Barely made it to bed
in my drunken stupor
Close to being dead
**** don't know if I made it to the right homestead
Hell for all  I know it could have been someone's shed
With the bed spinning, "Lord a waterbed"??
The way I feel I think I have become the undead ..
In this drunken stupor
Passed out
Woke up
And the cutest little Redhead was laying next to me
Someone that I have wed ????
Maybe dreaming instead?
Might drink some more getting ready for what might be ahead..
No!! She turned over and looked at me and said "I thought you were Jed"
Oh ****!! I am dead !!!
I ain't Jed
I said
But you can stay right here next to me "In your bed"??
**** this girl was fine a purebred Redhead
No it could not be, a knock at the door
She looked over at me and said
"Honey" " I think it's Jed"
I jumped out of bed
grabbed my pants, shirt and boots
Naked as a J-Bird
Ran out the back door
Thinking
**** you Jed!!

I wanted that little Redhead
                !!

she sets the suitcase on the floor
after a weekend together
to explore
as I shut the door
she turned to me and said
I want a divorce
my mouth hit the floor
all I could say was, of course
thinking good lord
she unpacked
setting the suitcase back on the floor
and tells me to pack
says you can leave the key at the door
without any slack
I turn my back
take the suitcase and pack
and head for the door
knowing deep inside the relationship
could not be restored
I get to a hotel
I open the door
I set the suitcase on the floor
thinking good lord
I unpack
then return the suitcase
I knock on the door
It opens
I set the suitcase inside on the floor
I look at her
this is yours
I cannot look at it setting on the floor
forevermore

Is there a chance I could fit into your life
If not
Stab me with a knife
No reason to talk about it
Walk around it
Or think about it
Is there a chance
You see what I see
Feel what I feel
This is not lets make a deal
Ask
We could talk over a meal
Sounds Ideal
No baggage here
Nothing that needs to heal
If there is a chance
Don't be shy
Take a chance on me
Be all we can be
What would it take for you to agree
To take a chance on me
I can guarantee
There would be great *** with me
Kick the others to the curb
While using an action verb
I promise I want think your disturbed
Then you will see more then just a blur
When you take a chance on me
Your mind then will be clear
Then no reason to call anyone else dear
I will be the one that will  always appear
When you take a chance on me
I will be quick to fall to my knees
There will be more then wine and cheese
I know for a fact you will feel the breeze
and you will be appeased
with no disagrees
By taking a chance on me
After this do you agree
To take a chance on me
Yep, Your right, if you think this is about you and me
It is what it seems
An invitation to be with me
                !

My family
I no longer know
At self-destruction
I have become the pro
I am at the lowest of lows
I am the Farrow
The black crow
My phone does not ring with a hello
Never been invited to the summer chateau
That still exists from long ago
I have  no mansion in escrow
I do not suffer from tennis elbow  
The money I borrow
I owe
I am at my lowest of lows
I am alone
No one to call my own
So many I have known
But yet here I am alone
Many relationships I have blown
Weddings at the alter postponed
Maybe because of my tone
Which I do not condone
Now all I know
It is real
My fate
Is going to be to die
Alone

I have to ask
and
I need to know  

I have to ask
Why did so many people run in wolf packs
Turn away
To the misery of people everyday
Turn their backs and just walk away
As though they were dead prey
Day after day
Why did their evil  have to show
Why did they stroll with no human coed
Always traveling the nowhere roads
Knowing and knowed

I have seen
Children hold out their hand
Nothing it would land
All I saw were people turn their head
And
Pretend that they did not see that someone had bled
And
That there were people that needed to be fed  

I need to know...WHY?
Did  
People see only white or black
Turning there backs on people that were black
Yes, they did
It is fact

I need to know ...WHY?
So many people let their love go
and let it just fade away
Turn their heads and just walk away
Instead of facing the facts
Of why their lives lacks

I have to ask ..WHY??
People take their own lives
Easily
As though there was nothing to loose
or
Drown their lives in *****
Caused by so much abuse
All we did was make up an excuse

Near Death
I have to ask
and
I have to know
Are you going to keep turning your backs
And hide into the black

There is so much more I have to ask
and I need to know
Before
I reach the day of my death.
!!

maybe your dreams
maybe a new song to sing
maybe a new fling
maybe something new that you have not seen
maybe you will be made a Queen
maybe you will be made a King
maybe an early spring
maybe everything
maybe an engagement ring
maybe a wedding ring
maybe a bee sting
maybe what was wrong will be made right
maybe you will go on your first flight
maybe you will no longer have to fight
maybe everyone will be polite
you never know what tomorrow will bring
maybe just maybe
everything will be alright
!!

