawing pictures on a letter
Hoping one day
I wake up different
But that'll never happen
Since my laziness is deliberate

I sit around and act a fool
Wishing I could change things
But I'm not even proactive
I guess this is what nothing brings

I'm full of self loathing
It really holds me back
No one will ever want me
So what's the point in that

Maybe if I loved myself
I could find the determination
To fix all my flaws
And make real my imagination

Being a girl *****
There's so much pressure
Put on us
To act a certain way
And walk as if to sway
We're normal ******* people
Wanting to be treated equal

I hate myself
And I know
Happiness depends on me
But what if I just want to flee
Away from here
Rid my mind of fear
And only focus on nature
Rather than on failure

Emily Aug 2013

Time Is All We Need

He's off work today
Maybe we will get to hang
I'm waiting for his text
I'm waiting for his call
But what if it never gets here
What if not at all

I'm feeling optimistic
Because I usually over think
But sometimes his mental illness
Comes back and reality shrinks

One day he's like this
One day he's like that
But one thing's for certain
He'd never stab my back

Even though his heart is closed
And his walls are up
Somehow I always get a peak
I guess it's just good luck

I know he loves me
But thinks he can't have me
All because of someone else
Why is this happening

Maybe time is all we need

Emily Aug 2013

It *****

It ***** when you're in love with your best friend who is also the fraternal twin brother of your ex.

Emily Aug 2013

6 days

In 6 days
Something important is supposed to happen
But who knows if it will
Because you're so ******* bipolar
It really is unfair

In 6 days
We're supposed to be happy
But who's happy anymore
This is all a bunch of
Fake *******

I'm tired of being the only one
The only one that makes efforts
The only one that shows emotion
The only one that shows affection
I give up

Quite frankly
You don't deserve me
You don't even trust me
After everything I do for you
And all the love I show you
You're still this way

You ignore me
You're short with me
You give me nothing
I'm so used
I don't want you anymore
Not like this

No wonder you don't want me
Because you treat me like dirt
And I still stick around
I must look like a coward to you

Not anymore
I'm stronger than that
And I know what I deserve
And you're not it

As hard as it is for me to stay away from you
As hard as it is for me to not talk to you
I'm ******* done

In 6 days
Happiness
You'll have none