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2.3k · Nov 2013
Piano
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
When I play piano
I think of you

Like the keys, everything black or white
Here or there

But in tune

It may seem confusing
Too complicated

But with a little patience
And a gentle touch

Beautiful music comes to life
2.0k · Oct 2013
Seduction
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
It's the danger that draws them near
It's the blood that keeps them here
I feel it flowing through your veins
Bringing a blush to your lovely face
Can you feel me in your neck
Creeping into your head?

Blurring the lines of life and fantasy
Of what was real before me
Maybe it's not what I say that makes you mine
It's the smile that runs sparks through your spine

Or the eyes slow and warm
Sinking into yours 
Makes you feel like a ghost
For a moment free of flaws
The very thing I want the most
Or perhaps you're nothing at all

You can't predict me
Can't place me
Can't see into me
Can't be free of me
I am everywhere
Like smoke in a dim room
Lulling you anywhere
A dream made just for you

Take the bet and toss the dice
I'll always win with these snake eyes
And all the cards played oh so right
I'll take the chips before your eyes

Are you scared? You're breathing so hard
But you can't turn back you've come too far
Your heart is beating so very fast
But you're finally here at last
Fingers like feathers grace your skin
Leaving trails of fire from beginning to end

Too much to take at once
A lot of work for a bit of fun
Hands moving to and fro
Drawing warmth from deep below
Meeting piercing eyes
So blue and deep as a mine
Drinking the heat as you drown
In a sea of sapphire pulling you down

Skin melds together into soft red velvet
Froze your lips so I know you felt it
More than two bodies we are two souls
Spinning through the stars hot as coals
Fall into my atmosphere
And find me here

Time doesn't know how to get in
It will wait for us until the end
The deeper you get the more you see
Everything is strange inside of me
Nothing is as it seems
Intoxication sinking into your dreams

Like a walk on thin air
I'll take you everywhere
Before you know it your feet are up 
You'll be swept away in this moment of us
You could surely get used to this
Wrapped in cool grace and burning mystery
It was only a moment of true bliss
Let's see if you can catch me
1.8k · Oct 2013
Broadway
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Easy when a face can be replaced
Everyone enjoys the show like broadway
Easy to take a chance when nobody knows you right?
A song and a dance and you're a different man ever night.
1.7k · Sep 2013
Goddess
Matthew Nichols Sep 2013
I try to keep my words modest
But in my heart the flame burns the hottest
If I were ever honest
I would say you're a Goddess
1.7k · Jan 2014
Dear Beatrice
Matthew Nichols Jan 2014
I'd like to make you think
And I do love to make you think
That I am a saint among men
A will of iron from beginning to end

I would like to make you think
It comes easy to me
That I am never on the brink
Of losing sanity

I want you to think I wasn't torn
When she only wants the night
Nothing more
It was but a trifle to say no
A lonely bed easily kept so

It has never crossed my mind
That a drink or two would bury me behind
That a fight in a dim alley way
Wouldn't make me feel alive
Knuckles made for darker play
Wouldn't have a place to thrive

If I could be honest with myself
And I do hate to be honest with myself

I posses the soul of a saint
Good is all I wish to do
But my heart is filled with pain
Always a struggle to stay true

So if you are to know me
As I would like for you to
You will have to see
Behind everything I do

I am a demon of an angel
Hating but kind
Living life through the angle
Of a tortured mind

Though I can't say who will win
Or when the struggle will finally end
I can say I will fight this sin
Try to be something better than I've ever been

And I will remember you
In everything I do

Because the world deserves something better than this
This angel who fell
So save me the sweetest kiss
And I will make it through this hell
1.4k · Dec 2013
Patience
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
Always so casual I wish I could be
Just like you so you couldn't see
All the feelings inside of me
Wanting to be spoken free

I wish you couldn't know
How I miss you so

And how much I wish I didn't
But I can't keep it hidden

I don't know how you do this to me
But stop me before I say please
1.2k · Dec 2013
Subliminal For You
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
Everything I'm too scared to hope for

Like a wish read straight from my heart

I'm sinking into the perfection I adore

Zealous to be taken apart

All my dreams have turned to your eyes

Begging you to save my life

Every tear you've ever cried

Tonight we make those wrongs right

Hoping someday you can love this knight
1.2k · Nov 2013
Martyrdom
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Tired of this gift of sight

Fighting this war for so long

Tired of trying to know what's right

Always knee deep in what's always wrong
991 · Oct 2013
Wonder Woman
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
I saw through the prison bars
A sky too black for risen stars
No way out of this curse
Trapped here for better or worse
I screamed till my lungs gave out
Then I sat with silence all around

Never thought I could be saved
Never thought I could be brave
Never thought I would see the day
Never thought I would find my way

That's when you came
To save me from the flame
Bursting through the sky
Blinding my eyes
Like a comet on fire
Ready to make me a liar
A vessel of desire
Everything I admire
Impossible to expire
Never fails to inspire
When it's down to the wire

She is everything I wish I could be
Everything I wish I could see
Every day
If I had my way
There would be nothing to say
Just be mine today

