The pugilist who
lost the fight,
Took his own life
Doesn’t seem right.
Fighting depression
Round after round
Hitting the canvas
With unerringly sound.
There’s no more bells
No more punches to give
Inside the ring of ropes
Where he once lived.

Time is ticking
Depression mounts
Getting through
the night
Thats what counts.
Pills at the ready
Chair and the rope,
Im drowning in sorrow
Im losing all hope.
The night drags on
Searching for the morn
Wishing hopefully
Why was I ever born.
The cat meows
I can’t raise my head
Every passing moment
I despairingly dread.
The morning comes
It’s still so black
Every step I take
I fall
Through the cracks.
How much more
Can I endure
Pills and the rope
Are my only cure.

You lied to me
I don’t know why
You try manipulation
And then you cry.
Is it a game you
like to play
To try and win
And get your
own way.
I smile
shoulders I shrug
I Make you a tea
In your favourite mug,
You do not have to
Lie to me there’s
Too much heartache
Don’t you agree.

I felt  alive
When you were
By my side,
We travelled
The countries
Far and wide.
Then one morning
In the night you died,
For next year
I cried and cried.
My lover
My soul mate
I miss your face
I scattered your ashes
In your favourite place.
Im still travelling
Far and wide
Everyday wishing
We were
side by side.

Part time flag wavers
Brainwashed by news
Lambs following evil
They haven’t a clue.
Is it really about flags
Is it really about hate
Is it about containment
Because of an open gate.
They’ve found a ***
Of golden honey
Where there given shelter
And a bit of money.
Part time flag wavers
Guarding a ***
Not knowing really why
If you wanting change
Be prepared to die.

I lay beside you
With a troubled mind
I cannot sleep
You’ve been so unkind.
Your back is turned
Your shoulder is cold
What can I do to get
Back into the fold.
Why can’t you tell me
What I have done bad,
The longer it go’s on
Im beginning  to be sad.
I fall asleep in the
Morning your gone
Please please tell
Me what I’ve done wrong.

Clouds are dark
I feel the pain
Oh dear its pouring
Razor blades again.
Sit beside me
hold my hand,
I need to feel
your kindness
Please understand.
I know it’s not
The answer it’s not
going to heal,
Thank you my friend,
I  just like
the way it feels.

Patriotic nationalistic
Isn’t an on of button
Or when it suits you.
Pride in your country
Isn’t just about a flag
Or coming home
in a body bag.
Patriotism is love
Patriotism is kind
Next step is nationalism
Bring on the hate
Im better than you
Oh dear humanity
As eaten itself
Wow to late.

Cold of heart
Brain so sharp
With poison pen
She made a start.
Words of hatred
Words of love
about a
Woman in black
Wearing silk gloves.
She was looking
For happiness in
A cauldron of fire
Her words of hatred
Tried not to inspire,
Her words of love
Of lust and desire.
In the end her pen
Caught fire.

Alone with my thoughts
Scary and dark,
The abyss is calling
filled with sharks.
As I sit on the balcony
Looking aloft
I Smiled at sky
And then I jumped off.

With line and hook
You reeled me in.
You
Promised me this
You
Promised me that
Overwhelmed by
Your beauty
In awe I sat.
I was bewitched
I succumbed to
Your way
From this path I
Did not stray.
The warmth of
Your loving,
Kind words to
My ears
I followed you
Blindly for seventy years
I worshipped you
We held hands
and we died,
Now in our grave
We lay
Side by side.

Alone and cold
Cannot sleep
Depression dark
The abyss so deep.
Stare into space
Heartbeat so slow
Static emotions
With nowhere to go.
Outlook bleak
Memories gone
No more music
No more song.
Time slides away
Into day and night
Body collapsing
With no more fight.
Is this the end

Friday night
We Uncorked
A bottle of wine,
We drank
Flesh upon flesh
Loving was fine
In the hours of
Darkness the
Sun did shine.
I was yours
And you were mine.
She fell asleep
I had warmth
In my heart
Then she let rip
With one stinky ****.

