Where the pace is slow
Where everyone is not in a hurry to go

Where there is nothing like the smell of fresh cut hay
Where something that simple will make your day

Where everyone on the highway waves
Where the country store is the place to go
Where everyone knows the difference in a buck and doe

Where your time is spent fishing
Not setting around wishing

Where there is a country fair
Where Grandpa and Grandma set on the porch
in their favorite chairs

Where you can see and try counting the stars
Not spending all night in the bars

Where neighbor looks after neighbor
Where they put up a barn and share the labor

Where the garden is your farmers market

Where everyone drives a truck
Where when you get stuck in the mud it does not ****

Where the roosters crow
The rivers flow
Where the banks want foreclose

Where the chickens are free range
That will never change

Where you still hand milk the cow
and the dinner table is always full of country chow

I love the country life
!!

Is there no more love  
Doesn't it make you want to cry
This earth, it's about to die
Everyone turns a blinds eye
Why ?
Why ?
Does everyone just stand by
And not here the outcry
I am horrified
That  no one wants to rectify  
All they want to do is justify
And just get by
and not try
I guess it's easier to comply
To do nothing must be more
Dignified
Why ?
Are people so satisfied
To just set back and watch this world die
Why ?
Are people not terrified
Because they are waiting for it to be clarified
When it happens I guess then they will be mortified
Then
It will be to late to ask

Why ?
!!

We must give more then what we take
Learn to make
Her gift to us is letting us stay
Then we take all of her gifts away
It did not take us long to forget
Now she will collect on that debt
She does not make idle threats

It's not all about you and me
It's not about your an my needs
It's not about what we exceed
It's not about rather or not we have been pleased
It's not about what we have seized
It's not about what we have achieved
It's not about us living on easy street
It's not about just tomorrow
It's not about who we have beat

It's about
It's about not living in  darkness
It's about always landing on your feet
It's about being tough
It's about living for tomorrow
It's about hanging on when your at the end of your rope
It's about knowing there is hope
It's about how you meet
It's about how you greet

It's not about
It's not about our wins
It's not about the color of our skin
It's not about rather or not we are fat or thin
It's not about our possessions and our things
It's not about what we bring

It's about
It's about being everything we can be
It's about how we disagree
It's about living in reality
It's about the actuality
It's about our will
It's about not standing still
It's about not leaving anyone behind
It's about being kind
It's about all of mankind
 
!!

it is part of me making my way
it deciding if I will get to stay
or if it will be my last day
maybe my time will be over in may  
living for another day
it's the only way
day
after
day
after
day
after
day
starting with
today
!!

Living my life and this is the cost
Being lost
Tell me please
Is it just me
In this state of feeling lost
Is this the way it should be
As every morning defrost
Feeling so lost
My eyes glossed
When did this happen to me ?
When my love I lost ?
Setting silent I often ponder and wander
Are they as lost as me ?
Are we, still what we both need ?
Why could it not be ?
Are they thinking of me ?
Are they feeling the same need ?
To see me ?
Lost
After not hearing their laughter
I listen and think I hear it in the rafters
While laying in bed thinking of our mornings after
I am
Lost
!!

Thank God for our memories
Keeping everything the same
In a tight picture frame
Framing all the time that passes by
While it flies by  
Storing everything until the day we die
Keeping all the promises we made
Every game we ever played
In the smaller grades  
Nothing ever fades
Decade after decades
Memories
Some are good
Some are bad
Even sad
Not letting us forget the people that we had
and known
So many memories we have made while we have grown
They are yours and those you own
Memories you can recall when you are alone
!!

Sup??
Back up!!
Before I blow up!!
Yup!!
Breakup??
Nah!!
Lets make up !!
As long as you have grown up !!
Hold up!!
You want to start up!!
Lay up??
Give me a close up!!
Where will we wind up??
Let me clean up!!
Before we hook up!!
Once I start I want let up!!
I have been letting it pile up !!
It will be a big blow up!! :)
Let me get it lined up !!
It's tuned up !!
Hold UP!!
****!!
Slow up!!
It's up!!
Let me look up!!
It just blew up !!
Now??
Still want to break up??
After that !!
I figured you would
Hold Up!!
Yup!!
:) :) :) :) !!

I have to ask
and
I need to know  

I have to ask
Why did so many people run in wolf packs
Turn away
To the misery of people everyday
Turn their backs and just walk away
As though they were dead prey
Day after day
Why did their evil  have to show
Why did they stroll with no human coed
Always traveling the nowhere roads
Knowing and knowed

I have seen
Children hold out their hand
Nothing it would land
All I saw were people turn their head
And
Pretend that they did not see that someone had bled
And
That there were people that needed to be fed  

I need to know...WHY?
Did  
People see only white or black
Turning there backs on people that were black
Yes, they did
It is fact

I need to know ...WHY?
So many people let their love go
and let it just fade away
Turn their heads and just walk away
Instead of facing the facts
Of why their lives lacks

I have to ask ..WHY??
People take their own lives
Easily
As though there was nothing to loose
or
Drown their lives in *****
Caused by so much abuse
All we did was make up an excuse

Near Death
I have to ask
and
I have to know
Are you going to keep turning your backs
And hide into the black

There is so much more I have to ask
and I need to know
Before
I reach the day of my death.
!!

Will anyone visit my  stone
Miss me or wish that I was back home
Will anyone be broken hearted that I left them alone
Will they keep me in their memories and keep me  known

When I am dead and gone
Will they still call me an S.O.B.
Call me crazy
I hope that they would remember
that I was not lazy

When I am dead and gone
Will they remember that I was the one that they could  call on
I was the one they could depend on
And rely on

When I am dead and gone
I will be free of all the games  
Will they remember my name
without getting inflamed

When I am dead and gone
Will the people that hated me
Will they regret not taking a chance to get to know me
If not, Guess what, they can *******

When I am dead and gone
There will be no building that bares my name  
I hope people remember I lived my life to the fullest
With no regrets
I left this life with no debts
and I always took a chance and took the bet

When I am dead and gone
Will it really matter
I will be gone
!!

The night you walked out the door
And you decided you would no longer be my wife
And that you no longer wanted to be part of my life  
You should've  just stabbed me in the heart with a knife
"The Pain"

All the lonely nights
All the wishing you might
All the mornings that I woke and you were not beside me
All the times I dropped to my knees
Caused by  
"The Pain"

Just walking around in a daze
My days  
Sundays, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays  
Saturdays......
Nothing but a haze
"Time"
How unkind
"The Pain"

My heart
It cannot stand us being apart
It cannot find the energy for a fresh start
It cannot stop it's bleeding
It needs you needing
All it is feeling
Is
"The Pain"

During the nights
I dream that you come back
Crying out your name
Then I wake in the pitch black
To realize you are not back
"Panic attack"!!
"The Pain"

I step out into the rain
Because I have no more tears
Scream out your name
Hoping you will hear
And you will come back
And we forget the night you walked out the door
And you take away
"The Pain"
                                          !!







  
  


,

as the sun goes down
as i roam the house, there is no one to be found
silent with no sound
i sat down, to unwound
there is no light, dark, as i look around
how profound
this house with no life abound
sad to say none inbound
or none that will come round
Silent nights
where did everyone go
all my family, friends, all the people I know
where did it go
the love that use to flow
where did they go  
the hearts that once glowed
Silent nights
all is calm
with so much peace
life's release
it's not for me, it's not in my heart
but still disconnected and still living apart
no mother of my child
no lives to share or to take part
Silent nights
lonely I might
but by knowing God
he keeps my life bright
i always sleep
in heavenly peace
in my
Silent nights
!!