She hurts like the rest of us
Struggles with the best of us
But someday I will show her love
And it will finally be enough
Though she doesn't yet hear the thunder undone
She will always be to me, my Wonder Woman
977 · Sep 2013
True
Matthew Nichols Sep 2013
Who knew, who could?
Who hurt you? Who would?
Who couldn't believe?
Who felt you breathe
And decided to leave?
Something I see
Inside the depths of your eyes
Something so free
Beyond your modest lies
Something is on fire
With the breadth of wind
The stillness of water
The quake of the earth
Such a beautiful liar
The last standing friend
The laugh that caught her
Never knew her worth
Are there words for her?
The stars that align in her eyes
The beautiful summer blur
Moving on without compromise
Catch it before its gone
And maybe you can be the one
The curve of an angels wing
In the grace of her cheek
Like warm snow before spring
In her lips before she speaks
Hands to beat the devils touch
Cause my heart to race so much
Her soul kindled by music and dreams
Reality never made a place for you and me
Her skin is like home
A place where you belong
Where nothing is wrong
Where the seeds of love and life have grown
Her voice like a wind chime on a stormy night
In the depths of fog she is my only sight
A million years I lived before you
But to make you smile
To let you know love loves you too
Makes it all worth while
To take the last tear from your beautiful face
Replace it with a smile that could light this place
To let you know there is nothing to fear
That nothing can touch you while I am here
To hold you outside of a black hole
So you know I'll never let you go
It may seem like its all for you
But you love to make me selfish
Cause the fire in my heart leaves me helpless
And nothing in this world was ever so true
940 · Oct 2013
How To Steal A Heart
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
It's a long story
How to steal a heart
Sometimes boring
And very hard to start

Sometimes tears may sneak into your eyes
Sometimes the chapters just seem to fly by
But this time I think you'll be in for a surprise
Because the story was never read to you right
This one has no twists, villains, or lies
Just the simple truth that I want you to be mine

Not just to have you in my possession
Or some whim of a lustful obsession
I want to steal your heart right from your chest
I'll take care of it and do my best
Because home is where the heart is so I'm told
So I will give you a home where we can grow old
Where you can be yourself and you'll never know a stranger
And all I have will be yours and you will never be in danger

We'll have windows to watch the rain
A fireplace to melt away pain
A bed of feathers to hold you tight
Through every beautiful starry night
But the best part of this home is something for you
Something to prove my words are true
Something that may seem quite new
I won't steal your heart without giving you mine too
906 · Nov 2013
The Hourglass
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Everything I have, I give to you
Like an hourglass must pour

Though someday our time will be through
You'll never be empty while I am yours
830 · Oct 2013
Too Tired For Allegory
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Look in the mirror what do you see?
Wretched, broken, sad and ugly?
Does it make your skin crawl?
To know you mean nothing at all?

They think you're really something don't they?
And one, the worst fool, to want to stay
He's never known the heart break
Left in your terrible wake
He's never been hurt
You tell yourself
Never been lower than dirt
Never lived with eyes in hell

Who am I this time?
To make him cry?
Let him go
He'll find his way
He couldn't know
The burning pain...

But he does
Broken by love
Pushed and shoved
Fell from above
Nothing new
For him too
But the fire that rages within
Not consuming like yours
Not wearing him thin
Not fighting wars

It is a red hot flame
Burns the words of your name
He's seen your heart so cold
He's seen into your dying soul
He has a heart of ember coals
All for you if you wish it so
Not because he has something to prove
Not for satisfaction in closing wounds
Because you deserve this
Ever bit of it

He doesn't care if you don't believe in bliss
He'll see what you believe after a kiss
Take your fears and doubts
And leave them somewhere else
Cause there's no room in here
Not for you and I my dear
801 · Sep 2013
My Shooting Star
Matthew Nichols Sep 2013
Painted through the ether
Like a spray of stars
****** if I'm not a believer
Someday I'll be where you are
In the dark peace of space
Floating so slowly
Shining beauty on the face
Of I, so lowly
Burning yourself to light the world
No one else knows what you are
But I'll pull you down to earth
My beautiful shooting star
Elegant skin
Like the silent moon
Slipping through my hands
For dawn is coming soon
You may be so far away
Peeking from the twilight
But for me gravity holds no sway
I will take my flight tonight
Dive into the black unknown
I don't need the light of day
All I need is you alone
And I will always find my way
792 · Dec 2013
The Curse
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
There are three curses of the soul
And each in turn take their toll
Upon me 
For all I feel and know
All I see

First is the curse of knowing too much
Secrets thought forgotten in the dust
Things I can never pull from my head
Things that keep me awake in my bed

Second is another of excess
Caring to much, dying in the process
Wishing only to bring you back to life
Wishing only to do what is right

Last and the most cruel of them all
The fire at the bottom of the fall
That which keeps me crawling through
The trench of darkness to find you

Hope, a poison of heart and mind
Hope to one day be kind
To give you back sight
To see your smile so bright
For this I would die
Maybe then I would see the light
749 · Jan 2014
Working In Mysterious Ways
Matthew Nichols Jan 2014
It seems I've found my calling
Maybe unsound and appalling
But it's got you down and crawling
Like that gown you're falling

I love catching little flies
Hatching from their little lies
Flying straight to the spiders web
Love and hate spinning the threads

