It hurts so much
That you tried your best
What you thought was solved
Is just a dam mess.
You hold your face in your hands
Thinking all is lost
It’s a maze a puzzle
It’s just a dam mess.
You look around at the people you love
Hard choices are all you can see
And you shout out loud “Why is nothing ever easy”
****** God dam mess
You look in the mirror and see yourself
You look inside for that hidden strength
And you know the answer, it’s not want you want
You know you can sort through this ****** mess !!!

Missing the person who gave me my strength
My thirst for life
My humour
My laugh
Missing the person who showed me unconditional love
To think outside the box
To laugh at myself
To smile in bad times
Missing the person who told me never give up
Walk tall
Chin up
Rubber **** to be attached
Missing the person who gained respect from all that knew her
Font of all knowledge
Who could set anyone on the right path
Who’s  cwtches made all feel awesome
Missing the person who knew me better than I do
Who knew I’d put water in her whisky
Knew I was fibbing even on the telephone
Was there no matter what
Missing the person I called Mam  xxxxx

Feeling a little lost
Don’t know what direction to take
Should be striding forward
Without a care in the world
But the mayhem of life
Is sticking to my shoes
And only tiny steps I can take.

Feeling a little lost
Don’t know where this road taking me
So many forks in this road of mine
Decisions to many, should go with the flow
But life is what you make it
Kicking the mud off my shoes
Strides are what I will take
Feeling lost but a little hopeful....

A moment in time when you stop and think
You try and tell yourself that all is fine
One foot in front of the other
Getting to where you should be.

But the moment reminds you
How far away those goals all are
You’re struggling up hill
Carrying this heavy load.

You look around you to see who is there
Your there for those who need you, but no one’s in sight
Your struck by loneliness wondering which way to go
You know you just can’t give up this fight.

The journey we take, may not be fair
It will trip us, delay us and take us on detours
Take the moment in time when you stop and think
To realise that your nearly there.

Words of anger
Words of frustration
Words of sadness
These words can never be taken back
These words seldom forgotten
Never forgiven

These words change us
Hold us back
Play over and over
Head hurting tears falling
Sadness encircling

Words of anger
Words of frustration
Words of sadness
These words can and should be let go
These words should be forgotten
And forgiven

These words change us
Move us forward
Not to be played over and over
Clear head bright eyes
Happiness enfolding

These words can change a person
One way or another
Tis our choice which way they are used
To hinder us, or move us forward
Its not for us to live with these words
It lives with the person who says it !!