Why do people leave and take so much
Just wondering how many pieces I’ve got left.
Can handle the objects leaving my life
Have the memories of those all in my head.
Just the tearing of the heart strings that hurt so much
Looking for something to fill this void
Hate the emptiness that’s been left in my life
Caus people have left and taken so much
Sat wondering how many pieces I have left !!!

Void of emotion, I wish I was
Filled with sadness and aching inside
Told you so is the answer I'm hearing
Should have listened to the man in my head.
You did the same old same
Opened up, let them in far too soon
Believed what they said
Should have listened to the man in my head.
Void of emotion , I wish I was
Wanting the happiness I cant have
Gut wrenching trying to brush myself off
Should have listened to the man in my head.
Void of emotion, I wish I was
Still caring for a person who doesnt need me
Couldnt force myself into their life
Wishing things could have been different
Should have listened to the man in my head.
Dam this man inside my head!!!!

I smiled today just caus I could
Strange feeling you know
This smiling malarky
It shook me a bit
A weight lifted

Smiled
For the sad times and the good
Realised that im ok
Weird isnt it
When you think you wont make it
And you do,in one piece

Smiled
To know that not everything has to make sense
That there wont every be answers to everything
That in life you have to have
The wonder ,the tease and the anticipation
I smiled today just because I knew I could :)

Today has been another day lost in thoughts
Going about and doing the same things
Auto pilot, automatically
Smiling, nodding and chatting
Yet my mind is not where it should be
Its lost in the turmoil im trying so hard to control.
For a few moments I realise where I am
What im supposed to be doing
And im brought back to reality
Wish I could stay with my reality
Its easier than the things I think
Day dreaming ...no
Nightmares of the day following me
Swirling and mingling with my daily routines
Making my stomach ache and my head pound
Frustration of not knowing what to do
Best choices to make, consequences of my actions
For a moment I catch my breath and look around
Another day has been lost in my thoughts .....

Why do things go pear shaped?
Feeling in the depth of the stomach
Dread and feeling sick.
Just as you think you turn a corner
Your tripped up before getting so near.
Why do we let our walls down?
Caus we think things are going so well
You think from past experiences
You’d see the signs, but oh no !
Not even when they are smacking us in the face
Do we notice that things just arent right.
Why do people say they love you?
Caus they do in thier own strange way
Its just not the love they think we really need
Laughing at yourself, crying by yourself
The frustration and waiting for something real.
Why do things go pear shaped?
Caus we dont really want to see!
Why do we let our walls down?
Caus were are suckers for love!
Why do people say they love us?
Caus they know thats what we want to hear !!

Why do people stay silent
When they have so much to say?
Why do people assume
That they know what you’re thinking?
When you haven’t the foggiest idea yourself!
But then I stop and catch myself
Caus I do the same……
Words hurt, truth hurts better left unsaid
Thoughts flying around the brain,
Which one do I catch first?
What the hell am I thinking?
But then I stop and catch myself
Caus I’m not going to do the same
I’m not going to stay silent
I’m going to speak my mind
I have so much to say
No more assumptions
From you or me
      Its about time we let our thoughts fly free……

Afraid to lose that smile
Afraid to show what it hides
Why be afraid to be the real you
Look in the mirror and see
The true reflection looking back at you
A person who can be loved
If you just be you.
Afraid to open that heart of yours
Afraid to give what it holds
A shame for you to go to waste
With all that locked inside of you
A person who could give so much love
If you just be you.
Don’t be afraid of opening up
Don’t be afraid to show the real you
We see little bits that slip through
When we are looking at the real you
The person who gives so much love
When you ..... are just being you.