I love the moves of the pieces
A game, it soothes and releases
I love clawing to the top
Gnawing till you drop

I love a little work for the mind
And you're not above a little work for my time
I love the little words that mean so much
Floating like little birds till you crave the touch

I love to dance to the piano slow
A lovely trance within your soul
Soften your stance with every note
Just a chance I'll take you home

I love a trembling whisper
But don't detest a shout
Above what's within her
She's dying to get out

I'll set fire to this town
Get me to higher ground
Bet a liar you're going down
Forget to aspire and you'll surely drown

This is where I belong
Hands in your hair, soft as a song
Eyes everywhere so don't stay long
But remember, All is fair when you play god
740 · Dec 2013
Taming a Tom
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
Oh baby I'm worth the danger
I'm a game of Russian roulette with a bullet in every chamber
No maybe I'll never change her
But that won't stop me

Oh who must that be
On the edge of the smoke I see
Beneath the guise of a top hat
A glint from the eye of a tom cat

And Oh Tick tick tick goes the watch
Wind it up it'll never stop
And neither will he

Oh I don't mean to brag
Well yes I do but you're such a drag
And maybe a little story telling
Will get at the goods you're selling

Oh maybe it's all I can do
To feel alive when I'm next to you
And Oh maybe I'm more than you'll ever see
Maybe I adore the complexity

Oh baby pull me under
Come on, tear me asunder
Show me with your subtle flaunts
I can't have everything I want

But oh
What is this?

But oh
Craving a kiss?

But oh, shaking hands search for a reason
Burning brands mark my heart for treason
If I want to ever get out alive
I have to sever these warm ties
Cause the pain only finds me
When love comes and binds me

And oh!!!

And oh!!!

Run run run he'll never stop
Like the tick tick tick of his pocket watch
And you can blame all your romances
On the shame of your midnight dances
But you'll never know from where it came
Like the tom cat you tried to tame
738 · Nov 2013
The Hunger Games
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
What do you do?
What do you do?
When only one can live
And it has to be you

All you can give
If only you knew
What it would take
What you would have to do

Who do you trust
What do they mean
Would you **** if you must?
Can your hands stay clean?
What of humanity?
This is insanity

The countdown begins
The beginning or the end?

Memories are faded
But there was blood and gore
Violence unaided
Who are you anymore?
Lives were traded
Battles evaded
Camps raided
Doors barricaded
Blood cascaded
Light was shaded

Became the animals we were
Machines of death
Never did it occur
As we stole a breath

You and I stand apart
Waiting for the violence to start
All it takes is a little time
A little push, a little crime
And teeth are barred
Claws where hands used to be
You didn't make it far
Not from me

I am the best
You all could see
Last of the rest
Last to breathe
But I never was the same
I still see so much red
I know it was just a game
Still I feel the dread
Killed countless names
But it is I that is truly dead
733 · Oct 2013
Maybe Someday
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
If only I knew how to say
That we are all drowning in terrible pain
But rather than run the other way
We must stay to fight another day
Of all the demons I have to slay
I never feared them though you may
Sometimes it may seem my heart is gray
But it is from many battles, I had to pay
For I am alive more than they
And I never was scared of the fray
For fear is how we truly fall prey
Our hearts become easy to betray
Our souls are lead too far astray
Our weaknesses held out for their display
Our minds too dull to hardly obey
Our eyes too closed for our thoughts to sway
And to our horrible dismay
We just continue to decay
Though we never feel it for all it weighs
We just close your heart and begin to pray
But the only way to hold the fear at bay
Is if we start living now, today
So mold your heart of the softest clay
Mold it into the most beautiful vase
And fill it with love that will always stay
And maybe someday you'll feel okay
718 · Nov 2013
The Death Of Me
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Looking high, looking low
Looking down deep below

So long I spent looking for you
Now I look for something new

Paradise my eyes had searched to find
Find I did, of the greatest kind

Now I look through Eden's wake
Knowing what I have at stake

But harder to find than you were to me
Is anything wrong with this lovely dream

Signs all around, they scream at me so
But where did the objects of their warning go?

So toxic you've come to think you are
But with every day it's more bizzare

Perhaps I've gotten lost in those seas of blue
Windows to the soul, it can't be true

This place looks nothing like you said
Only joy and hope, nothing to dread

But if this is your idea of my pain and misery
Then by all means, be the death of me
714 · Oct 2013
Beware of Dog
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Beware Of The Dog**
Even if he sleeps
He isn't gone
Still anger seeps
Into his bones
It keeps him alive
All he knows
Rage and lies

He is the primal part of me
The part I hope to never be
He is the end of the war
The beginning of the blight
Black to the core
Absent of light
Always wanting more
Stalking the night
All he lives for
Is a ****** fight

His teeth sharpened
His claws honed
His muscles hardened
Iron for bones
His cage of ebony
Bars built by me
Walled in ivory
So he can never see

I feel the instinct
Baring jowls like a wolf
A killing machine
Rage waiting to engulf
It is the one thing I know I can do
Without a doubt, tried and true

For his blood is mine
So he always knows
When it's time
To come to blows
But I breathe it out
The burning stout

Because though a beast feels no pain
I know this means he has no gain
So I keep his cage locked
Cushioned, it must not be rocked

