to change our  fate
to start over and to have a clean slate
to stop the hate
to stop the mistakes
that we all constantly make
with that, I think we all can relate
God's rules. those, we do not have to translate
or ever debate
his word we need to reinstate
never recreate
or  berate
at the end, with him, we all have a date
heaven is really not that far
but we have to change the way things are
we all have to  bare his scares
it's his world where we all are
we cannot change what we have done so far
it's not to late
for a restart
for us to be a little more smart  
to stop the wars that we start
before it's time for us to depart
to fill everyone's heart
"we aren't"
it's not to late
to pull someone you know or don't know
in from the cold
to find a stranger and just hold
and console
or lead them back home
to do good like we have been told

it's not to late
to change our fate
the way it was foretold

that love would not last a life time
that this world would be filled with so much crime
that there would be so many mountains that you would have to climb
that life would be so fast, as the clock again chimes
that I would not have someone to call mine
now that I settle into my prime

I did not know

that I would not have sons or daughters
that life could be so easily slaughtered
that there would be so many times in rough waters

I did not know

that I would be as rich as I am
that I would only be I'm
that I would only be where I am
that life would not  be as shiny as a new dime
that there would be so little time

I did not  know

that there would be so many people,  that I once knew
that there would be so many things, that I would not do
that there would be so many things, that I would be new to
that there would be so many things, that I would not be wise to
that there would be so many times ,that I was not true to

I did not know  

that I would be witness to what people go through

I did not know

there would be so many times that I would not be proud
of what I stooped to

I did not know

that death could come so soon
that this I am not immune to
that God loves me no matter what I do
that he will forgive me to

!!

there will be no tomorrow
no more time to borrow
seeing becomes narrow
the mind becomes an inferno
doing nothing thorough
being alone
everybody disowned
hearing nothing but the moan
and the groan
tears flow
the world turns so slow
there is no more glow
become a john doe  
feeling just so so
no longer a believer
not allowing anyone to come closer
sorrow it constantly lurks
face always smirks
heart barely works
my sorrow maybe will end
the day after
tomorrow
!!

where i still see your face
our love , still exist just a trace
this was our space
that we came to after the rat race
when i walk in i try to keep a straight face
and not break
for loves sake
your absence i am not sure i can shake
there is only so much this man can take
sleepless nights and always awake
i swear i see your shadow
i take a double take
maybe our split was a mistake
is it to late
or was this our fate
how could you leave this place
and hate
not even a last date
wait, ours, this place
it was not even up for a debate
i could not get irate
you called me your soul mate
in this place
now i have lost my mental state
at any rate
apparently it does not matter
the after or
this place
would you like to answer
no
you would rather
see my heart shatter
with no more laughter
i am not much of an actor
i can't believe this place
nor i no longer  matter
our place

This place
!!

I do not know  
Maybe for someone in my future or
my past from long ago
"Who Knows"
This is not  a bio
Nor a request of
Just something to say hello
So!! "Hello"
Spark an interest
Something may grow
"A Desire to know"
Of course there is no status guo
"To know" !!
All it as to do is flow
I am not just any Joe blow
Right now I guess a John Doe
Because I am not known
To the people or person I am writing this to
"Although"!!
You never know !!
It's 2 a.m. or so
Watching a T.V. show
Something they call a talk show (I think)
Rather be staring at a painting from Vincent Van Gogh
Laying here naked from head to toe
"Sleepy"
So I guess I got to go
Well any way
"Hello"
To Someone
I may or may not know
!!
:)

so many this world has stole
that are no longer whole  
putting first their own goals
not having any self-control
something I think the Devil has stole
one by one our souls
so many has forgotten his good grace
it's not happened at a slow pace
or in any particular place nor
to just one race
"A Disgrace"
that we have lost God's embrace
something you cannot replace
can you imagine
we allowed our souls
to be stolen by the fire  breathing dragon
God's heart now sagging
he is no longer hearing prayer
nothing more to share ?
why would you dare
then we wonder why our souls
our in despair
no longer aware
"Beware"
our souls
!!

Barely made it to bed
in my drunken stupor
Close to being dead
**** don't know if I made it to the right homestead
Hell for all  I know it could have been someone's shed
With the bed spinning, "Lord a waterbed"??
The way I feel I think I have become the undead ..
In this drunken stupor
Passed out
Woke up
And the cutest little Redhead was laying next to me
Someone that I have wed ????
Maybe dreaming instead?
Might drink some more getting ready for what might be ahead..
No!! She turned over and looked at me and said "I thought you were Jed"
Oh ****!! I am dead !!!
I ain't Jed
I said
But you can stay right here next to me "In your bed"??
**** this girl was fine a purebred Redhead
No it could not be, a knock at the door
She looked over at me and said
"Honey" " I think it's Jed"
I jumped out of bed
grabbed my pants, shirt and boots
Naked as a J-Bird
Ran out the back door
Thinking
**** you Jed!!