Im not running
Im walking away
I’ve made my mind up
I shall not stay.
I shall go with my
Head held high
Because i will
still love you
Till the day I die.
I will not let in hate
I’ve already shut that gate,
I step out into the future
Unaware what
life I shall live
Hoping you will
see in your
Heart one day
to forgive.
I know wherever I roam
Without you my love
I shall always be alone.

You want me
To do this
You want me
To do that
Clean the car
Feed the cat.
You put stickers
On the fridge door
Like do the washing up
And clean the floor.
I got to put the bins out
On a certain day
I work twenty four seven
And you want all my pay.
This is not fair
l do love you
But a one sided arrangement
Just will not do
You can keep the cat
And the house too
Im out of here
Can’t live life like
this Im totally through.

Long legged *****
In a black dress
I lust after you
I do confess.
You are a minefield
A conundrum at best
A total enigma
Just full of zest.
I walk the sidewalk
Just by chance
Hoping upon hope
To get a glance.
I know Im still in
My teenage years
But I can still dream
Of you my dear.

Don’t go bringing
Up the past
let it settle
Inside your head
When it rains
Don’t go dredging
Up the riverbed.
Please do not weep
Try not to cry,
Don’t wake the
sleeping
Dog it will only
Bring up lies.
Look to the future
There’s no happiness
Holding on to the past,
The riverbed holds
to many sad memories
For this relationship
To last.

I walk over the skulls
On the killing fields
The wolf as eaten
His human yield.
I have twenty four hours
To slay this foe
To stop the killings
And all the black woe.
The moon rises to
End the darkest of days
The wolf is close
Tonight I must slay,
When it eats me
I shall not cry
I’ve poisoned myself
Like me it will slowly die.
I sacrificed myself
So others shall live
I take it’s life
Mine I shall give.

I am blind
I cannot see
My imagination
Do's it for me.
Come to me
Let me feel
Your skin,
Don’t let the
Wheelchair
Cloud you within.
The eyes and chair
Are just my cover
Use your imagination
And be my lover.
It do's not need
To be complex
Out of my wheelchair
We can have ***.
I need you to love me
I need to feel free
Being with you
My imagination
Can see.

Ducking for apples
In red hot fat
I am ugly
I can deal with that.
Being trolled
On face book
Social media on line
Just arseholes having
A whine.
My inner beauty
Comes from a kind heart
A lovely slice of cake
A tip top start.
Trouty lips not for me
Looks silly on a
Fatty don’t you see,
I deal with everything
Except being ignored
This is plain rude and it
Makes me abhor.

Prickly as a cactus
Cunning as a fox
A pretty live wire
A Jack in the box.
Sweet Marie
A burning flame
You need to
Lighten up
To play
The loving game.
You have a kind heart
Beautiful eyes,
Exterior so hard
You make the sun cry.
I will persevere
To bring out the
Kindness in you
Break through the hardness
It’s what I shall do.

Cupboards are bare
Refugees die
War and hatred
Make children cry.
Playgrounds are closed
Books are not read
Eyes of the children are
Full of dread.
Schools become hospitals
Propaganda will rule
People hate people
The child becomes fuel.
The flame of hatred
Is still alight today
It’s always been
This stupid way.

Nothing prepared me for
What was to come,
I met a woman, lovely
So full of fun.
We walked and talked
For many an hour
The day was a blanket
Of sun and showers.
Into the evening
We drank and danced
We played roulette
And took a chance,
We walked home and
Went straight to bed
Stripped of and naked
My heart skipped a beat as
Freda became Fred.

So many
heartaches
In the world
Are we compatible
Boys and girls.
Love is like
A ring of fire
Rights and wrongs
Attached to desire.
I really don’t get it
That’s why I’m alone,
I definitely ain’t
A rolling stone.
On my grave stone
My epitaph will say
An unopened heart
Didn’t come out to play.

