They say the worst heart break was the first,
Not the second, nor the third,
Not to question the fourth,
And the fifth, never heard,
There's not much on this list,
Even if there was a sixth,
So the question is,
Why the **** does this still fvcking hurt?

Bigla bigla ka na lang dumadalaw eh. Nagkaka-gulatan tuloy. Ano ba meron  at andun ka? Andun din ako. Nag-tago ako sa likod ng kurtina para di na magkita. Kaso uwian na pala. Naglabasan na ang mga bisita. Ba’t nagkita pa?
Eh ayan tuloy, tumulo ang luha. Tumalikod ka at lumakad palayo na parang walang nakita. Sinundan kita.

“S…! Wait! Can we talk?”

Tumingin ka lang sakin habang patulo na ang mga luha.

“Mag-usap tayo saglit bago ka umalis.”

“What’s there to talk about? Eh hindi ka nagparamdam?”

“Tinawagan kita! Ilang beses pero hindi ka sumsagot!”

“That’s it? Pag di sumagot di ka mag eeffort?”

“No. Hindi naman sa…”

“How bout my stories sa IG? Nakita mo diba? Di mo man lang ako kinumusta? Ang tagal kong naghintay tapos ngayon… ano…”

At tuluyan ka ng umiyak. Di ako umimik. Dahil alam kong walang kahit isang salita ang makaka-alis ng sakit na iyong nadarama.

Tumalikod ka at lumakad palayo. Dahan-dahan.
Sinundan kita. Hindi.
Hinabol kita. Hindi.
Pero sana noon ko pa ginawa nong pwede pa.
Cause I remember hurt by looking at her, hurt.

She wanted the stars
I offered her the moon
She wanted words
I sang her songs
She wanted time
I gave her mine
She wanted love
So I offered her my heart,
I gave her something,
Not even money can buy,
I gave her a piece of me,
Which took me years to complete,
Yet in the end,
My existence still wasn’t enough.

I've been smiling a lot now,
Since you came into existence,
My world's become so different,
And you just let me become me,
Not in the way you wanted to see me,
And I appreciate the fact that you're always there
Someone I can talk to,
Someone who really listens,
And I hope we don't ever lose our connection,
But I want you to know,
I'll always remember you,

You're the one who saved me, (I'll always remember you)
So grateful for having you, I really do,

So thank you for making me smile once again,
When I'm inside your world,
I don't want it to end,
'Cause now I've finally found the reason,
And it's you

So thank you for sharing your smile to me,
You light up my whole world,
Though there's nothing to see,
And now I've finally found the meaning,
And it's you

I've been smiling a lot now,
Since you came into my world,
Nothing really matters,
And you could stay here as long as forever,
I'm lucky enough to spend with you some time,
I appreciate the fact that you're always there,
Even from afar
You always seem near,
And I hope we don't ever lose that connection,
I just want you to know,
I'll always treasure you,

Kulang ka sa tulog,
Kaya 'di ka nananaginip,
Mulat ang mga mata,
Ngunit sarado ang isip,
Lumilipad sa kalawakan,
Habang humihigop ng hangin,
Mayrong puting usok,
Pumapalibot sa paligid,
May batong gumugulong,
Pinapaikot yung plastik,
tik,
tik,
tik,
Dinig mo ang pag-ikot ng kamay ng orasan,
Para bang may nagbabantay,
Andun sa dilim,
Pati yung nakaraan,
Dinadalaw ang buhay,
Takot ang sumisilip,
Ayaw kang lubayan,
Pag huminto ka saglit,
Mauubusan ka ng laman,
Gusto mo ay palaban,
Maglalaro ka ng apoy,
Kahit magka-sunugan,
Dahil matindi ang pangangailangan,
Yung tawag ng laman,
Pag nariyan sa harapan,
Hindi mo na matanggihan

Precisely.
Methodically.
One heart at a time.

I saw shapes, scratched in the dirt...
Spirals and eyes and jagged mouths,
A relic of some sort,
Maybe memories are remembrance.

Can we associate pain with art?
Are we capable of art?
I wonder...
Is hurting a form of art?

Maybe.

Sa tuwing naaalala,
Ako'y naluluha,
Di lubos na akalain,
Lahat ay mawawala,

Ang pag-ibig na pinagsaluhan nating dalawa,
Sadyang kay bilis limutin,
Parang inihip lang ng hangin,

Tila ganon lang kadali,
Pipilitin ko rin ngumiti,
Lalasapin ko ang pait,
Titiisin ko ang sakit,

Dahil wala ka na,
Iniwan **** nag-iisa,
Di na mababalik ang tamis,
Di na mahahagkan pa muli,
Di na mamasdan ang ngiti,
Di na mauulit pa,
Hindi na muli,
Dahil wala ka na,

Saan ba tayo nawala?
Ba't hindi ko nakita?
Di lubos na akalain,
Tatangayin pala ng hangin,

Ang pangako sa isa't-isa'y,
Babaliin lang pala,
Okay lang ako yung masaktan,
Wag ka lang mawawala,

Tila ganon lang kadali,
Ba't ang hirap pa rin ngumiti,
Nilasap ko na ang pait,
Tiniis ko ang sakit,

Tangi kong hiling sinta'y
Nakikinig ka,
Minahal kita abot langit,
Hanggang maubos lahat ng "subalit”