You know what's the best part of being broken?
It feels like God is hugging you behind and saying
"I love you, You are mine."

Found myself crying
Holding your book
Reminding me that i belong to you

How fast things can change.
In just a second, minute, hour, day, month, year.. it can easily easily change and will come to an end.

Am i brave enough to face the reality?
Am i brave enough to face the consequences?
Am i brave enough to trust?
Am i brave enough to accept changes?
Am i brave enough to be selfless?
Am i brave enough to Love?
Am i brave enough to lose everything that i have?
Am i brave enough to forgive?
Am i brave enough to forget?

The truth is...

I am scared.

There are days that feels like i am living in a nightmare. What does it feel like to feel that thing every single day. Sometimes i wish, to forget everything just to have peace. That one day i will wake up and forget every pain that i am feeling everyday. To stop. Stop everything that hindering me. To stop crying for useless reason. I dont want to cry anymore. I want to be happy. If there is one thing i want for myself is for me.. to be happy. Maybe.. thats what i deserve.

Here are the things I want for you.
I want you to be happy. I want someone else to know the warmth of your smile, to feel the way I did when I was in your presence.

I want you to know how happy you once made me and though you really did hurt me, in the end, I was better for it. I don’t know if what we had was love, but if it wasn’t, I hope never to fall in love. Because of you, I know I am too fragile to bear it.

I want you to remember my lips beneath your fingers and how you told me things you never told another soul. I want you to know that I have kept sacred, everything you had entrusted in me and I always will.
Finally, I want you to know how sorry I am meant to bring you closer. And if I ever felt like home to you, it was because you were safe with me. I want you to know that most of all.

You are my constant
You are faithful in every season that i am in
Eventhough sometimes i don't understand
You reminded me that i don't need to understand,
I just only need to hold on in your promises
Because the one who made promises is faithful

"I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you are sad."

why people so obsessed on the things that makes them sad
maybe, in sadness we find comfort
in sadness, we can make our own world
where we can found the real us