flicker-interference-frequency* (broadcast nightly)
static-soundbites-satellite (fading slightly)

but nothing of the woman
who chooses words with such precision
to lead your eyes to only pretty frames;
a portrayal of desire, sensuality,
a provocative anomaly—
who lights up every time you say her name.

Just the other day, it seems
I was taking a stroll
Betwixt my thoughts and dreams
When I came upon a hole.

Careless and morose,
I wandered too close.

Stumbling!
Oh!
Tumbling!
Woe!

Such a cursed downward trip.
Grasping, clasping, clutching,
The slick sides refused my grip,
And I slipped; lost touch.

Tired and resigned,
My mind went blind.

Descent!
Oh!
Torment!
Woe!

Yet, the world appeared quite clear,
Though my temper was black.
I saw how frightfully drear
wound the future's track.

Frantic, I panicked
At my droll edict.

Penance!
Oh.
Silence...
Woe?

A quaint distraction found me,
And reached out to console.
Insipid pastimes found me,
And filled up the hole.

At last my thoughts, free,
Yet my dreams, empty.

Rescue!
...
Relief!
...
So
...
?

Now I know
I'm my own foe.
Now I know
When he beckons,

Just
say
no.

Out in public
With a friend,
With a brother,
With a lover,
It's all the same

When your soul is sick,
When it won't mend,
When the truth smothers,
Then you'll discover
It's all the same.

"Be stoic,"
"Pretend,"
They blather.
No. Never.
I'm not the same.

I'd like to introduce myself to you
One letter, one syllable, one word at a time
I would like to take things slow with you
Play get to know with you
Like I've never been allowed to do before

I want to capture those butterflies
And release them into skies of us
Me and that one
My Mr. Right that has paid your attention in full
That can simmer in the quite between our glances

He would never waste our time on second chances
Because we are what time well spent is

I would like to introduce myself to you
Spell me out with big doe eyes
That only you can read into
That only you would take the years to understand

And looking back
You see me for who I am

Unadorned by outside exteriors
I never feel vulnerable with you
You cloak me in the reassurance that you are here
Here in each moment  that I need you

I would like to introduce myself to you
Planting memories that we can sip on in our bad days
Locked in gazes that I don't care to escape
I can't wait to meet you, or reintroduce

I would like to introduce myself to you