I know there is beauty in brutality
Grace in a perfect ****
No weight of reality
When blood begins to spill
But I know there is something better for me
A miracle that I see 
No one needs to bleed
For my soul to finally be free
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
You've always got one more thing
Sometimes your eyes, like sirens they sing
Your laugh, it sinks so deep
Echoes in my sleep

Your smile it haunts me so
I need it again, I know
Like a drug you pull me up
Take me away with any luck

Just say the word and we'll be free
Time is all there is for you and me
Nod your head give me a sign
And I'll give you everything tonight

I'm not scared I'm not afraid
To pick up the pieces today
You have everything in me
To take you to the beginning
And learn to live from love

To keep friends close, enemies afar
To learn you're beautiful because of your scars
Just say yes and I will show you the way
Just please say that I can stay
I will never let you fall, you must believe
Because believing is all there is for you and me
674 · Sep 2013
True Grace
Matthew Nichols Sep 2013
Have you ever seen a swan cry?
No? Always so graceful?
A rose turn unpleasant to the eye?
No? Always so beautiful?
Has there ever been an ugly rain?
Just drops of water so dreary and plain?
Maybe you'll see a frightful sunrise someday?
Or perhaps you only chose to see it that way
Beauty is all around us
For those with open eyes
And with eyes so beautiful
Surely it's no surprise 
You cant have missed the best of them all
The very thing for which beauty was named
Surely your face can't always fall
Too blind to accept the blame
The rose is a rose
Day in and day out
The swan never knows
Of any thing called doubt
The rain falls whenever it please
Ignorant to the likes of you and me
But one beauty is a work of love
A fluid mosaic of life and song
Not born perfect like the wing of a dove
But shaped by years so very long
Highs and lows of every day
Like valleys and hills in your soul
Everyone come and gone away
Love and loss taking their toll
See, unlike the swan, rose, or rain
You could choose to be grace or pain
You became something amazing
Not a product of nature
You can choose to take today
And love despite the danger
You chose to weave voice to melody
Not like a bird oblivious
You chose to make someone smile
To be the best of us
So when the world seems so dark and grim
If into despair you're gazing
Remember the beauty of life is within
For you my darling are always amazing
Matthew Nichols Aug 2014
Aren't we proud of ourselves
Now that we won't go to hell
And our products will sell
Because our nation excels

Just ignore the smell

Cause it's ****
Blood, tears, and violence
Admit
That you can hear the silence

Bodies fall from flaming towers
As pigs strip the bones hungry for power
Grind them up into pretty white powder
Shove it up the nose of the poor black 
doubter

Put on a show and call it an election
Sprinkle blow on their wrinkled white *******
Keep our ignorance and bestow the reigns
Upon those who hear dollar signs at our pain

Swallowed all their lies now we're allergic to truth
Rather dump all our problems on the uneducated youth
Rather stack the bodies than speak, it's cold
But with our help they can pave the streets in crimson gold

When everything you love is gone
And you're trapped in the desert chasing a mirage

I want you to look at everyone you hate and all your friends 
And tell me as you die what makes you better than them? 

The man who has your back through hell and more
Is he republican or democrat? Rich or poor?

The woman who looks to you with loving eyes
Would you put a bullet in her head if the price was right?

Before we sell our souls for oil and sin
We might look at ourselves and think again

Because if you open your eyes to peer underneath
All it takes is a mirror to set you free
A pretty poem for a pretty world.
616 · Nov 2014
A Poem About A Girl
Matthew Nichols Nov 2014
Beauty crawls into the rage
Gnawing it's way to center stage
Closing my eyes to see your face
I know why it is I've come to this place

My lips are drawn behind my teeth
As I walk with shadows far beneath
The only light I see at the end
Is that from your room where you lie in bed

My curse is as well my greatest gift
For there is only silence from the window I lift
Belly to the ground like the beast I am
I approach my prey, an innocent lamb

Moonlight flows across skin so soft
Taking my breath but I just can't stop
Your eyes so deep, blue and wide
Full of fear because I'm finally inside

You've never seen me like this
And I've never had even a kiss
I suppose we're both breaking new ground
Just trust me and please don't make a sound

Oh, when you start to cry
Quivering lips releasing a sigh
Clenching my fist in your hair
Why can't you ever play fair

Your fear makes you so delectable
A pounding heart so strongly detectable
Your lips are hot and streaked with tears
The pink in your cheeks draws me near

Your slender neck so pale, so exposed
Leaving all my logic fully desposed
My hands wander down your collarbone
Full of wonder as I'm sure you know

The first prize is better than I hoped
Warm and soft, they gently *****
Encased in pleasure from ears to nose
Pressing softly I feel at home

Your skin is sweet or so I imagine 
Across my tongue soft as satin
Firm but giving I can't help but squeeze
Maybe a nibble if I please

But there is more work left to do
So many places exciting and new
The bones of your hips hard as stone
Guiding my love to it's tender home

Your breathing has slowed as I work my way
I plant a kiss only to hear you say
Something of please, something of don't
But your body argues as you're far from cold

All the coddled advances
Ambiguous stances
Wasted chances
Intentional glances
Dead romances
Only enhances

Overwhelmed couldn't describe my senses
Having finally broken through your defenses
An end to unnecessary suspense
I will be sure to spare no expense

