He smiles in my direction as he walks in the door
And laughs at my heart, now a puddle on the floor,
The people walking by turn, point and stare,
I repeat over and over, “there’s nothing there…”

Rains of passion, waves of homicidal angst,
You can’t look backwards and still walk straight,
A million signs are screaming out at you:
Stop-danger-watch out-you’re running too

Quickly, swiftly your friends all walk away,
I’d like to say something, but it’d be so cliché,
Silently you sit and watch them go,
Hoping inside that they don’t know,
Maybe they won’t know, but everybody knows…

I think of you and I think about stars,
Captured fireflies in marmalade jars,
Beautiful reminders of what may have been,
But the fire goes out, and they lay there dead...

He says, “The poison doesn’t do it for me anymore,
I need a pain to leave me lying gasping on the floor,”
My eyes go cloudy as he looks to yesterday,
I wonder if it's me that makes you this way..

It broke my heart, I almost cried
To see you hurting, so broke inside,
Twist, plunge deeper, lemon and salt it so,
Some suffer in silence, I’ve come to know,
You’d rather be alone, you asked me to go...

The colors flew around the walls,
How I got here I don’t recall,
He handed me the bottle and I didn’t think twice,
"Just get rid of the pain, whatever the price..."

I think we danced, at least we may’ve,
Silly boy, to think I’d misbehave,
He said, “I bet I can change your mind,”
Slow down, pause, (can we rewind?),

“Hold my hand,” I pleaded, to who?
I don’t think so, that’s not something I’d do,
Stop, not there, leave me alone,
I don’t want to be touched anymore…

A glance at a reflection as I pass the mirror,
I thought I saw a smile, but it disappeared,
Spin around and around, a crystal ball,
Reality’s a mist that surrounds us all…

Sweet flame, melt me to cinders
Ashes and dust, a mess on the floor
My eyes clouded, storms rage
My heart is broken, shattered, torn

You lit a match to my security
Burnt down the proverbial walls
No longer able to fake indifference
With nothing left you see it all

Look at me, I look at you
Smoldering eyes, with liquid drops
Am I the cause? Did I do this?
I wonder with my stomach in knots

Emotions flaring between the two
Passion and rage collide; explode
To speak of fear is anything but easy
In somber silence the room grows cold

Despite blazing fires of torment
Still it is only for you I care
Your eyes make silent promises
My scalded heart is laid bare

Take my hands, tightly in yours
Though your intentions remain unknown
I can’t repress or deny the fire
It burns for you and you alone

Once again I’ve made a fool out of me
I believed every word you laced with chocolate affection
What I'd have given to have you mine for just one night
Love, you stifled me with your harmful confection
The hope one day you’d care has died
Instead of holding you, I’ll hold my head up high
I only cry on the inside

To think that I knew better than you
You’ve played the game a winner from the start
Every argument you make drives the stake in deeper
Words of wooden indecision in my heart

You don’t even care as I leave disinclined
A lover and friend you’re unlikely to miss
Take no notice as I slip into the darkness alone
One last reluctant smile, one final goodbye kiss

Let me leave
Make me stay
I remain yours
Either way

Crying in a corner
about my life I can't control,
I'm sitting in the driver's seat
but my hands aren’t on the wheel,
I'm climbing out the window,
but the passengers don’t know

my chipped black nails
remind me I'm falling apart,
but nobody sees the broken remnants
of my shattered heart,
so I’ll keep pretending I'm just fine,
besides they’d all forget in time

I haven’t drank enough but
one more sip falls to the floor,
Rooms of almost strangers
ignore each others' *****,
Her eyes are focused elsewhere,
I guess this shows how much she cares

Nearing the breaking point
I'm rescued by someone,
I leave softly humming
that Edward Sharpe song,
Home’s wherever I'm with you,
I’ll be whatever you want me to

Contrasting sensuous regions.
Swamp and Mountain
Land and Sea

perceive the swamp
its instability:
soft,
rivers and streams overflow their banks

mountain ridges
their hardness
and stability.
small outcroppings of order
in a swampy universe.

land
relative to ocean,
an endless, alluring expanse.
not high and dry
but along the coast,
going out on the sea.

contrasting
constructions
of space

Ridiculous stumbles
of rooster squawks
and child shouts.

Pink, white, or green,
sweet and sticky,
dripping down
sister fingers
to the ground.

The soft humming of a motor
at a standstill in the night.

Smooth,
cold,
dark,
exciting,
wet bare skin and hushed laughter.

Exclamations of exhilaration
scream farewell to fears.

See our feet fly up
to greet the stars.

Pitter-patter drops
beating a rhythm
to a soft "Beyond the Sea" sway...

A sad loss,
moving on,
leaving behind.

Invulnerability
in a flash
of mortality.

They don't understand you.

(You don't understand me.)

Whispers in my ear,
Whispers on the street.

I do my best not to believe.

It's hard to act
like I don't see,
like I don't hear,
like I don't know.

I know the person you portray:
(You know who I pretend to be:)
Stubborn and detached.
(Difficult, but carefree.)

We're both actors
in this play we've designed.
Each thinking we know the plot,
carefully going through our lines.
What we forget is
this play
is our lives.

I could almost laugh
how ironic, the rain,
as if there weren't enough
mocking my pain

The sky completely gray,
my eyes a subtle red,
claim the sun is hiding
like we dont know it's dead,


Walk by and soak me
in a cold lonely smile,
i'll pretend i dont notice,
i'll be staring all the while

Im drowning in my sleep,
dreams of how it used to be,
how painful it is to wake,
lost in an ice-cold sea

Tempted to float away,
turn to envy or guilt,
pretend i dont care,
or die, hoping still,

Im praying to a god
that doesnt exist,
You'll find a way
to love me yet...

