Imagine -
this blackness as if it is something
tangible
that you can hide in your
hand
an apple core you can throw
away
when the flesh has been eaten
away
I fall into a medicated sleep
each night
close my eyes to the world
yet still
it moves around me,
pulses
like the streets of a big city
drowned in neon light
I want to touch this hook that has
gutted me
until only my body remains
the outer shell
of something living, the movement
of a clenched fist
plunged into a ribcage that
shatters and pierces the heart
they call it a dog and I know it
is animal
in nature, ruthless,
with an insatiable hunger
I am the root of the dying
flower
resistant but buried under-
ground
I can only see the sun in the
moon
the sea in a handful of salt
rubbed deep into the
wound