Like a fire amidst winter snow
I taste of your inner glow
All the want begins to flow
Seems like you're enjoying the show

Now it is time to see eye to eye
Leave your soul bare for I know your lies
I can see the need in your eyes
And you can see the rage in mine

Of all the things I ever deserved
I never spoke a single word
But now we know it's finally time
As we join together deep inside

Soon the sun begins to rise
Though I am left in eternal night
I wish I could stay by your side
But I know better of this life

Bruises will fade and minds will clear
And the noises you made will leave my ear
The sheets will dry and you will sigh
For I am gone with no goodbye

Because my world is what I've done and what I receive
But for you, who couldn't so much as believe
The world will be lonely and empty, as you are
Because it is our choices that leave the worst scars
603 · Oct 2013
The Story
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
This is a story I wrote
Of a man so alone
All he needed is hope
So he can find his way home
He's got his heart, he's got his words
He plays it smart, he won't get hurt
All he wanted is to be heard
But he's afraid of getting burned
All he's known is so much hate
So much pressure to be fake
Turned his world into grey
Can you take it all away?
Never had a real model
Someone who knows him like a father
Why would anybody bother
He'll never be like the others
Never let anyone see
What he really wanted to be
He hides behind his smiles
Suffocating all the while
If you looked what would you see
A soul fighting to break free
Or just a sad comedy
Only I know because he's me
I wrote this story
I made this for me
I set the demons free
Locked my heart inbetween
Set fire to the fuse
Said I had nothing left to lose
But nothing is was I was afraid of losing
A slave to my fear of choosing
Now my shackles are weightless
My demons are shapeless
If I'm going to face this
I'm going to have to replace this
I'm not writing in blood
Not writing in stone
It's never enough
And I'm not writing alone
This is a chapter of war
A story of more
A legacy at the core
Won't stop till I'm sure
Lets burn these pages and breathe the ashes
Echo through the ages when this sky crashes
My words shake the ground where I shout
Watch your ears when I come screaming it out
I'm not backing down never letting go
Never going back till I put on a show
So sit back and watch me light the night
You're coming for the ride so hold on tight
Cause this story is for you and I
I'm writing the words to make it right
I hope you've got your pen cause you're not staying here
It time to run for our lives till there's nothing to fear
I'm swinging these bars wide open
And I know I've got you hoping
So just let everything go
And soon you'll know
You'll never hurt again I promise you so
Spill your heart and let your ink flow
601 · Nov 2013
Revolution Of A Heart
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Sweat soaks our collars
Sons speak with fathers
Mothers wring
Their hands of spring

The temperature is rising
Distant news of fighting
Speak of revolution
Peak of evolution

Matches set to fire
Flames on the bridge grow higher
No retreat
None we need

Voices in the night
Torches quell their fright
So it begins
Road to the end

They watch from their windows
Down the ramparts we assemble
Voices boom
Speak of their doom

Soon we dawn our armor
Soldiers made from farmers
Say goodbye
To this life

Guillotines are raised
But hearts are still ablaze
Filled with hope
We march the *****

Archers man their stations
Swords shake with frustration
Soon we move
To save you

Blades against the evil
Arrows fly with eagles
Walls torn apart
All for your heart

The faces of their generals
Grim against the rebels
Away they fly
Oh they try

Drawbridges have fallen
Wounded they are calling
For a truce
To stop the coup

Don't enter the basement
They will offer any payment
But I know
You're down below

A room made of chains
Heavy with your pain
I cut through
My sword true

A ballad for the ages
Played on all the stages
They remember
That cold December

When a boy became a man
With faith he took a stand
A love for you
Was all he knew
598 · Dec 2013
Soon
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
It makes me physically sick

To wait another day

No matter what the risk

I must soon find a way
596 · Oct 2013
Paradise
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Take me back in time
When we were young and we believed
Be the rhythm to a rhyme
I wound through the air for you to see
There was a day was there not
When we loved and never fought
Our hearts for control
Never tried to stop the flow
When did we let it go?
When did we stop trying to grow?

Remember a time, it's all I ask
Just please take it all back
Meet me where the world was easy
I'll be there waiting just believe me
I'll show you fireflies in the woods
We'll dance in the snow and never feel the cold
We'll walk the rain without our hoods
We'll love with hearts that will never grow old
You can tread the lonely stars with no fear 
No such thing as a fall if I catch you my dear

Live with a back unburdened by this world
Laugh with the laugh of that little girl
That I know still breathes
Still warms my heart when you are near
Eyes full of light beneath
The sadness and the fear
Dry that beautiful face and look for more
Inside this chest beats a key to the door
Unclench your fists and reach through the silence
Show the world the meaning of defiance
Don't leave me here without you
This place was meant for two
I understand so much, I do
But paradise is nothing without you
583 · Oct 2013
Smoke Rings
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Here I sit as I've sat before
Blowing smoke rings, nothing more
Never a stir or knock at the door
Just I alone as always before

When I take a moment to watch a ring
Float away on invisible wings
Lead to the sky on the thinnest string
I tried to grasp it but felt the sting
As it disappeared between my fingers
Nothing of the beauty stays to linger