Im a dreamer and a mess.
A disaster in a dress.
A ******* damsel in distress.
As this awful poem suggests.

For every sad song on the radio
I hope you think about me,
For every time you said you cared
I hope you’re doused in gasoline!

I hope bugs always clutter your windshield,
I hope the brakes on your stupid car stick,
I hope it’s dark and raining wheelbarrows
And you drive headfirst into the ditch!

I hope the doctors forget anesthesia,
I hope the scalpel slips,
I hope the surgeon’s hands are sloppy
And he cuts something you need to live!

Because I hate you
Like a crayon too short to sharpen
So you have to buy a whole new pack,
Yeah, I hate you
Like that pair of **** jeans
You can’t fit in because you’re too fat,
Oh I hate you
More than yogurt or stale banana bread,
I hate you like only a lover can.

One of your hipster smoker friends
Can put a cigarette out on your tongue,
I hope the ashes collect in your mouth,
The taste of kisses, regret, and poison!

I hope your family disowns you,
I hope your plants all wither and die,
May the road you walk crumble to pieces
Or at least be uphill on both sides!

I hope none of your children turn out to be yours
Because your best friend is better in bed,
And if your honeymoon is with anyone else,
I hope your plane crashes into the Caribbean!

Because I hate you
Like a crayon too short to sharpen
So you have to buy a whole new pack,
Yeah, I hate you
Like that pair of **** jeans
You can’t fit in because you’re too fat,
Oh I hate you
More than sleeping in a hot room with no fan,
I hate you like only a lover can.

She was trying so hard just to keep them together,
It was taking all his strength not to fall apart,
He was trying to remember why he shouldn’t just forget about her,
She was fighting all the reasons why she wanted them to work it out

Cried herself to sleep about the words she couldn’t say aloud,
Couldn’t decide why if she meant it they wouldn’t come out,
Wondering if it would even have made a difference,
He probably knew anyways, long before she ever did

He watched as his words tore the heart from her chest,
Didn’t know what to do as the pain rolled down his cheek,
Delivering every line perfectly,
"Things just aren’t the way they used to be"

Promising, "you’re still so important to me,"
Her response is lost as the audience applauds,
She’s left standing with a gaping hole and a memory,
He walks away with her heart, his freedom, and a song

He cant be himself when he doesn’t know who he is,
She doesn’t recognize herself, but at least she had him,
Now they’re both alone with no hand to hold,
Walking on their own, identity remaining unknown

The deadly deed is almost done
I fell for him and it’s no fun
Like kissing the barrel of a gun
There’s no use trying to run

Pretty words from pretty lips
Petty promises I don’t believe a bit
Darling our love’s a sinking ship
And I’m the captain going down with it

Your playing games has got to end
I heard you’re ******* my best friend            
I feel that now I must depart        
Though I still love you            
Cross my heart
Stick a needle in my eye
And hope to die

There are plenty of fish in the sea
that’s what everyone’s been telling me
But I protest no, they were all killed
Didn’t you hear about the oil spill?

My analogy rings true
For me there’s only you
And if I have any luck
You’ll get run over by a semi truck

Sweetheart there’s nothing I can do
I wish you hadn’t been untrue
Even though we’re apart    
I still love you      
Cross my heart
Stick a needle in my eye
And hope to die

Id rather die a thousand deaths then ever go through this again

Walk into a hornets nest for every word you said that stung me

Stab a dagger through my heart for when your eyes like knives look right through me

Take a shot of gasoline for every tear you’ve made me shed

Crash a car into a building for every time you said you cared

Be buried under rocks for all the dreams that you have crushed

Bash my head against a wall for every movie that we watched

Hang myself with a rope made of promises you’ve broken

Fall into a volcano for leaving my heart wide open

Drown in a sea of every secret that we’ve kept

Put a bullet through my brain for loving you yet

Set myself on fire for every touch that burned right through me

And every place you’ve ever kissed I’d bleed to death from slowly

Does she love you?
You ask, but you already know.
If she loves you, if she really loves,
there would be no question.

She may not say it,
or write it down,
but if she loves you,
you would know.

If you wake up to catch her watching you sleeping
and it isn't the least bit creepy,

If she laughs at your jokes when they're funny
and gives you a hard time when they're dumb,

If at her house she always seems to
have a stash of your favorite food,

If when you're sick she tries to take care of you,
even though she never quite knows what to do,

If when she cries she wants you to hold her,
even when it's your fault she's sad,

If she calls you at three in the morning
because she had a bad dream,

If she makes fun of the way you dress,
but secretly sleeps in your sweatshirt,

If she sends you drunk text messages
telling you all the things she likes about you,

If she sticks up for you
whether you deserve it or not,

If she tells you about how she wishes she had closer friends,
and how her mom makes her sad,

If she makes excuses to hang out with you,
If she hugs you every time she sees you,
If she looks you in the eyes after you kiss
and smiles,

Does she love you?
Of course she does.

Ran into you
In the middle of a crowded room
And your eyes
Looked right through me
As you stood
In the middle of a crowded room

Spoke with you
In the middle of a crowded room
And I knew
What I’d been looking for
I’d found in you
In the middle of a crowded room

Why can’t this room be empty
But for these feelings exploding inside me
You and I
Side by side
Could watch the fireworks display
If they weren’t trapped inside my mind

Fell in love with you
In the middle of a crowded room
And I’m hoping
That you will let me know
You love me too
In the middle of this crowded room

Finally the room was empty
And then our souls met like fire
They collided
Coincided
Once again a whole instead of halves
I wish this wasn’t just a dream I have