09/11/2015

I write this respectfully,

As I have followed your (story) if you will
I  had to wonder where is the disconnect in
Church separated from State
I must say it was easy to detect
Your reason for refusing
Could it be? For what you think in the future what you
will collect
I have a feeling you knew what you were going to affect
I think you clearly have not read the Constitution because it clearly directs
That is something you may not reject
or disrespect
As I watched you with your so called fan mail, thinking how much could really be hate mail , at your kitchen table
I hope the letters were filled with words that would help you become more stable, not so unstable
Then maybe you can  stop some of the hatred that you have helped to enable
I was set back when I heard you are on your forth remarriage
From a lack of commitment?? Of your vows
They are not like throw away towels
Then when you were released from jail
Honey I think you forgot to wear your veil
Maybe then you would have been more hailed...(your thought)
Then when you and your political FRIENDS? ran upon the stage to eye of the tiger
The song is for a winner of a fight not for someone who caused a fight
out of sure spite
Then to hear you say all this was out of the highest respect to God
Ma'am in church and state there is no connect
Something I think you should have checked
With much respect

Sincerely,

We must give more then what we take
Learn to make
Her gift to us is letting us stay
Then we take all of her gifts away
It did not take us long to forget
Now she will collect on that debt
She does not make idle threats

Would really be nice if there was some
Abstaining !
Maybe some
Constraining !
If you only knew how
Draining!
I am really not
Attaining !
"Stop" with the
Explaining!
Sure the hell not
Entertaining!
Tired of it being so
Detaining!
Nothing
Gaining!
Not anything said that is
Containing!
Not worth all the
Campaigning!
So
Disclaiming!
All the
Proclaiming!
It's
Inflaming!
And all the
Blaming!
It continues
So shut the **** up
and stop THE
Complaining
         !!

Did you really send your son to convince us
Your son that turned water into wine for us
The one that walked on water to show us
The one that brought a man back from death to walk among us

Did you really send your son to convince us
The one that wore a crown of thorn's in front of us
Your son that carried his own cross so far for us
The one that was ****** by so many of us

Did you really send your son to convince us
The one that was nailed to the cross by us
Your son that died for us
The one that arose from the dead to prove to us

Did you really send your son to convince us
Your son that shared your word with all of  us
The one you sent to teach us
Your son that was betrayed by some of us

Did you really send your son to convince us
The one that still listens to us
The one that still believes in us
Your son that will still pray with us
The one that will still guide us

Did you really send your son to convince us
That you still love us

Did you really send your son to convince us
That you will send him back to us

His Answer:

YES!!

So you think love is perfect
Something that would make us connect
Something so simply we can detect
Nothing that we would have to redirect
Something that we could not reject or
anything that we could deflect
Something that would have an affect

Our love
Something so perfect
That made us connect
That we both could detect
Life's on hold and everything on redirect
Something that we could not reject
or deflect
It had such an affect

At the end
Our love was perfect
Two hearts that was connected
Love that was still detected  
Never redirected
Never deflected

And it still had an affect

Perfect

Do you think they woke one day
To decide to be that way
To feel the hate that they will feel everyday
To have their families feel betrayed
It's so much more
Then them liking the ballet
And them able to make a great looking bouquet
And them able to set a great buffet
And them having a roll in the hay
It's about two people sharing love
That was sent from above
And being committed
After all that was admitted
It's a shame they cannot feel acquitted
And they have to fight for it to be permitted
Why do they have to feel chastised
Just because there love does not comply
And no one will listen to their cries
And they have to watch their own demise
And they have to feel criminalized
Why do they have to be demoralized
Being gay
They want what everyone craves
They have to be brave
When they show their feelings
That for so long has been enslaved
Why would they not feel betrayed
So let me give you a clue
Being Gay
Is something you do not choose

You are born that way!.......................

When does it begin
From the first feelings within
At the touch of skin
When you commit
When you fully submit
When you know you are going to make it
When you both believe
When you cannot leave
When you cannot bare to be alone
You have always known
When you look into their eyes and it shows
It continues to grow
When there are no lies, no dark shadows
When you do not question what love is
He is hers, she is his
When you do not have to think it over
It does not matter how much older
Because it never gets slower
When you have a shoulder
You get closer and closer
There is never a controller
When you know it will never be over
When you need each other desperately
It is indefinitely
!!

It begins

Lovers

Soon I will be laying in my grave
I am in my last days
Hell no, I am not being brave
I never picked up the bible
To learn how to behave
I have always been the Devils slave
Never corrected my bad ways
I paved
The highway to hell
"Well"
****, those lymph cells
Never heard those Sunday church bells
As I lay here and I dwell
The sight of Heaven long ago faded
My mind jaded
My eyes shaded
Made me easily persuaded
My life I traded
Hell, It's to late, It's over
Thank God, I am a little older
Death is a cumin
Drugs no more
Drinking no more
***** no more
**** no more
No more being a *****

To late to swallow

My pride

I am about to die

There was a knock at the door
The doc. came through
This is what came out of his mouth
There is no more I can do
I am sorry for you

It was all I could do
I tried
Not to cry
I fail to my knees
I cried out
Why me
I am not ready to say goodbye
How long before I die
This has got to be a lie

I pulled myself up
Be strong
He is not wrong
It is not about how long
It is on God's terms
It is what he taught
What I have learned

If you see me
Do not feel for me
Let me know
I was a good man to know

Who knows
How fast or slow
I could go tomorrow
I am not feeling low
I know
I will see the golden road
I will see God face to face
I will finally be able to say
Hello
!!

in a meadow I appear
sad I was and without any cheer
fog filled the atmosphere
gray is the color of the skies veneer
barely making out in the distance a lone white deer
in a instant
I am standing
looking up at a chandelier
from yesteryear
it begins
it starts to spin
my mind fills
with all of my past sins
then
I am standing
at the gates to hell
I wake
I am in jail

This thing inside of me
Destroying me
Weakening me
Sickening me
I hate to say, it's getting the best of me
Fighting back at me
Whipping me
Winning over me
I hate to say, it's getting the best of me
Eating at me
Worrying me  
Taking years from me  
I hate to say, it's  getting the best of me
Changing me
On the outside of me
On the inside of me
I hate to say, it's getting the best of me
So many needles stuck in me
Taking so much blood from me
So many Doctor's seeing me
I hate to say, it's getting the best of me
The hospital a second home for me
Nurses nursing me
It's getting to be to much for me
It's killing me

But

I refuse to let it get the best of me

I have to ask

Why me ?????

This thing inside of me!

Sup??
Back up!!
Before I blow up!!
Yup!!
Breakup??
Nah!!
Lets make up !!
As long as you have grown up !!
Hold up!!
You want to start up!!
Lay up??
Give me a close up!!
Where will we wind up??
Let me clean up!!
Before we hook up!!
Once I start I want let up!!
I have been letting it pile up !!
It will be a big blow up!! :)
Let me get it lined up !!
It's tuned up !!
Hold UP!!
****!!
Slow up!!
It's up!!
Let me look up!!
It just blew up !!
Now??
Still want to break up??
After that !!
I figured you would
Hold Up!!
Yup!!
:) :) :) :) !!

You're in my mind
A picture of you
So well defined
I am no longer blind
I will find you

I will not stop searching
Winter, Summer or Fall
Many times the sun will rise and fall
In my searching

I will not stop
I cannot stop
I cannot give up
I will not drop

The picture in my mind
By design
You are kind
It gives me peace of mind

I already know you
I feel you
I need you
I  see you
I will find you
By the picture in my mind

I am coming
Knowing you are there
Somewhere

I will not stop
Looking for you