The sun warms my face,
Almost as hot as I imagine your touches to be.

You and the sun seem
To be in a direct competition.

I worship you both,
And you're both so
Impossibly Bright.

Sophia the Sun.

It sounds perfect.

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The rocks on the shoreline.

Do they keep the land from the lake,
Or the lake from the land?

A precarious existence,
       Perhaps.

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One day,
I wish to
Exist as
Simply and peacefully as
The trees.

Tall, proud, noble, beautiful.
Sure of who I am,
And sure of my life.

Sure of who I am,
And sure of who I'll be.

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There is nothing but blue
As far as I can see.

Blue skies,
Blue ice,
Blue birds.

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The sun on the ice blinds me
The light is too much to bear

And the wind,
How it chills my bones!

It races through the trees,
Crashing, hollering,
Whipping them about

It is supposedly spring,
And yet...

It all sounds quite dead.

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It hasn't rained in so long

And as I hear the pitter-patter
On my roof

I can just imagine the
Heavy droplets falling,
Water rushing,
Nourishing the new plants

Life-giving water
Raining from the heavens

I am so thankful

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I have
Decided
That
You will cut my hair this summer

I

I wish to have your lightness touch me,
And maybe I'll be lucky enough to
Capture some of it
Forever

Some of your brightness of the sun
In my
Dark
Brown
Hair.

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I want to hike mountains with you
And kiss you on the top of cliffs


Let us be far away
From here,
My dear

And live gently in the sun

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One more night without you by my side
One more night in a cold, cold bed


I just want to curl up in your heart
And sleep the day away

I can just imagine the scent of your skin
And the heat of your neck


Soft whispers into your collarbones,
And softer touches on your ribs

A heady scent surrounding me:
You, you, only you



Just one night is all I ask.

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The kitchen light,
It glares harshly over my shoulder
And I,
I can't help

But picture
The world
In the harshest terms

What are we deserving of,
Truly?

I think...
Nothing

We are not worthy

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"Dream of better days...!"

I
Shall
Dream of you,
Then.

And me.




Us.
Together.

Oh, how I wish!

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Soft, gauzy legs
Shimmery, silky material

Fingertips gliding, searching
Hoping, wanting

You.

And your beating heart next to mine.

Thud.
Thud.

I can practically feel your breaths on my
Neck.

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Sunlight shining softly
No tears around
Just some dew
Gently glistening
On the ground

And here are we,
Heroes, all
Standing,
Happy,
Healthy,
And with wide awake hearts.

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I just
Want to be
Yours
Only yours

I don't think my soul has ever
Craved something so
Much, because I just
Can't get my mind off
You and honestly, I
Love it, it's great but I
Just wish it was
Real and not all in my drug-addled
Mind.

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I think

I'll be thinking of you for a very long time,
My dear

You have this
Way
Of sticking in my brain,
Like a burr
(A very pleasant one)

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A cool walk in the fading sun,
nothing but the
Scratch of my boots on the ice

Life can be so
...Solitarily uncomplicated

I wish it was like that more

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You looked like something from a dream,
An angel
All in white.
Glowing from head to foot
And more heart-achingly beautiful than a spring day

Maybe my prayers have finally

Been answered

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Rippling waves returning to the shore,
Time and again,
Always coming back,
Moving under the sweet summer sun

The ferns are unfurled,
Giving the ground a scent of mystery
What could be hiding under them?

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You walk with Strength,
And the sun shining out of your eyes
If only we could all be that
Sure

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As the bees seemingly swim through the heavy, humid air,
I dip my feet in the water and watch
The lilies floating on the surface,
Providing shade to the fish below,
And a perch to the frogs above

The clouds drift through the sky,
Shape-shifting to whatever my heart wants to see

And what I see is this:
Love hanging in with the campfire smoke
Roses, fully bloomed,
Sharp little cracks of scent,
Pushing aside the humidity, even if only for a
Moment

Fish darting through the lake's rocks,
Nervously swimming,
Gaping, gasping,
Eating Mayflies

Life is just bursting all around me,
And nature is truly in the throes of youthful energy,
As I sit here,
Transfixed and energized by the power of life.

I can practically feel the summer's heat in my veins.

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Verdant green blooms,
Exploding in the trees like fireworks

The sun ripples through the leaves,
Leaving hope shining on the ground

Mossy rocks calmly face away from the forest,
Protecting and guarding all from threats

And
The flowers,
Bursting out of the ground,
Little shocks of color
They say, "Hey! Here I am!"
Calling for attention,
The adulation of the masses,
A celebrity on the red carpet,
Flaunting their best

The forest is full of so  much life,
Bursting at the seams with stories to tell,
Watching,
And waiting.
Waiting for a listener,
So they may describe the wonder of life,
And
The Beauty.

