And amidst all the darkness and hatred that floats about us in our midst, there seems to be a light. A sheer, uncompromising light that helps you glow. You. You and your amazing beauty, your radiance, your sweet bask. I feel warm when I am with you. The mystery of who you are or where I found you is just as ambiguous as your feelings are to me. I feel warm in freezing temperatures, cool in tropical climate. There is no feeling quite like it. Calm. Serenity. Balance. Mother of God in all of it's forms. A banquet for all five of my senses. A calm silent tear falls from my face as I write this, as I wish I could be wiping away yours. A silent farewell to thee my lady, my love as I dream pleasant dreams of how one day you will be in my arms. Silent. Soft. My beloved white angel in the arms of this dark, ill tempered demon. I give you sweet dreams, my dear. Whoever you are.

I guess this is bad bye,
because this has gotta be the
worst bye i've had since
last night. When I scrolled down
searching for your smile and
happened to find another guy
by your side, the caption read
"best guy you can ever meet".
That's all it took for me to think
"what have I been the entire time"?
during morning messages and midnight
sweet dreams don't let bed bugs bite
and don't dream of another guy!
and if so then bad night hope
the bugs bite!...

I'm lost somewhere in between,
Finding the way out,
Trying to figure out,
If what I'm doing is right or wrong,
But I'm confused,
I can't, I'm fading away into the dark,

Your spark, your smile but most of all the things you said to me,
I miss all of it,
I want to love you but I can't ,
I'm fading away into the dark,

The touch of your hands,
And the memories you gave,
I can't let go of them,
I want to but I can't,
I'm fading away into the dark,

Those long walks,
And winds blowing,
My heart beats get faster,
You've changed the world around me,
I love you but we had to part,
And now we're fading away into the dark.

The unseen flash, the unseen pain,
She cried a lot, she cried a while,
She was so hurt, she ran away miles,
Her sadness bloomed her in,
The way you kissed her on her chin,
Why would she cry, how could she feel?
You dint know that for you she'd kneel,
She slowly tore apart, hiding all her words and deeds,
She wanted nothing, you were her only need,
It was an unseen flash, an unseen pain,
All tears she cried were in the rain.

can't you tell
I haven't been feeling well?

the circles under my eyes
grow deeper and darker by the day
and I fear they will never go away

my mouth feels pulled into an everlasting frown
and my eyelids pulled so I'm
always looking down

I hardly ever speak
and laugh even less
do you really not
see my distress?

You tear me apart
Wear me down
Pull me closer.       
Drag me out
Filled with wonder
Full of doubt     
You bring me round
Can you hear me shout 
I loved you then
And now and always.  
How did you manage
To break open my heart
How did we start.   
Did we really end 
You tear me apart
Drag me together 
Wear me out.      
Like a puzzle 
Missing it's pieces 
Scattered around 
The world so wide
Please help me 
Be my guide
Put me together    
Love me well
God I hate this
It's a living hell.