And it's that moment when I think of you
Beautiful and free floating on air
And I know if I try to capture you too
I will leave with hands lonely and bare
Beauty is not a flower to keep
Stored on a shelf in perpetual sleep

It is fluid and ethereal
Not made of any material
For life wouldn't be fair
If I could keep you all for me
I have to let you taste the air
Because beauty is only beautiful when it's free
568 · Sep 2013
Did You Know?
Matthew Nichols Sep 2013
Did you know?
I'm sure you didn't
That somewhere below
Somewhere forbidden
There is a shadow of doubt
A valley of death
A thorn that won't come out
Stealing your breath
A wall of scales over your heart
Hardened to stone
A sadness pulling you apart
Knowing you're alone
That no one can help you
No one can save you
No one can break through
And who would want to?
There's nothing here but ashes
Broken dreams and shattered glasses
Your feet are cut and your hands still
A hole of misery you can't seem to fill
No blood left to spill
Nothing left to ****
Nothing worth knowing
Nothing worth showing
An empty husk, a barren world
A beautiful rose come unfurled
This is the end
This is your life
Can't defend
Can't make it right
Dead is what you are
Dead is how you'll stay
Happiness is so very far
And so easily taken away
....But did you know?
I'm sure you didn't
That nothing is broken
And everything is forgiven
I came to this desert to plant a seed
To turn the soil and let you see
To light the dark and set you free
To give you something to believe
Someday you'll see it wasn't all me
These shadows and motes are protection
To hide something beyond detection
The smallest flame of the thinnest candle
So fragile, the lightest breeze it couldn't handle
But you're wrong, it will never go out
It will burn through this cage
Set fire to your doubt
It will smolder every page
Of your sins you couldn't live without
It will take your darkness
And close the wounds shut
Soften your heart from the hardness
Bring fire back into your blood
It will burn you forever
Never let you go
Never let the pain
Torture you so
You are perfect, it's only fact
You must love with your heart and never take it back
Before anyone can truly love you too
You must simply learn to love you
If there is anyone that deserves your flame
It is the one who brought it to life
It is you who deserves the blame
It is you who lights the night
To put it short and sweet
If there was a way I could,
There is always one who believes
Who needs your kindness if you would
It was you, always you
That loves you, so love them too
Someone so perfect you need nothing else
If only I could show you how to love yourself
560 · Nov 2013
Words Unheard
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Sometimes I want to tell the truth
Blurt it out to see what you would do
But that scares me, very much so
What would you do if you were to know

Maybe that's why I use these poems
So I can speak to you, subtly so
Maybe I'm content to ride this hope
Never have to hear you say no

I care for you I truly do
If you knew you might care too
I think you are perfect, flawless, I do
But I know it's not entirely true

I know you have some problems inside
You try to run and hide
I know you're hurt, pain on your face
I know it won't disappear with my embrace
I know I must be patient
To hope to make a dent

But I also know one day
It will all fade away
So I will wait
To say what I need to say
542 · Feb 2014
Burn After Reading
Matthew Nichols Feb 2014
I still think about you often,
sometimes the idea of you

I never had a chance to love your words or your touch
But I love the idea of you

Part of me knows this life means nothing to time
Part of me wants to live every moment
But I can't decide

It's not because of you I promise
Just the demons and angels inside me

Sometimes I look over the edge of the barn
35 feet
To freedom

So I drink, every day
And I smoke until my brain is a fog

And sometimes the pain
Goes away

Sometimes the fear
Is kept at bay

Sometimes I sleep
14 hours
But I never dream
Someday I hope I know why

And I found a new game
To keep my mind distracted from my mind

I think you would like her
I do

But not as much
As you
522 · Oct 2013
A Dream Of Reality
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Last night as I slept you visited me
Don't know what I thought it would be
A pleasant hopeful dream
All the things I wanted to see
But no, it wasn't those things
Not happiness it brings
But a reality that stings
Like seeing a puppet on the saddest strings

In this dream we shared a kiss
I looked into your eyes in ignorant bliss
But there was something in there I wish I missed
Still haunting me as I'm writing this
You pushed me away as I saw your heart
I ached as the moment fell apart
I tried to assure you, play it smart
But you had already decided to leave and depart

Your body lingered, stayed there with me
But your soul was miles away I could already see
I realized as I left the embrace
All this time I had given chase
You thought you didn't want what I had to give
Because you're too miserable to really live
You cling to pain to keep you alive
And I could think you're very right

But the truth is much simpler than that
You want to be caught in this trap
Because it's much easier to give up and die
Lay down and don't even try
You're caught up in being hung up
I said in my dream
But I don't think you listened to me

Because my mind doesn't know what you would say
If I told you I would never walk away
If I told you to give up this petty obsession
Stop inviting demons for your possession
One day you'll choose
Me or this bruise
And one day you'll be happy either way
You'll have everything with me or your favorite pain
497 · Nov 2013
Starry Night
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Look deep into the sky
Stars spin and collide
The tails of comets play
Swirling light in their wake

Leaving a sea of glitter
Like snow in dark winter
Do you like it?
I know you do
Quite splendid
And all for you

This world has no sun
Just you, the only one
This celestial dance
Of love and chance

Is all for you
It's very true
So next time you feel alone
Lost and broken, pain unknown