Some people
Like to gamble
You will
Generally lose
Some people
Like to love
Some people
Like the *****
When all is done
You will lose.
When angels sing
The door bells ring
You will lose
From the beginning
Of time
Life and death
Should be a crime
The sun don’t shine
Please don’t whine
When you lose.

Black bird and the worm
Became the best of friends
They lived a long life
And a story with no end.

Searching through madness
The outcome will be bleak
You shall never know
What you are trying to seek.

Dazed and confused
Just one pile of mess
Entangled in hopeless despair
In a turquoise dress.

Battered and bruised
Encased in a ****
Nobody is listening
It’s all to absurd.

So here you
are standing
Totally blind,
Trying to
catch hold
Of something
you will
never find.

Social media a platform
For good and bad
If you are a snowflake
It’s going to make you sad,
Catholic Protestant Muslim Jew
The problem is not the platform
The problem is you.
Are you a deceiver
Are you a believer,
Good and bad
Exist only in the receiver.
You do not need to cower
To social media power
Be strong don’t open the gate
Don’t be inane and take the bait.
Good and bad lives in us all
If you climb higher and higher
The harder you will fall.

I needed you
You threw me aside,
Every night without you
Tears I cried,
I lay there not knowing
What to do,
You left me mother
I was only two.
In my teens my
Thoughts did grow
Did I really want to know
Who was my mother
Who tossed me aside
I had no more tears
I wished to cry.
But alas I had to know
The thoughts in my head
They would not go,
For five years I searched the land
No information was coming to hand
What sort of woman
Could abandon a child
This Made me who I am
A little bit wild,
So with my adopted names
I shall not pursue this
Cruellest of games.

The promenade is full today
With sunshine walkers
Enjoying the day.
Children with
beach *****
In sand
they play,
This is the
life on a
Summers day.
Fish and chips
Inside beachside cafes
Policeman in glass box
Having a laugh.
Attraction of thee
Arcades ready to
Take your money,
Fifty pence machine you
Might win a bunny.
The day ends the sun
Needs a rest
Sunshine days
Simply the best.

Being tried for ******
In the first degree
Execution is waiting
Waiting for me.
Finally to get rid of
The monster
That lives inside,
I know Im not guilty
They won’t know I lied.

My girl with
Golden eyes
My daughter
Reached the
Age of five
Her journey
Was about to start
Then disaster
Our world
Fell apart.
She was gone
Tears I cry
Why do children
Have to die.

I was born
Under a wandering star
Didn’t have any money
To buy a car.
Bedraggled suit
Holes in my boots
Had no job
Had no roots.
I was born
Under a wandering star
I didn’t need money
To wander far.
Still had good looks
Lots of charm
Did my best
To do no harm,
Hey ** I met a witch
Lovely woman
Walked around naked
Not wearing a stitch
Was rather weird
Oddly at first
I stopped wandering
And drank my thirst.

I crave some kindness
From whoever I meet
My emotions and feelings
Are damaged and weak.
Mental health shattered
Every thought is bleak,
I crave kindness
in people
the ones
I meet.
This fruit cake
Has ingredients
Some have gone amiss,
I don’t tick boxes
I don’t deserve this.

Im burnt out
Love is cruel
Our arguments
Have become
A titanic duel.
It shouldn’t
Be this way
It’s like a butler
Thats lost his tray,
Come on my lover
Let’s get through
This day.
Me and you
Can work this out
Let’s ease up
It’s a good shout.
At the end of another day
There we shall sleep and
There we shall lay.

Im drowning in
The tears you shed
You say you hate me
Then take me to bed.
Im confused it’s all inane
Completely mental
****** insane.
You don’t
Then you do
Please forgive me
I haven’t a clue.
Your a two sided coin
loyal and true,
Im stuck in the middle
Between happy and blue.

Standing face to face
Our eyes
we just stare,
No more words
No more tears
Sometimes life
Ain’t fair,
Hand in hand
Dressed in black
Life and death
Go back to back.
We left the cemetery
In single file
It’s hard to take
The loss of a child.

