after months of silence,
a heartfelt laugh sounded like a gunshot.

loud, obnoxious, almost psychotic
when i let it out.
loud, obnoxious, almost psychotic
when the silence that came after weighed me down like it always has done

silence
             can be
                          deafening
                                              too

i guess it is
'cause i'm sinking into the old feelings
of unawareness and hatred
for everyone else