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Sometimes I just get so ****
Sad
That even breathing feels melancholy
And my limbs grow too heavy to move

I just want to sleep my heavy feelings away
And forget I even exist
Because sometimes
It's just too **** painful to be alive

And there's so much
Good in the world,
Believe me, I know,
But there's just
So much concrete in my
Lungs Sometimes I want to stop

Breathing.

In and
Out.
On repeat.

I need some sleep.

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You make me think of flowers and trees

And If
You ever touched my skin
Trees would shoot up

Because you are Mother Nature and
I've never -
I've never met someone so earthy and free,
Someone so wildly reserved
A mess of contradictions, all at once

You light up like the three thirty AM
Sun lights up the water

And your eyes are so blue they might
as well
Have
Clouds in  them
But you are too bright and yellow for that

Can we live in the forest together, dear?
I think we'd be right at home

(Or at least I would)

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Sophia,
Sophia,
sweet delight!

Sweeter than the
Birds,
Bees,
A Sweet Treat
To eat!

Sophia,
My dear,
Listen up!

Button up,
Jump up,
And...


OFF WE GO!

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You have the
Most angelic touch I've ever known
I can only imagine
Your feather-light kisses
Trailing down my neck
And your fingertips
Tracing,
Tracing,
Their way down my stomach

However, unlike angels,
You are real

(I almost can't believe you are)

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I am sure you taste sweeter than the apple slice you're eating

I wish I could find out

May I taste your lips, dear?

I promise I'll be gentle

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The storm rages on around us
And,
My dear,
I can't help but think
That even if we were in the middle of a tornado
You could make it feel like a
Calm, calm day on the lake

My life is chaotic
And nothing - nobody
Is even close to the large modicum of
Peace
your aura brings.

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This grey patina covering the windows, it
Obscures my view the slightest bit
And I can't help but wonder
What Small Things am I missing?
Now that my perspective is skewed
The
Tiniest bit,
What am I missing now that I would have
Seen before?

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My focus has never been the best,
but
You've just shot it all to ****
How can I write an essay
When
You are three feet away from my lips
(It might as well be an eternity away)

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I've been taking in so much of you
This weekend
And, god,
I'm totally *******.

Everything you do captivates me
And I'd gladly watch you for hours

I'm so tired I can barely think
And you are all that fills my mind.

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You are the most nonthreatening person I know

And I'm so
*******
Jealous

Because I hate
That when I move too fast,
My friends flinch

I hate
That when I get excited and loud,
My friends get mad and tell me to stop shouting,
As if I have no right to be excited, happy

As if I can just fold in on myself,
Be smaller

I'm too hard and big and strong to be viewed as
Gentle
And I hate that I'm not viewed as
Kind

I wish my lines were softer, like yours

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My
Forehead is on fire, dear
Though I have not a fever
My brain is just hot with images of you, dear
And I know not where to start
From your smiley eyes
To your nonexistant lies
You're perfect -
Just for me

And what I wouldn't give, dear
For a chance to belong to
You

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Let's listen to CCR and drive through the town
Let's dig and plant and dig and plant
Let's watch the leaves and flowers sprout, growing more vibrant with each passing day
Let's do Small Things for each other, no expectations.
Let's just be us around each other,
And trust that we can find our way together

Can we watch the sun set and drink lemonade?
Can we go swimming and diving in the lake?
Can we take pictures of the frost on the windows, drawing hearts in it?
Can we make each other dinner?

If only you knew how I felt
If only you'll know how I'll feel
If only you felt the same

I want you so **** bad,
In the purest way possible.

I just wanna be yours.

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I can think of nothing besides:
You, me, a truck bed, and the stars,
Glittering with the light of millions of years, tears,
Filling the sky with the souls of a billion lovers.

Maybe one day we can be up there too
Maybe one day our love can be on display for all the world to see.

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I just looked at our truck
And then up at the sky
And *******,
I could not think of anything else
Besides you and me,
Laying in the bed of it,
Blankets and pillows surrounding us,
As we stare at the stars above.
A gentle summer breeze washes over us,
And I  swear,
I can hear my heartbeat thudding,
As we nestle closer,
To keep out the chill of the evening.

If only you knew how I felt.
If only it wasn't the dead of winter

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Sometimes I think I'm made of ice:
Cold, so cold, not caring, not giving,
nothing.
Sometimes I turn so cold I'm amazed my heart still beats

But there you stand,
A blazing bonfire,
Melting me, warming me,
And I can feel the icicles dripping

Boom. Bo-boom.
My heart starts beating again,
And - here I am,
Finally human again.
And warm.

