isolation
is what she can do
isolation
is what she do
isolating
to prevent the hurt from coming
isolating
to prevent her from feeling
isolating
from shame she felt
isolating
from what she is trying to prevent
although it is the thing that drives her insane
isolation
is what she thinks is best
to prevent herself from hurting herself
to prevent from hurting others
isolation
is the best
from this world unrest

I have this dream you see
someone who'll watch over me
someone to protect me from harm
someone who will charm me with his charms
someone who will say not just meaningless words
but poetic love poems and worlds
describing how he genuinely feels
someone who'll show me as well
not just through these asked words
show me what love romance and passion is essentially about
not just kisses and such
someone who will love me all around
making me feel loved and show me my worth
someone who will save me from loneliness
who will save me from this long and arduous sleep

I am trapped in these four walls
ugly deep and scared
screaming and weeping
whispering wondering
"will I ever leave this place"

I am trapped in these four walls
forever hiding from the pain outside
hiding from the world so...
what? I cannot even describe

I am trapped in these four walls
hopping to see the light
wanting to feel the sunlight
to unite with beings alike

I am trapped in these four walls
hiding from the world
being so far from it

when will I ever wake up
from this vehement slumber

I live not just in my head you see
I've scattered my life around for people to see
In journals, pads, papers and pens
In internet and laptops I webbed and etched
I live not just in my head you see
I've etched my life in tiny pieces of my mystery
from notes in diaries and sketches on love
I've scattered my life from all around for the world to see
that I have a world outside my head for them to see

Running
It's what he does best
running from the loneliness he detest
running from the longings
of love family and friends
running from the loneliness
he hides best
He hides in illusions
and fantasy grandeur and the rest
at least I'm living he attest
I bet you can't catch me
for that's what I do best
so go on and try
and put me to rest
for I long to feel a real lover's embrace
I yearn to experience a true friend's grace
I would love a family who's always there
not wastes of memories floating in the air
Please catch me if you can
cause I am so far gone
please catch me if you can
cause I am tired as hell
tired of the mayhem I've caused in my head

Why do he write he asks
its a release of his soul
a way to give his whole
a cleansing of the mind
in a world that is sometimes unkind

it is silly maybe
as silly as the things he wrote
but it is the missive notion
to the life he supposed