I'm not yet awake,
Not fully anyway,
And the thoughts prancing through my
Sleep deprived mind
Are only of you.
So maybe I'm not as over you
As I tried to force myself to believe,
Or maybe I was,
Until I remembered what it was like
Kissing you,
Or how much I enjoyed
Talking to you.
I seemed to have forgotten
How alike we are,
And now I just want to see you.
But I understand, that's not going to happen.
Maybe it's only my sleep deprivation,
Or maybe I just knew it all along,
But I miss you.

It's a little funny,
Of all the people I've said it to,
I've only meant it for two people,
And you're the second one.
I don't look back and cringe,
Like I usually do.
I look back and I smile,
Even though our relationship was pretty bad.
But it was good, it made me happy,
And I hope it made you happy.
I guess you'll never know this,
Since you've seemed to fall off the planet,
But I really did love you,
And I still do,
But I'm not upset about it.
You're just a good memory now,
And I don't want you back.
This is my goodbye,
It was great knowing you,
Brian.