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 Dec 2012 Maya Caroline
Mars
They say to play with words.
I see each page is a slide and we
smile
          while
                    we're
                              going
                                        down
.

We're make-shift,
Doctor Frankenstein,
            piecing               together
words                  that
             would             lay lifeless
without our spark.

We're other people, dress-up,
with our lens-less glasses,
pens in hands
that can't quite reach the tallest shelf.


Through our words we rebel,
show the world we are more than naïve.
Just because we don’t think
in refunds and rebates and 401k plans...
Doesn’t mean our futures won’t be bright if


we only hope to gain
a sense of ourselves, in that
moment when the tire-swing
goes so high, you try
to touch the sun.
Dance with the light of day
And the dark of night.
The shadow of the day
Is the time to shine.
The stars aren’t afraid;
They dance without fear.
Up all night
It seemed just right
Popped that pink pill
Snorted another, got it for a deal
Alone, in this room
This is all kind of new
Busy head, excited thoughts
Chest buzz
Happy stomache knots
Shakey hand
Lots to do, must expand
Get a task done
Find a new one
In each second new,
Something to do
Hours upon hours,
Supposed to be slow
Clock running fast
Where did the night go?
P.M. to A.M.
Jar full of time, filled up to the rim
It's only been minutes, in this state of wake,
It's all a lie, Father Time is a fake
This reality must be wrong
Yet here comes the dawn
Sun grabs the sky
Little alarms
Equal birds' morning cries
A little scared
This amphetemine world
must not be shared
Hold eyelids shut
They simply flutter
And come back up
A heart beat's stutter
Mind needs to shut off
A drunk man, cut off
Just not possible
Rest: implausible
Trying to chase thoughts home
To rest for a while
But all they've done is grown
Into cerebral bile
Must fall asleep
No, the will
Of the pill
Is just too deep.
Still not tired
Though health has retired
Get up, get ready
Hold your head steady
Grin and bear it
For the rest of the day
Just to waist
another night away.
I am dancing with the darkness,
I am flirting near the fringe,
I am swimming through the outskirts,
I am wading on the rim.

The reflection of my perspective is no longer recognized
By the less traveled sparkled stares, which happily float on by.

The peripherals of my mind are growing
Further and further in,
Wandering with broken gaze
My scope is turning dim.

With the darkness the ground is shifting
As I’m drifting through my mind.
The seasons change the more I’m seasoned
By reflections that graze my eyes;
Of broken scales, false fairy tales and smiles used for disguise.

While it's true it's - as the say - darkest before it’s light,
It still holds true
The opposite ensues
As bright-eyed sunsets sink into the night.

An occasional step, while slippery yet
Can bring to consideration:
That my darkened truth may yet be false...
... But I keep my hesitation
Because truer till is the fiction still that lingers in the sun;
Of droned routines, petty cravings, and gains ill-willfully-won.

These basking sun-tanners wouldn’t dare to enter
Where this jagged path tears my feet,
Making broken bones on shadowed stones
And a hopeful soul deceived.

The hope encased
Is slowly replaced
With new levels, planes;
Profundity of pain
And ever eroding faith.

My setting sun
Is nearly gone
While darkness takes its place.

The nights seem so much longer drifting
Into deeper dimensions, I muster.
Exploring further, I forge freshly charted paths
Discovering new tangential ways to suffer.

And all these feelings must be true, if truth lay in the mind
These dim lit paths are real to me, however seemingly blind

So still I wander through the night,
Rootless, lost, in pain,
Desperate for the smallest glimmer
That I might happen to obtain;
While shifting free
Through the scattered trees
Landing on the ground,
I sometimes stay
To catch these rays
Basking warmly on the stone....

.... But all this remains ephemeral,
As the sunray travels on.

So alone, again I tumble,
Lost and aimless,
Through the depths,
With broken heart,
Broken bones,
And a seemingly broken lens.

But perhaps... it’s YOU who play,
Lost and aimless,
in the luminous light of day.
For when all’s said and done,
After the shifting sun,
Retracts its comforting rays...

...Beyond that light...
...It is the night...

That ever will remain...
You’re a dangerous child
With your dark eyes
And silly dreams
Drinking tea with poison lips
And buzzing bees with deadly fingertips

You’re a lovely teen
With manipulative ways
And martyr friends
Doing your deeds to delicious ends
Laughing at the boys in their lovesick craze

You’re a trophy wife
With outrageous claims
And lying ways
Drinking your tea with poison lips
And doing your deeds to delicious ends
So now you've left me
nothing but quiet bones.
You have pulled out
my unreal teeth.
You have taken off
my infallible clothes.
I **** the bitter
night. I **** all its
kisses; they bring
me no joy. You have
trimmed my unabashed
hair, my unyielding
nails.
I am quiet bones.

— The End —