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"Why do you spend so much time online?"
Maybe because I can't go
Two
Hours
At school without hearing the word ******
And I'm called a **** for not shaving my legs
And people say I'm not a real girl because I'm better than boys in games
Because I've got to listen to people I know and care about
Be racist, sexist, and homophobic
Every.
****.
Day.

So excuse me for wanting to be in a place where I can be me
And not be scared
Or fear judgement

****. You.

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The fading sunlight strikes the windows
The bus cocoons me safely,
Inside
As we rocket to our destination,
I am struck by the mystery
Of the beautiful odds
Of our luck to exist,
As we are, within this world
To be able to experience the snow, frost, and leaves
It is a wondrous mystery

And I do not know
What other way
I'd possibly like to have it

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Before you fall in love with someone else
You must first
Fall in love with yourself

Fall in love with the way you snort when you laugh,
With the curve of your hips,
The gentle arc of your thighs,
How harshly your muscles stand out when you flex

Fall in love with yourself.
run your hands up and down your body,
Feeling every curve and dip
Fall in love with your knobby knees and dry elbows,
Your puns, your smile, your red ears.

Fall in love with yourself,
And then,
Only then,
Will you truly be able to love someone else

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I put on some water just now,
To make tea
And I thought
Of the day when you brought me hot chocolate
I can't believe I ever forgot that
You do the smallest nice things,
Or I guess you did
Because we're not friends anymore
But you did the smallest nice things
So small that one could easily miss them
And I,
I miss them
I miss you
So much

I'd like to bring you tea on Monday
But unfortunately we can't even look at each other

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I miss your face
Your myriad of freckles
Dusting your nose and cheeks and lips
I miss how your face lights up when you laugh,
Impossibly happy
I miss the sparkle in your eyes,
Your smug grin
I get these glances,
These quick snippets,
But nobody knows how much I'd give to
Study your face in depth again
I miss your astounding beauty and all the little details that make you so
Breathtaking
I just miss you
A lot
Even though you're a ****** ******* person

I just don't understand how someone so
Heavenly Beautiful
Can be so judgmental and hurtful,
Lashing out like a cornered animal
I miss you, but ******* I hate how mean you were to me
And all I did was try to be happy,
And be myself

I'm so, so sorry that offended you so

I just want you to forgive me

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A pastel colored sky,
Rising up and painting the frost on my windows
A gentle kiss of color;
It's too early yet for the striking reds and oranges of the sun
And so we only have pink,
Pink and light, light blue

A gentleness fills my soul at the sight
The clouds are so soft I could almost -touch- them

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Letting go
It hurts
It hurts more than anything I've ever done
But there are some things that I just
Cannot fix,
No matter how much I might want to

I was pouring so much of myself into you,
Trying to fill you up
But you were a bucket
Not a bucket that had a hole,
No
But a bucket without a bottom.
And there would just never be enough of me to fill you.
The world would flood before I could fix you

I'm sorry
But I can't be the only one fixing you
You have to fix you, too.

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Scrubbing your locker combo
From my
Skin
Don't want to
Remember you, nope
I didn't want it to end like
This
But I knew it would

Me, walking away with a chunk torn from my soul,
And you, sobbing while your heart breaks
As you desperately
Try to stop me from leaving
But you're so young
And since I'm the older one
I suppose that
I have to do the best thing for us

I'm so sorry
I never wanted to break your heart.

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I never thought that being happy meant I'd have to be so
****
Miserable

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I look at you and all I can think is
I am going to break your heart

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You look like the most beautiful painting I could never make,
Like the best poem I could never write,
And you look so perfect that it just steals all my words and I am left
Speechless
Because how could I ever hope to be worthy enough to have someone like you?
If I'm a candle, you're a star
If I'm a rainstorm, you're a tsunami
And I'm a tree, you're the whole ******* forest.

I think the saddest thing is that you don't
even know
How utterly breathtaking you are,
How perfect you are to me
If you saw yourself the way I saw you,
You'd glitter brighter than the frost on my windows
In the morning sun

I haven't fallen this hard for someone in so long.

It *****, because you'll never know.

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A cloudy day, it seems
As though nothing in the world exists
Besides me, comfortable in my house
A sense of almost loneliness. but not
Quite

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I don't know if it's just because I'm tired
But I am
So
Sad

I want to run away with you and kiss your wrists
And run my hands up your stomach,
Circling my fingers around your navel

I want you to sit between my legs, letting me braid your beautiful hair
And putting soft kisses on your neck

I wish we had a secret room
-Just us, nothing else

But you don't even know how you light up my eyes

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Ah-
I am sad
And it's all because of you

You hate me and you don't even know it.

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