Can't believe I'm still doing this
My hands lead me astray
one
two
three
four
Again
And again
The scars that etch deep
Wash me in guilt
I can never get rid

They say
Stay
On your side of the wall
You'll be safe

So we stayed
So we waited
But the monster still
Crept through the tunnel

Hurling assaults
Like arrows
Pierced into our spirits
A blow after another

Taking her poison
Her terrifying violence
Wrecking our land
Of serenity

Our worlds
Contrasting so drastically
Portraying two sides of
Extremity

At least
We felt (we learnt) the
i m p a c t
Of **the divide

Have you seen the girl
Walking down the aisle alone
Hands in pockets
Of her furry black jacket

Yearning for somebody
To talk
To laugh
To share her stories with

But the world
Whizzes past
In a frantic stampede
Leaving her behind

Loneliness
The force field so great
It's destroying her too
(Have you seen her?)

I want to be
Your pillar of support
You can hold on to me
Whenever you're falling

I want to be
Your confidante
I'll keep all your secrets
I'll share your pains

Still, I'm afraid
That my actions might
Hurt you
Or pull a trigger

Still, I'm afraid
I'll cross the line
Between your world and mine
Like I'm forcing my way
Through your locked doors

They always say
"Save your strength
For the last lap"

I'm trying

But why am I still caught
In this downward spiral
That blows me away
Further from the start

I'll give
A million bucks
(Or whatever I have)
That you won't realize
If one day
I vanish into thin air
And never return