Look into the gem filled sky
And know you look into my eyes
And if ever you feel
Like there's something this world cannot steal

Then take flight on wings
And bring it to me
And we will flow
Across the starry snow

But never forget 
I never regret
That once I looked to the sky
And saw only your eyes

And took my flight
Just like you
Escaped my plight
For something true
486 · Oct 2013
Untitled
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
The wolf on the hill watching the sheep
The vision of ghosts that haunt your sleep
The black rose, the sapphire sun
Nobody knows where I am from

Or what I am it's hard to tell
Beyond hearing sight or smell
A remnant of a forgotten place
The secret lines never traced
The broken glass never replaced
The shifting smoke without a face
The monster come and given chase
So hard to see the cultured grace

No one understands they never will
Running away from the foreign chill
Always perfecting my certain skill
Of never jumping in to get a thrill
Never going straight for the ****
Instead I watch from the window sill
And so I sit atop my hill
Just waiting for the blood to spill
484 · Jan 2014
A Text
Matthew Nichols Jan 2014
It's funny how you are the way you come to me
You don't arrive by car or sea
Not by air or rail
No letters in the mail
Just a text on my phones screen
A beautiful sound, a sight to see
A light that triples my hearts beat
That's what you are to me
478 · Dec 2013
A Dangerous Game
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
She loves with her body
Slowly moves into her mind
But makes it a hobby
To keep her heart hard to find

She doesn't yet know that I am no plunderer
My treasures of trove do not lie under her

No I am the most dangerous game
She doesn't know the rules or even the name
She doesn't know she is already playing
She doesn't know she will never be the same

You see, bodies fade with time
Could be gone tomorrow briefly mine
But a heart is forever
A soul, a serious endeavor

I will not settle for any price
These sheets are not my greatest vice
I will not play this game of yours
I will settle for nothing less nothing more

My heart is set my brow is hard
This puzzle will be mine to take apart
I will never have enough
As long as my eyes are locked above
I will not take shore until I see the dove
I will not give in until I have your love
444 · Dec 2013
At first sight
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
At first sight I knew
Like a man glimpses  the silhouette of a woman he could love
As she turns and fades into a crowd
And so he runs
Beats the earth with cold feet
Pieces of his world falling around him
Shattering into shards of memory
So my world crumbled
So I built a new one on a bed of the ashes
And there I planted seeds of beauty, happiness,
love
And so I have opened the gates to paradise for us
420 · Feb 2014
Normal
Matthew Nichols Feb 2014
4 years old, I found her
Silence surrounded her
She wasn't moving, still as stone
After all the soothing, I went home

I asked my father if it was normal
That her death meant nothing to me
I had to bother, he was too formal
But finally he set it free
No
The only words he said that day
Echo in my head on endless replay

Romance and smiles we shared
But all the while I was prepared
The hollow monster of endless regret
Had followed me as it will till death

I felt nothing for her as I knew I would
I did everything for her as best I could
Only a show, a beautiful dance
Nothing true ever came from that romance
After all was done and we parted ways
I asked if it was normal, only to hear her say
No
The only words she said that day
Like I didn't deserve what she had to say

A fun game, not to be played often
A game that never softened
To be or not to be, was the goal
And tonight I finally have the answer
As this torture took its toll
And sadness spread like cancer
I watched the world from 35 feet up
And wanted so bad to jump

I made my choice and was finally free
It's a beautiful world for the last to see
An angel found me as I slipped away
I took a moment just to say
Is it normal, to feel only sadness and hate
She only stood silent, then, hand in hand, we walked away
411 · Oct 2013
Worth A Thousand Words
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
If I could speak to your photos
I'd know you better now
I wouldn't be feeling so low
Wouldn't be standing beneath this cloud
If your pictures could hold me
Maybe I could fall asleep
Writing our life story
Only in my dreams

I just need you here
To hold all my fears
And tuck my last sins way
I can't stand to wait another day
I know I'll find some other way
To know what I need to say
I know someday you'll see
You were always meant for me

If your pictures kept me warm
Like the smile that still remains
I could stand another storm
Let it wash away the pain
If you smiled as much as the albums did
I could light up the dark
If you saw the world with one light kiss
I know you'd feel the spark

I just need to feel you
So life won't try to steal you
I just need to give you back
Everything lost in the attack
I need to see you happy again
So we can finally make this end

If you were your photos
Always in my head
Then god only knows
What you would think of me then
Don't know if you ever had
Someone like me
That loves to make you happy
Lost inside your sea

As long as I have your photos
We will never be apart
If you'll ever speak I don't know
But I'm here when you're ready for my heart
407 · Oct 2013
Dreamless
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Hello again
My shadow friend
I don't know where home went
Don't know how daylight was spent
But it seems that night
Draws close to my eyes
I'll hold you tight
So you won't leave my sight
My angel of dreams
Has left it seems
Hung from the rafter beams
Swore she would never leave

But she was scared
Can't hide her eyes
I needed her there
To breathe my sighs
But there was no compromise
For her demise
How can she visit me
When my eyes can't see
No matter how much I sleep
I couldn't be free
There wasn't a reprieve
Not for her I believe
My dreams faded with hope
Dragging her below
But if there's anything she knows
It's that I won't always be alone