I took what I needed
Then threw her aside
That was my mistake
In that moment I cried.
I was left broken
Crestfallen and dark.
She was wonderful
My name is mark.

I need a woman
She needs to be kind
Im in a predicament
And tragically blind.
She needs to be hardy
I am ill tempered
And flawed,
I like good music
And a good dance floor.
She needs to be understanding
I like my walks
To be able to argue
And lots of talk.
A dating app is not my way
So I will have to put
Up with myself
For another day.

Welcome to now
You’ve entered
My world
You look fantastic
A sweet pretty girl.
Welcome to now
You’ve got this glow
A wonderful light
Inside a picture show.
Welcome to now
The future is ours
The world is open,
There are no bars.
Welcome to now
Under the warming sun
Are we going to
Live life and have
Some fun.

Walking down
the road
Carrier bags
in hand
Dreaming of
a golden beach
So my feet can
feel the sand.
Backpack carries
My waterproof tent
Walking to that
Golden beach
I don’t have to
Pay no rent.
Im not one for
Four walls
Open spaces I hear
them call,
The views I see
With my bags in hand
Life is wonderful
Oh so grand.

Who am I to
Question you
About love and
What you do.
I need to rethink
Shut my mouth
Or this relationship
Will go oh so south.
Jealousy has hit
My tiny brain
It’s there twenty four seven
Driving me insane.
Help me my darling
To silence these thoughts
So our harmony won’t
Get cut short.

Faraway woman
With faraway eyes
Please come closer
And make me cry,
Faraway woman
With tender touch
Faraway woman
I want to fall in love.
Faraway woman
I sense you are kind
Your scent of a woman
Just blows my mind.

She’s got the look
The image just right,
She’s got the look
Intelligent so bright.
She’s got the look
Heart of gold
She’s got the look
Always hot never cold
She’s got the look
Bucketfuls of humour
She had the look
She died of a
brain tumour

There’s flames
In your tears
Barbwire in
your heart,
Your words
Are so hurtful
I must find
Away to part.
Your gate is
Always open
It’s there to
Welcome
me in,
But then all
The lies and hurt
It’s growing
rather thin.
Stuck in a trap
A catch 22
There’s flames
In your tears
But what can I do.

I am your Bonny
You are my Clyde
Together forever
Side by side .
Take to the highways
Travel through towns
Run with the ups
Push away the downs.
We will sleep under
The stars look up
At the moon
Greet every sunrise
As if the light in the room.
We will dance the meadows
Sing to the hills
Everyday we will blossom
With the people we ****.

Sitting on a branch
High upon a tree
I am wondering
Upon my own
Sexuality.
Am I going to
Be pigeon holed
Why can’t I
Just be me.
Problem is not me
It’s ******* society.

We tell each other stories
About our past glories
Some are heroic
Some stupidly inane
Some are about love
suffering and pain.
We tell each other
Lots of truths
and plenty of lies
Some make us laugh
Some make us cry,
Some hit a nerve
And then you ask why.
Stories make us smile
Some stories make you weep
If there not interesting
You can always fall to sleep.

Climbed the tallest mountain
Swam the coldest seas
Crawled through the desert
On my hands and knees.

You know I love you

Endured an episodes of love island
Shopping trips were hell
Heard all of your stories
You told them so well.

You know I love you

I’ve walked on broken glass
Walked on coals of fire
Pleased you all night long
Coveted your desires.

You know I love you

I’ve taken away your darkness
Soaked up all of your pain
Sorry I can’t come over tonight
Haven’t got an umbrella for the rain.

Are you
running from
the pain
The crows
will never
leave your
Brain.

Your to low
To out run
The crow
The continual pecking
Inside your mind
Will in the end
Turn you blind.

The continuous
Crowing inside
Your head
Makes you lose
Your glow
Time after time
Blow after blow
You can’t out run
That crow.