I wanted that little Redhead
                !!

My best bud
It's sure not  a dud
Pop that top. up comes the suds
Drink of the hottest studs
On my mind all day while I work in the mud
Runs through my blood
Hate to say it,  in a flood
**** that bottle, hell I could drink a jug
Sorry ladies turn your head because I will chug
Afterwards come over here and I will give you a big *** hug
I will be acting like a big  lug
Had much rather have a bud then any kind of drug
Budweiser
Sure the hell makes me a lot nicer
Don't know about wiser ?

Since I am an old geyser LOL
Well, almost!!
Always have one in hand
What would I do if it was ever banned
all across this land
"Life"
Bud and a hot rock-n-roll band
Drinking it until I crash land
Then afterwards
Struggling to stand
My girl sure  the hell does not understand
My friends taking the witness stand
This life sure is grander with my
Budweiser
     !!

I thought I would try it
and throw my hat into the ring:( :)
Don't need a friend on the wing :)
Don't have to dress for winter or spring :)
Everyone is  looking and wanting a little  fling :)
Some may even swing :)
Never can you see if they are wearing a wedding  ring :(
But they don't mind showing their ding-a-lings :(
Some thinking they are Queens and Kings :(
Oh my!, Someone showing their *** hanging from a ceiling sling?? :(
Some loving to tie themselves  up in lots of string :-(
That was enough for me I  am done with
this on line dating thing !!!!!...

None fleeting
None  in consensual
All so above usual
I would say normal
Nothing formal
All, the way they should have been informal
All my loves
Were my snow white doves
Some in my past times
Some in my present time
All part of my time
As some were in my beginning
They all will be in my ending
As everything does
It will begin
As well end
Some I have lost
and then found
Some on the rebound
It begins
Nothing presumed
All pursued  
In all consumed
Fate?
That I met all of you
Now setting here reminiscing
And missing
My
"Loves"
      !!

09/11/2015

I write this respectfully,

As I have followed your (story) if you will
I  had to wonder where is the disconnect in
Church separated from State
I must say it was easy to detect
Your reason for refusing
Could it be? For what you think in the future what you
will collect
I have a feeling you knew what you were going to affect
I think you clearly have not read the Constitution because it clearly directs
That is something you may not reject
or disrespect
As I watched you with your so called fan mail, thinking how much could really be hate mail , at your kitchen table
I hope the letters were filled with words that would help you become more stable, not so unstable
Then maybe you can  stop some of the hatred that you have helped to enable
I was set back when I heard you are on your forth remarriage
From a lack of commitment?? Of your vows
They are not like throw away towels
Then when you were released from jail
Honey I think you forgot to wear your veil
Maybe then you would have been more hailed...(your thought)
Then when you and your political FRIENDS? ran upon the stage to eye of the tiger
The song is for a winner of a fight not for someone who caused a fight
out of sure spite
Then to hear you say all this was out of the highest respect to God
Ma'am in church and state there is no connect
Something I think you should have checked
With much respect

Sincerely,

Took my **** out
Decided to have a smoke
Come on over take a ****
Give me a shot gun
Let me get rid of the gum
Wow!! Are we going to have some fun
**** this **** is really good
Some awesome blending
The room is spinning
The high is beginning
I bet I am grinning
Not looking for an ending
Could we be sinning ?
Nah!!
I think we are winning
Pass it around
Loving all this sharing
Would you call it daring
This ****
Sure not full of seed
Believe me
This joint is so tight
Like sipping out of a straw
Drawl baby drawl
Not slowing down to a crawl
There is more where this came from
Not playing dumb
Until we go numb
Then we can say
We are true smokers
             !!

Would really be nice if there was some
Abstaining !
Maybe some
Constraining !
If you only knew how
Draining!
I am really not
Attaining !
"Stop" with the
Explaining!
Sure the hell not
Entertaining!
Tired of it being so
Detaining!
Nothing
Gaining!
Not anything said that is
Containing!
Not worth all the
Campaigning!
So
Disclaiming!
All the
Proclaiming!
It's
Inflaming!
And all the
Blaming!
It continues
So shut the **** up
and stop THE
Complaining
         !!

When I was a teen
I ran into a pond hoping to
drown

When I was in my early teens
two men
nothing to say, but how mean
took something from me
youth and my virginity
not just once
what they did to me
without permission
i became their mission
keeping quiet and without
any admissions
about what they took from me
now older
i now have to deal
with the damage
they did mentally
i cut my wrist
not accidentally
took a hand full of pills
now thinking back
it gives me cold chills
what they took from me
no more
will i ever allow them
to try take my life
from me
no more hoping
to
drown
no more
will they take from me
     !!