Without you
I no longer fight.
Without you
I no longer stand straight.
Without you
I no longer do what's right.
I find I fade while you're away,
Becoming less of myself,
More like I was.

Without you
I wander about.
Without you
I drift free.
Without you
I have doubts.
I sit in my unpreferred solitude
Reliving cherished memories
Through a veil of pain.

Without you
there is no light.
Without you
there is no silver sound.
Without you
there is no day
or night.
The orchids will not bloom,
The owls do not hoot
And the stars skimp
On their twinkling light.

2010

Caught up in the rhythm of my heart
The warmth and smoothness of your skin
Ten fingers entwined in the darkness
Now it doesn't matter where you've been

You hold me tighter than I've dreamed
And I couldn't let go if I tried
I can't let you slip away again
But I don't know wrong from right

My pulse quickens with passing minutes
And I hold onto all I've ever wanted
Subconsciously I know I've been betrayed
By a heart that has left me haunted

Then without warning our lips connect
My head spins but tears begin to fall
You hold me close so I can't move
But I need to get away from it all

Regret rolls through me in waves
But desire keeps me clinging to you
I find comfort at the nape of your neck
Where reality is hidden from view

Before I know it I'm in too deep
Unable to resist kissing your skin
I rationalize the path my lips trace
At the same time my heart does me in

Too soon I realize I must get home
Driving through tears and pouring rain
I crave your touch and you in my arms
But nothing can mask this kind of pain

Hours pass and I'm unable to sleep
The next day drags by in a dizzy haze
I need you more than ever before
Was this why I counted down the days?