I find
That I hold myself back, you see
I could wish upon a star
And I could hold my breath tight
But you still wouldn't love me back

I feel my eyes becoming darker
Little rings,
On the outer edge,
Floating like a halo
One of the darkest kind

Can you see the fatigue?
My heart can only ache so much.

me.gs

Would you have me twist myself more?
How must I
Think to be

I thought this life was mine,
And yet

They ask me to be beholden

I can't be who you want,
Nice and polite and quiet

And since we can't keep to ourselves,
I might as well let you down easy

You can go **** yourself

me.gs

The sadness gets ****** into my marrow
I can’t see it anymore
Is this happiness?

me.gs

Is your heart singing to me,
Or am I making that up in a daydream?

I have dreamed of that moment for so many nights,
Though I know I will likely never get it

Do I even dare mention it?
They say you shouldn’t name a wish

And I am not one to tempt fate

Not in this manner, at least

me.gs

I don't wish to see tears run down your face.
Not because I don't care,
Because
If I were to see just one
My heart might break on the spot

I need to re-frame these fears
Because in the end,
All it makes me
Is a coward
And I don't wish to be scared of
You

me.gs

I pull my heart from my chest,
And consider it with a critical eye

"You know,
You've gotten me into a lot of trouble,"
I remark
(As if that'll do much)

But I get no response

And as I return it,
I know I can't ask it to change.
Some part of me must stay un-varnished to the world.

me.gs

Your words, in the end,
Were no more full of substance
Than a rotted log

Did you mean it?
To lie, I mean.

Like a newly-grown sapling,
My words may have been naive
But at least they were true

me.gs