Mary Stanworth

Mary Stanworth Jan 2013

Just a girl
Elbows on the window sill
Head in her hands
Watching the rain splash on the window
Distorting the view
Making shapes and colours
As the rain drops fall.
A shiver
She wraps her arms around her
Wishing its was someone else’s strong arms
Takes a jumper
Caus she knows it’s the only fluffy warm feeling
She will feel in a while.
Just a girl
Looking through the window
Wondering who is out there
Is there someone out there for me
Pulling the jumper tighter
Head back in her hands
Watching the rain
Distorting the view ……….

Mary Stanworth Dec 2012

2012......

2012.........
Would like to say I’ve survived the year
But I’ve done more than that.
I’ve had sad times
Bad times
Tears but lots of laughter.
I’ve be hurt
Been burnt
But laughed alot.
People have left my life
Entered my life
Brought me down
And lifted my spirit.
I’ve learnt about myself
Maybe by making mistakes
Taking some wrong turns
Loosing myself.
But I thank the people
That  have been part of my journey
Brought me to where I am
Found at last
I’m ready to challenge myself more
I’m going to be stronger than  before
Determined that  2013 is going to be my time
Just to be ME .........

Mary Stanworth Dec 2012

SCARS

Don’t you just wish emotional scars would vanish
Vanish as quickly as a bruise or physical scar
Turn to the colours of a rainbow
And back then to skin colour
No sign of damage.
The emotional scars never seem to fade
Words of anger
Words that were said
Words that were witheld
Words you wish you has said
Turn over and over in your head
Replay set … over and over again
No rainbow colours just black and white scenes
Vivid in the minds eye
Wishing they would distort like a faulty TV
Reaching for the remote wanting the off button.
We made it through a voice tells us
Yeh we made it through but with invisible scars
That very few see or want to see
We are enclosed in this tv
We are replaying the programme
Don’t we just wish these emotional scars would vanish

Mary Stanworth Dec 2012

Hurt

Hurt…..
By silence
Unanswered questions
Harsh words
A look
A false smile
Glazed eyes
Sad eyes
A wanted touch
A unwanted touch
No emotion in a cwtch
A hard hand
All these and more
Are served with or without intent
Consequences vary
Both parties feel the pain
The confusion
The misunderstanding
So why hurt……
It just the human condition
To feel and be hurt.

Mary Stanworth Nov 2012

The Mirror

Written this before.....
But you’re still not listening
You’re not hearing what I say
Are you looking at me ?
Caus if you are turn around
Look in the mirror and see what I see.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
So open your eyes and behold.
A strong soul
A beautiful smile
A twinkle in the eye
A glow in the cheeks.
Look behind the anger
The tears you have wiped away
The fears you still hold
Breathe.......
I need you to look in the mirror and see what we all see
A beautiful YOU !

Mary Stanworth Nov 2012

torn

I stand
I see
I look around at what could be
So many possibilities, options
I just want to flee.

I stand
I see
Torn between the possibilities
Knowing someone will always get hurt
I just want to flee.

I stand
I see
The tears and the happiness
Of what I’ve done and yet to do
I just want to flee.

I stand
I see
Torn
I stand
I see
I know I can never flee.

Mary Stanworth Nov 2012

THINK !!!

Don’t stop, pause and reset
Think.........
Don’t rewind or fast forward
Think.........
What’s behind has past
Think.......
What’s coming is unknown
Think........
Of today the now
Think.......
The smiles, tears and hope
Think........
What you did was good enough
Think.......
That you are good enough
Don’t stop, pause or reset !!!!