Bap. Bap. Bap. Bap.
The muskrat's tail slaps a beat on the water,
While the birds add a chorus.
Blue clouds reflect off the dancing water;
a disco ball

Shhhhh.
You'll miss it!

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I bow my head
The cold water hits the back of my skull

I gasp in a breath and feel the air sticking to my lungs

I look in the mirror
Two hollow cheekbones and high, cutting cheekbones

I can see my ribs.
Standing in a growing puddle,
I'm draining.

Soon I'll be empty

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I breathe out heavy air,
Chest heaving every time.

Feeling my ribs turning to wood is
Interesting

Water keeps breaching,
And it's just a lot.

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Blind faces stare at me
They say these things,
Little whispers from around the corner

I feel a million little ****** on my skin.

Everything and nothing all at once.

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Ripping out cords of my own muscle,
I don't want to feel like this.

Tissues aflame with agony, and
I can't do anything about it

My lungs are breathing air, but somehow it's hollow?

How did I get here?

I stare blandly at my reflection.

"Make use of suffering."

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"I'm not gonna change for anyone"

I'm not asking you to reassemble yourself to my heart's content,
A bunch of puzzle pieces to arrange and rearrange

I never wanted you to bend and twist into a desirable configuration for me,
Or to stuff yourself into any sort of box that I fancy.

I just wanted you to try.

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I wish I could run to the ocean the way water does,
Tossed and turned,
Uncaring.
Just floating.

Life would be so easy

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