The air in me keeps changing
Floating
Me around
until I find myself
and land
back down on the ground.

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Ripping out cords of my own muscle,
I don't want to feel like this.

Tissues aflame with agony, and
I can't do anything about it

My lungs are breathing air, but somehow it's hollow?

How did I get here?

I stare blandly at my reflection.

"Make use of suffering."

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Your words, in the end,
Were no more full of substance
Than a rotted log

Did you mean it?
To lie, I mean.

Like a newly-grown sapling,
My words may have been naive
But at least they were true

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Is your heart singing to me,
Or am I making that up in a daydream?

I have dreamed of that moment for so many nights,
Though I know I will likely never get it

Do I even dare mention it?
They say you shouldn’t name a wish

And I am not one to tempt fate

Not in this manner, at least

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I don't wish to see tears run down your face.
Not because I don't care,
Because
If I were to see just one
My heart might break on the spot

I need to re-frame these fears
Because in the end,
All it makes me
Is a coward
And I don't wish to be scared of
You

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A fountain of blood coming from your nose.
I see you writhe, I see the quiet scream exiting between your teeth
No one can help you
I can't help you.

As the pool of blood grows beneath your head,
The blood doesn't stop
It looks disgustingly rich.
I can see your soul draining out,
Soon to be dried flecks, scraped off the pavement.
No one can help you
I can't help you.

A lowly feeling indeed

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Screaming in the darkness
Gasping for light
So cold and...
Claustrophobic?

Can't I find a candle?
I don't even want the sun to come up
I just need something.

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The sadness gets ****** into my marrow
I can’t see it anymore
Is this happiness?

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I wish I could run to the ocean the way water does,
Tossed and turned,
Uncaring.
Just floating.

Life would be so easy

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Everything feels so unreal
None of this is mine
I do not claim it

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Blind faces stare at me
They say these things,
Little whispers from around the corner

I feel a million little ****** on my skin.

Everything and nothing all at once.

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I run my hand through my hair and pull it away
For some reason I expect to see blood?

Hemorrhaging all over,
I can't stop it.

Won't someone help me?

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