nor·mal
an adjective
/ˈnôrməl/ 

conforming to a standard
usual
typical
or expected

a word she keeps on running after
all she ever want to be

a person free from physical or mental disorders
fat sad old she is
confused moody she can be
mind heart full of dysphoria
loneliness and longing some of it may be

A line at right angles to a given line or surface
she has no angles only in curves and circles
she looked
a form a surface she longly hate

I am not normal she screamed
a thought she already knew intimately

When will I ever be?
Should I be, should we be, and how
these questions are running
through her head as she cries

Beds are made for sleeping they say
Pardon me for I beg to differ,
For there I sometimes work and play
They are made not just so people can rest
They are also made so they can dream and pray

A stack of pillows to lie on your back
So you can watch TV and play with your ‘book
One would do it to get your groove and sanity back
Unwinding and getting enjoyment

My bedroom looks like a place of heaven for me
You can smell the sparkle of my air
The temperature is like at autumn and after summer air
Other than that it would probably taste like fresh sea water air

It is the best place in the house
Probably as comfortable as lying in the clouds

i swam before i can walk
i dreamed before i could talk
i dreamed of stories
i dreamed from stories
awake asleep
awake in sleep
i float i fly
i swam i cry
i lived i died
i loved i lied
i gained my strength from them
i am weakened as well
from childhood to tween
to teen to twenty
i never stop to dream
will this be my only life
among the clouds up sky
will i ever live a life
will i ever live the dream
or let dream die a dream
let the dream eat me away as i sleep