Oh why does it scare me
As I browse through these poems
Marked down in history

Oh why does it scare me
As I recollect the missing pieces
That once destroyed my life

Oh it really scares me
To be reminded of
That painful past

I've never really felt
so alone
Walking into a classroom
Strangers everywhere
Talking to old buddies
Yet it's never again
the same
It's never how it
used to be
And I guess,
It'll never be again.
And things have changed
The world has shifted
I've never felt more than this
*alone

hiding behind this hall of fame
tears are clouding
I bow in shame
never really made a name
never really played a game
always there
stuck forever
in this walk of pain

sometimes
I have a million things to say
but
I just can't put them into words
they're thoughts that
float in my mind
distractingly
deceivingly
throwing my mental state into
a mayhem

Words are spears
Lies are daggers
Aimed at the heart
Left to die

Rain is pouring
Slashing
And
Splashing
They are the rhythm
To the thoughts in my head

Each raindrop
Sings their own melody
A cacophony
A medley
With roaring in the distance

It sounds like
Nature is distressed
Letting out its anger
In a monstrous manner

Well how about the monsters
That lies in my head
There's no way they'll leave

They'll just drown me
They'll sweep me away

I used to believe that
Trusting you
Was the way to go
Because trust begets trust
And you'll trust me too

But time again
You hide secrets
And think that I'm a fool
Because I don't say a word
Doesn't mean that I don't know
A thing

*Enough with treating me like a fool
I know my facts
And that's the truth