Someday the shadow and me
We'll have some company
So bright will you be
I'll be helpless when I see
You'll know I believe
And you'll rescue me
We'll find my angel of dreams
And I'll embrace her again
My heart stitched at the seams
She'll come back to me then
The dark may take me now
And leave me here unknown
But you'll find me somehow
And never again will I be so alone
396 · Dec 2013
Gospel
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
If you knew how profound
How it almost shakes the ground
How I feel when you're around
You would only make one sound
*Yes
394 · Oct 2013
Just A Thought
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Fire on water, watching the sun rise
For a moment I thought I saw your eyes
Whisper of wind ruffles my hair
I almost swore you were there
Laughing on a couch with friends
Maybe I glimpsed you on the end
At night as I slept with the dead
Felt your weight on the lonely bed
At dawn a chilly biting breeze
Reminds me you're not here with me
But I still hold on to believe
Someday you'll open up and see
There's a world of not I but we
Just open the door and set us free
394 · Oct 2013
Scribbles
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Don't you say a word
Don't make a sound
These feelings can't be heard
Over our hearts so loud
Don't tell me of blurring lines
Of tragedy and company intertwined
Don't tell me you're afraid this time
When there's nothing to fear if you're mine

There's no apologies to be made for you and I
Nothing to cause your heavy sighs
There is only truth in your lies
You're afraid to feel alive
Like Alice in a wonderland 
Let me take your hand
And tell you how far the rabbit hole goes
Because this reality is all for show
There's a place waiting for you and I
Beneath the stars but in the sky
When or how I cannot tell
You will see you created your hell
Don't pay attention to these frail words
They're nothing compared to what has occurred
Inside our hearts we'll never be the same
If only you could let it change
390 · Oct 2013
Innocence
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Innocence wasn't a place or a time or a moment. It was a feeling, a chance but you have to own it.

There was a time when you believed that anything could happen and only tomorrow could be better than today. Then life dealt you some hands that made you doubt your way. 

And start to think the world is much darker than you knew 
But it simply isn't true.

Somewhere within you there lies beautiful eyes for seeing beautiful things. And I'm going to find them, and give them wings.
381 · Dec 2013
Once again
Matthew Nichols Dec 2013
Once again I find myself
Outside the dream peering in
But at least I found myself
Once again
Matthew Nichols Nov 2013
Seems as though the world was gray
With only your eyes to light the way
Only a hope that they would stay
Do anything if I could find a way

Nothing I think could feel more right
Than what I see in your face so bright
Swallowed by the sadness and beauty of life
Two of a kind we are tonight
We could never again have to fight
Like walking into the tunnel of light
Heaven would envy the beautiful sight
Took our past and loved in spite

No matter who you are or where you've been
The only way is to try again
Head first and eyes closed
Is the only way to fall in love I suppose
368 · May 2014
The Shores of Nevermore
Matthew Nichols May 2014
Oh how I wish I could be
Like those birds I often see
But I lack their weightless wings
I am too heavy to be free

I am filled with longing, nothing more
Like the anchor that sinks ,ship to floor
I no longer remember the shore
Only the sea of nevermore

As I drift on endless waves
Currents pulling me like a slave
I wonder what it's like to be brave
And what it's like to dig a grave

I start to sink, as heavy as can be
The sea has begun to swallow me
Then my weight is taken, it slowly bleeds
And now like the birds I am free

My wings catch air and I can see
All the world I could never believe
Opening to my final reprieve
As the shore of nevermore sores towards me
367 · Oct 2013
From Autumn To Winter
Matthew Nichols Oct 2013
Autumn comes with an amber skin
Violet eyes and a body thin
He whispers quiet so listen carefully
The rustle of leaves heard barely
He sweeps the earth to and fro
Only to craft a bed for winter though

For she is fragile and falls so fast
She needs a home when she lands at last
So Autumn works with his creaking bones
His pain only heard in the windy moans
He labors for her as best he can
Quieting the earth and cooling the breeze
He knows he must have a plan
Or when she falls she will die with ease

He finishes at last with the labor of love
As a chill descends from the sky above
He knows she draws so very near
But he is too tired to see her he fears
But she will know what he has done for her
How he has given everything to shape the earth
She will see as he falls asleep
Happy as can be for he believes

Soon she arrives silent until
Flakes begin to fall from her decent
Shed from her heart so very still
She speaks to the night on the wind
Crying because she is so alone
All the leaves are dead and the animals gone

Why has no one come to see her
After that fall she could be hurt
But no one cares for her
She breathes a sigh
Never does it occur
That this is a lie

She wonders why the world gets dark so fast
Why she is always awake with the last
If only someone could love her so
Hold her through nights so cold
Protect her from the ground below
But no one cares, this she knows
Winter passes and soon she must leave
Gone with the summer, no one will grieve

Autumn returns long after
As always but with quiet laughter
He thinks one chilly day
Not so far away
Autumn will stay
Oh what will she say

When she knows how much he truly cares
And how much he would do for his love
Surely she must be entirely aware
He can almost see her falling above
But so very heavy grow his eyes
He can't keep them open any more
Maybe a nap before she arrives
Dreaming of the winter he did it all for
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