Will anyone visit my  stone
Miss me or wish that I was back home
Will anyone be broken hearted that I left them alone
Will they keep me in their memories and keep me  known

When I am dead and gone
Will they still call me an S.O.B.
Call me crazy
I hope that they would remember
that I was not lazy

When I am dead and gone
Will they remember that I was the one that they could  call on
I was the one they could depend on
And rely on

When I am dead and gone
I will be free of all the games  
Will they remember my name
without getting inflamed

When I am dead and gone
Will the people that hated me
Will they regret not taking a chance to get to know me
If not, Guess what, they can *******

When I am dead and gone
There will be no building that bares my name  
I hope people remember I lived my life to the fullest
With no regrets
I left this life with no debts
and I always took a chance and took the bet

When I am dead and gone
Will it really matter
I will be gone
!!

When you are looking
Can you believe
What you see
Not just here
But across each of the seas
Do you think
I cannot believe
How ******
How crazy
And to what speed
The near loss of the honey bee
The near loss of the common toad
We have been told
The realty is
There is no Justice League
This worlds end
I may not see
In history
How can you deny
Past prophecies
It is and was not a mystery
There will be an end
To this world

That
When you look
You refuse too see

One
Is not enough for me
Three is better to me
One is not enough for me
Three can do so much more for me
One in front of me
Two in the back of me
Three is for me
Believe me
They don't run from me
One is not enough for me
When they are done with me
I will find three more
That will knock on the door, come in
And have their way with me
One in front of me
Two in the back of me
The only way for me
When I am done
I throw them out
They will cry
Because they could not get enough of me
One is not enough for me
Three do it for me
My king size bed
Three fill it up for me
One in front of me
Two in the back of me
No jealousy
They share me
Three is the only way for me
One just can't do it for me
Three heads are better then one
That's not me
I just want one that would do it for me
One that would
Love just me
Who said three is better
What a good fantasy
Believe me
One is plenty for me
As long as
They are loving just me

Love Me ***

the love that I want
the love that I see
the love that I need
love without jealousy
love without complexities
love without penalties
the love that j want
the love that I see
the love that I need
love with integrity
love with intensity
love with sensarity
the love that I want
the love that I see
the love that I need
love with transparency
love with chemistry
love with a life's expectancy
the love that I want
the love that I see
the love that I need
love without infidelity
love without therapy
love without felony
the love that I want
the love that I see
the love that I need

maybe
eventually

Took my **** out
Decided to have a smoke
Come on over take a ****
Give me a shot gun
Let me get rid of the gum
Wow!! Are we going to have some fun
**** this **** is really good
Some awesome blending
The room is spinning
The high is beginning
I bet I am grinning
Not looking for an ending
Could we be sinning ?
Nah!!
I think we are winning
Pass it around
Loving all this sharing
Would you call it daring
This ****
Sure not full of seed
Believe me
This joint is so tight
Like sipping out of a straw
Drawl baby drawl
Not slowing down to a crawl
There is more where this came from
Not playing dumb
Until we go numb
Then we can say
We are true smokers
             !!

My best bud
It's sure not  a dud
Pop that top. up comes the suds
Drink of the hottest studs
On my mind all day while I work in the mud
Runs through my blood
Hate to say it,  in a flood
**** that bottle, hell I could drink a jug
Sorry ladies turn your head because I will chug
Afterwards come over here and I will give you a big *** hug
I will be acting like a big  lug
Had much rather have a bud then any kind of drug
Budweiser
Sure the hell makes me a lot nicer
Don't know about wiser ?

Since I am an old geyser LOL
Well, almost!!
Always have one in hand
What would I do if it was ever banned
all across this land
"Life"
Bud and a hot rock-n-roll band
Drinking it until I crash land
Then afterwards
Struggling to stand
My girl sure  the hell does not understand
My friends taking the witness stand
This life sure is grander with my
Budweiser
     !!

Staring at these four walls
All the pictures bringing memories to my mind
Was the love really hard to find
I thought I was kind
Was I blind
Was I wrong
Thinking it was our time

I thought a picture
Was worth a thousand words
Then why can't I find the right verbs
I have become a victim of her last words

These four walls
If they could talk and tell all
They cause me to break down and bawl
I thought we were in it for the long haul
These walls remind me it was not going to happen at all

I look at the cross hanging on the wall
I get on my knees  
And ask
God why is this happening to me
Why did she leave me

The clock ticking, hanging on the wall
Tells me how many days
Reminds me how many times I begged her to stay

These four walls